The following is a brief testimony of how I came to God. A more detailed version can be found in my speech, What I Learned About Life.

Many people are surprised that I have become such a fervent believer in God, and to that I say, “You’re not the only one.” In high school, I confidently declared myself an atheist after learning about the theory of evolution. I studied microbiology in university and then embarked on a scientific career that lasted six years, supplanted by a second career dedicated around fornication. How could a man who was so far from God come to have complete trust in Him practically overnight?

The emptiness of worldly life

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As the years went on as a full-time fornicator, my spiritual belief slowly moved from atheism to agnosticism, thanks to studying Eastern philosophies such as Tao, which explained how we were one with the “source,” a sort of proto-god with no name. Once I accepted that we were all connected to the source, mostly due to the persuasive lectures of Alan Watts and Osho, it wasn’t a big step to believe that there was a god at the center of it, or at least a force that was god-like. I would soon interchange words like source, God, universe, and mother nature in my public speech.

Eastern philosophies were helpful, but I still wondered why I was experiencing such a lack of meaning at the peak of my hedonistic efforts. I turned to the Bible, beginning with the Old Testament. I thought that a straight-through reading would provide me with answers, solve all my existential problems, and make life easier, for I was ready to believe, but my mind, trained in the ways of modern “logic,” could simply not accept the Bible’s miracles and visions. Instead, I gravitated towards resources that debunked the Bible as “flawed,” “contradictory,” and “corrupted” by man through bad translations. I finished the Old Testament, read the four Gospels of the New Testament, and thus concluded my spiritual inquiry.

I did enjoy the Books of Job and Ecclesiastes, but only in a secular sense. No faith blossomed. I still had the same problem: my life was centered around hedonistic acts that were eating at me. For too long I had structured my existence to receive bursts of pleasure from fornication, but I was becoming more lost and atomized as a result. Upping the dose of fornication with more exotic women did not solve the problem. My Eastern studies taught me the fruitlessness of desire and feeding the ego, but I saw these teachings as only an advanced form of individualism. They merely helped me navigate a material world where I was at the center, as if I were my own god. In fact, many Eastern gurus claim that you are your own god. Even Osho has said that you could “become like a god” in this world all on your own.

I started to tamper down my pursuits of women, because the reward was becoming so small, but I had nothing to replace it with. On many weekend nights, I went out to the clubs not because I needed a woman but because I needed material for my blog. It struck me that I was getting dissatisfied with hedonism when I had been so sure of it, or at least sure enough to roam the world for it. What else have I been wrong about?

At around the same time, I started perceiving an increase in the evil around me. I wasn’t the epitome of good, but even I had a limit to immorality. I would fornicate as much as possible, but I couldn’t accept abortion, the globalist agenda of destroying individual nations with third-world immigration, and homosexuality. You could argue that my vehemence against a fornicating homosexual was a way to relieve my own guilt of fornicating with women, since we were both behaving in a similarly sterile way that viewed sex as recreation, but it was clear to me that the “love is love” campaigns were intermediary steps towards something more sinister—the grooming and molestation of children. My fornication was the end goal, and a faulty one at that, but developments like Drag Queen Story Time show that one of the gay establishment’s principal aims is converting children to their lifestyle.

There were four moments that served as indicators to me that evil in the world was indeed deepening.

1. White House lit up with gay rainbow (June 2015)

Why was the government supporting sodomy, which is responsible for spreading HIV and all sorts of sexually transmitted diseases? Since when did homosexuality become the state ideology?

2. “Caitlyn” Jenner winning the Arthur Ashe Courage award at the ESPYs (July 2015)

I did a lecture in New York City and went to a bar with the attendees afterwards. On a television screen, I watched Caitlyn Jenner receive an award from ESPN for her courage in wearing makeup and women’s clothes. This occurred just a few months after he appeared on a sympathetic interview with Diane Sawyer. The elites were clearly behind pushing the newest degeneracy, transsexualism.

3. Rumors surrounding Hollywood celebrities (March 2016)

I stumbled upon a video from an individual named “Black Child” that speculated on the sexuality of major celebrities and how most of Hollywood is one big Satanic cult. Sites like Vigilant Citizen added further evidence that Hollywood celebrities and even politicians are actually controlled slaves who are doing the bidding of their masters in exchange for money and fame. It’s one thing to submit to the casting couch for movie roles, but it was clear that many participants worshipped various demons, whose symbols are frequently displayed in music videos and advertisements.

At the time I may not have believed in the One God, but people who had massive success and power believed in demons, were praying to those demons, and then were showing demonic symbols in mass-produced media, all at the same time that I was seeing a clear increase of evil in society. If there is true evil then there must also be true good, because evil cannot exist unless there is a good to oppose it. Was there any force that the establishment hated, and seemed determined to destroy, and which represented true good? Yes, Jesus Christ. I started asking questions about why Christ was so hated by people high up the power ladder, and soon I learned that a disproportionate number of those people seemed to have the same religio-ethnic composition as those who killed Christ.

4. National Geographic magazine puts transsexual child on cover (January 2017)

As expected, the evil was now spreading to children, who were being groomed publicly at gay pride marches and events. Some were adopted into homosexual households and then—we must presume—molested. Information revealed through Pizzagate, Jeffrey Epstein, the Finders cult, and other exposés were hinting that pedophilia was institutionalized. In the case of National Geographic, a publication that is supposed to feature beautiful nature photographs was actually promoting the hormonal destruction of children, which opens the doors for them to be sexually abused.

I began to see all major institutions as a connected organism working in lockstep for the final goal of destroying society. We can attempt to find reasons for that destruction, such as an effort by the oligarchs to maintain permanent rule over a weakened population, or an effort by a certain tribe to cement their position as enemy of the human race, all while enriching themselves, but I believe it comes down to the basic fight of good against evil. Evil does not need a reason to do evil; it will do so for its sake alone.

An unexpected loss

With the failure of designing my own lifestyle, and watching the level of evil rise in society, I was now in a desperate state of seeking. I wanted to figure out not only the correct way to live, but also why society was degrading so quickly. My mind was dominated by these thoughts and questions as my sister battled breast cancer upon her diagnosis in the fall of 2015. She fought the disease for two and a half years and died in March of 2018.

My years sleeping around and traveling the world, and the “strength” I thought I built up while doing so, didn’t come close to preparing me for her death. I had no knowledge or belief that could put the loss in perspective. Nothing in the secular society I was a part of could help me. The gains from my worldly experiences could not bring my sister back or allow me to bear the pain. My superior thoughts and logic could not help guide me to safety. I had believed I was powerful due to my “masculinity,” hard-earned from international travels and numerous sexual encounters, most of which I had forgotten, but it was all a delusion.

For many months, I felt that continuing with my life as before was fruitless. Nothing seemed to matter. I drank every day. I took every black pill I could get my hands on. I could keep it together around friends or in public, but it was all for appearances—many nights I wished to die. I was scared to stand close to the edge of balconies for fear I would spontaneously jump. I busied myself with meaningless work to distract from the pain. I would just suffer alone, and watch helplessly as others suffered, until my time was over.

The gift of faith

And then, eleven months after my sister’s death, I felt the urge to pray. I didn’t take it seriously at first, but the feeling persisted, one that I had never felt before. After fumbling with this urge for several weeks, I went on Google and found a web site that taught me how to pray. Very quickly into my first prayer, tears began streaming down my face, and the next day, I felt that a burden had been lifted from my shoulders. I didn’t have to drink to numb the pain. Soon, I wouldn’t have to do a lot of the things I used to do to numb the pain, not only from my sister’s death, but also from being in a state of spiritual death thanks to my addiction to the pleasures of this world.

There were two little accidents that were important in my turn towards faith. The first was my baptism in an Armenian Orthodox church at the age of 9. My mother never forced me to go to church, but she did force me to get baptized. Thirty years later, it was a simple matter to go right back to the same church as the same spiritual child.

The second accident was reading Darwinian Fairytales by David Stove in early 2015. As a trained scientist, the biggest blockage I had for turning to God was the supposed infallibility of evolution. We were not created by God, I believed, but evolved over billions of years from a primordial soup that randomly developed consciousness. Stove’s book poked so many holes into my faith of evolution that I could intellectually and rationally discard it as the main theory for explaining how humans were created. There are evolutionary aspects to how God maintains the natural world, but evolution was not our creator. In fact, I only had to look at my own behavior to realize that there was nothing evolutionary about my sterile pursuit of fornication, which I claimed to base on “biology.” Once this key blockage was removed, the gate to Heaven was open.

I thought most people found God through the Bible, that you just had to read it once and then you’d have faith, but this is not the case. I needed to witness the growth of evil around me and I needed to experience a loss that I couldn’t explain, understand, or solve, a loss that would shatter my delusions and reveal the true state of my wretchedness. Only then could I set aside my pride and stop seeing myself as my own god that had everything figured out. Only then could I humble myself before God and beg him for help. And then God gave me the best gift of my life—the gift of faith. Since prostrating myself before Him, I have been given new eyes, new ears, and a new heart that I can now use in this new life. Thank you, Lord, for this gift.

The above was a brief summary of how I came to God. The more detailed version can be found in my speech, What I Learned About Life. Click here to learn more.

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  1. jennier January 27, 2020 at 10:48 am

    Roosh, people are saying that your turn to god was result of your stupidity and you don’t have the courage to go deeper. He provides a very good psychological analysis as well.

    1. hello there January 27, 2020 at 11:14 am

      Have you even read the this article?

      1. jennier January 27, 2020 at 12:28 pm

        No, maybe I’ll read it now 🙂

      2. smarter by 1 point February 15, 2020 at 2:52 pm

        ”No, maybe I”™ll read it now”. So how do you know that ”he provides a very good psychological analysis”, you poor retarded s**thead?

    2. Nimbus January 27, 2020 at 2:11 pm

      My IQ dropped 30 points reading that retarded shit.

      1. jennier January 27, 2020 at 3:56 pm

        You probably didn’t have much intelligence to begin with :/

      2. smarter by 2 points February 15, 2020 at 2:54 pm

        eh, you are one to talk about intelligence, read above, you poor idiot 🙂

      3. Will February 3, 2020 at 6:17 pm

        Your IQ dropped when coming out of the birth canal; the doctormedical staff dropped you on your head. Maybe you should sue them.

    3. Radu January 27, 2020 at 2:44 pm

      You posted this on Twitter too.

      1. jennier January 27, 2020 at 3:57 pm

        Yeah, I didn’t answer there 🙂

      2. jennier January 27, 2020 at 3:57 pm


    4. biscuits&gravy January 27, 2020 at 6:48 pm

      …I”™m sure the genius over at culture whiz is doing a lot to help his fellow man. Maybe we should all study Nietzche and make the world a better place by psychoanalyzing and writing 2000 word essays about people we don”™t like on the Internet…

    5. Lord Faggotron 777 January 28, 2020 at 9:11 pm

      Oh boy, another shit misinterpretation of Julius Evola’s literary works. This guy boasts the superficial Evolian view of the decaying postmodern world, without the spiritual essence. Everyone flaunts around Ride the Tiger and Revolt Against the Modern World rhetoric, without even reading his Hermetic Tradition and The Holy Grail. Evola wasn’t a nationalist, he was a Traditionalist.

      Even though a lot of morons on the internet will boast that Evola was Anti-Christian; he did bash the monotheistic faith, and how it contributed to the decaying decadence of nihilistic postmodernism, his later works gradually matured into a perennialistic view. In his older years, Evola would’ve seen Orthodox Christianity of retaining the primordial tradition of Hyperborea. Even though Ethnocentric Pre-Christian religions might be dead; their traditionalism still persevere within the realms of Christendom itself.

      1. jennier January 28, 2020 at 11:20 pm

        Great user name. It really fits you. Not sure who you’re talking about. Dionysian immortality meant continual death and rebirth. In this way, Dionysian mythology expressed the cyclic regeneration of nature, the destruction and reconstruction of life forms. Consequently, Dionysian worship embraced the “dark,” destructive side of life in order to receive the
        blessings which stem from harmonizing the self with a necessary cosmic
        force. The essence of Dionysian religion consisted in the realization that
        although nature destroys the individual, the whole is indestructible;
        therefore mystical self-transcendence grants religious transformation.

    6. SolitaireZeta August 9, 2020 at 9:05 pm

      Part 1:

      *Checks out article at, as well as the rest of the site*

      Wow. This entire site is akin to a train wreck, a dumpster fire, and a car crash having a love child: It’s so cringe, and yet I find it difficult to look away because of the morbid curiosity inspired by it’s level of ineptitude. It’s like the perfect demolition derby mash-up of so many toxic communities, individuals, and characteristics out there.

      You’ve got the smug arrogance, narcissism, elitism, and pseudo-intellectual reheated Nietzsche mixed with a mangled pre-Christian Paganism of American Nihilist Underground Society, Brett Stevens, and

      Some of the aforementioned, as well as the self-hating nerdery of My Posting Career.

      Then there’s the laughably sleazy, “big hat, no cattle,” snake-oil salesman vibe that the entire site gives off. The site claims to be “The “#1 Culture and Travel website in the world.” Yet the forum only has a little over 100 members. The forums themselves, in terms of activity, are a ghost town on life support. The site’s Twitter account has about 550 followers. About 5,000 fans on Facebook (which bears fruit on it’s Facebook page in the form of updates at a rate of about once a year, and hosts events that only 7 people go to.) The only review published on the “travel experiences” that are offered, is by the founder of the site himself! At the bottom of the home page, the site claims to have been featured in prominent media outlets like The New York Times, The Wall Street Journal, MSN, CBS, Fox News, etc. Yet all it takes is a quick search online to find that this is a lie. Of course, one can simply compare this site to other more polished travel experience sites out there to find that the founder’s claim to running “The #1 Culture and Travel website in the world,” is a sad little lie. What’s even sadder, is that according to the info on the site itself, as well as it’s Twitter account, this site has been around for approximately 4 to 5ish years, give or take, and still remains so small and impotent.

      1. SolitaireZeta August 10, 2020 at 1:14 am

        Part 2:

        I also love the nice cultish touch, as the author of the article you posted declares the following, glowingly, in said article:

        “I would like to thank Culture Whiz, truly a unique individual who affirms the sum-total of life, for helping me understand all of this. Beyond this, he advances the clarity of the concept of textuality and biology, making explicit some of the forces that hold texts together and so hold us together. Really, one of the smartest people on earth.”

        ….seriously? Just a wee bit creepy…..

        On top of this, the site is populated by your garden variety pompous pseudo-intellectual Leftists: posting articles and opining on such things as their hope that Conservatives and Libertarians will be reprogrammed for their ideal Utopian society on a microbial level; support for Black Lies Matter and Police Defunding; Africa formerly being a matriarchal paradise; White people being Sub-Human; and the Netherlands being RAHCIST! because of Zwarte Piet.

        But truly the saddest thing of all, the true coup de grâce of all of this, are the “Trip Reports” written by the allegedly “Ãœbermensch” users. They literally read like knock-off, imitation, made in Taiwan versions of pieces that Roosh wrote in his pre-Christian travel days. The articles on dating Dutch men and women, in fact, sound like wholesale ripoffs of Roosh’s observations on the Netherlands from years ago.

        Yet the article author/site user, Aleksey, on a demonstrably charade joke of a site, with cosmic level delusions of grandeur has the gall and lack of self awareness to make this pithy “observation.”:

        “Roosh is creating a literary character out of himself ”

        Yes, Culture Whiz’s site has been shown to be a hollow fraud of what it claims to be, and yet Aleksey clearly projects this onto Roosh! It all makes sense now!

        Please. This is embarrassing. Go home. Rethink your loyalty to your little pseudo-elitist club, and rethink your life as well, before you think about lobbing some soi-disant “psychological analysis,” or some comically pretentious bloviation on Dionysian Paganism to dodge the criticism leveled at you.

  2. Welcome January 27, 2020 at 11:49 am

    Fabulous article. Interesting how God chooses some sinners and evildoers to be the strongest convertees and proponents of the faith (e.g., St. Paul). I Couldn’t agree more with what you said about the feeling of evil growing and surrounding us in contemporary society and that a certain tribe can often me seen at the center of that. Regarding your points on evolution, even if the theory of evolution is correct, that doesn’t preclude an initial creator setting forth the big bang, which could have led to everything else — this is what the Catholic Church believes, the beliefs of which are similar to Armenian Orthodox — essentially Catholics believe that God exists outside of time and space (it doesn’t make “logical sense”). I think you will find that your faith journey will evolve — there will be ups and downs — you are only at the beginning — but just remember that you have the potential for a truly fulfilling (and truly “happy”) life now, not just a life consisting of a series of pleasurable moments — but it will not necessarily be easier — there is great sacrifice required to find fulfillment in our purpose, which is to know, to love and to serve God.

  3. Nice guy January 27, 2020 at 12:22 pm

    Roosh i would like to suggest you to go through the work of ‘UG Krishnamurthi’ you will learn more about the truth from that person (& that will be the end of your journey) rather than getting into religion and getting frustrated.

    1. Jake February 3, 2020 at 3:20 pm

      read Krishnamurthi, says some interesting side notes but fundamentally he goes nowhere and is empty and meaningless like most Yogi philosophies…

  4. John January 27, 2020 at 12:51 pm

    Stick with your journey down the “narrow path” and “faith” in the God of the Bible over a particular religion (i.e. one of the Christian “Religions”, as they have now all essentially been compromised by that “tribe” you referred to in your piece. )

    To hell with that set of idiots at “Culture Whiz” and the like. Humanism is what has destroyed Western Civilization. You are on the right road.

  5. Nimbus January 27, 2020 at 2:13 pm

    Glad you converted but sad to see Christianity move further and further away from the scientific legacy it created and leaving it entirely in the hands of amoral Satanists.

    1. jennier January 27, 2020 at 3:59 pm

      Lol @ scientific legacy. I take it you’re completely uneducated

      1. Nimbus January 27, 2020 at 6:17 pm


      2. Trev February 23, 2020 at 4:52 am

        Only someone ignorant of history would say something like that. Many of the founders of modern science were either overtly Christian or at least believed in a rational God who set natural laws in place and made the universe understandable and predictable which sets it apart from the chaotic world view of other religions. Science got hijacked by materialists who reinterpreted science so that it had to prove materialism but it’s nonsense. The math for a functional protein coming together randomly is 1 in 10 to the 77th power. There’s no rational basis for believing in an evolutionary origin of life based on time and chance. There is zero chance that even a single cell came into being by chance no matter how many billions of years you give it.

        I have the “Genesis of Science” in my library and it documents the many scientific advances made in Christian Europe. Once Europe emerged from the chaos of the collapse of the Roman Empire and the constant siege it faced from Muslim armies, surpassed Greco Roman science by 1000 and made many advances in the following centuries until the scientific revolution. Belief in God and creation does nothing to impede scientific advance. It’s only people who insist that science must prove Darwinism who believe otherwise. And I can think of a couple of examples of Darwinism holding back advancement like for instance confidently claiming there were around 100 vestigial organs and doctors recklessly removing people’s organs. And again the declaration that there was “junk” DNA which is nonsense.

    2. John Redcorn January 27, 2020 at 8:21 pm

      Morals are just some made up set of rules meant to trick humans to enslave themselves. In reality all that exists is nature and nothing more.

      Here’s the key to happiness : live as naturally as you can. Eat natural food, spend lots of time in the sun, have children and avoid unnatural environments like cities.

  6. Tertioptus January 27, 2020 at 3:08 pm

    Nulliparity: Stated to cause of half of reproductive cancers (e.g. ovarian, breast, and even colon), but the media cannot address for political means.

    Whoremonger: A biblical word that preachers seem to have forgotten, but puts the onus on men not to make whores out of women (despite the relationship being consensual)

    Peruse just the headline of the following pages for some interesting stuff for awakened souls:

  7. Jessie January 27, 2020 at 6:26 pm

    I”™ve prayed for you for many years. It was clear that God was drawing you to himself. I am sorry for the pain you endured along the way. But He has made you a new creation, loving the things He loves and hating the things He hates. God is good.

  8. OnlyByGrace January 27, 2020 at 6:50 pm

    Hey Roosh, I just wanted to encourage you and praise God for what He has done in your life. When I saw the video title on YouTube by you, one of the most notorious PUA”™s in the world, I thought it was a joke. But by God”™s grace, you were lost and have been found. I got choked up listening to your story of conversion. I”™m so happy that Christ has acted so decisively in your life. You are a testament to the power of God and provide hope for all the lost and sinners (which we all are) all over the world. Wow! Just wow!!! Praying for you brother!!!

  9. Kevin Schumacher January 28, 2020 at 2:10 am

    Hi Roosh. I am so encouraged by your decision to follow Christ and want to encourage you as well. Since you are a logical thinker, here are a few resources that will fortify your mind in ways you probably haven’t understood possible:
    – From the same site, some profound thoughts on eastern religions:

  10. Veryname January 28, 2020 at 5:13 am

    Now,you need to understand,you do not live on spinning ball.

    1. RetardAlert! January 28, 2020 at 7:36 am

      Yeah that’s of key importance. God you shmucks are everywhere.

      1. Veryname January 28, 2020 at 5:09 pm

        The heavens declare the glory of God; and the firmament sheweth his handywork.

    2. Dennis February 1, 2020 at 1:55 pm

      We live on a “ball”, just as every other thing in the sky is a “ball”, as can be observed by everyone. The “ball” doesn’t spin, though. Everything else revolves around the earth as the Bible clearly states.

      The earth doesn’t need to be flat to keep the water on it, just like the moon doesn’t need to be flat to keep its dust on it (or is the moon only full of dust on its top?) or the sun doesn’t need to be flat to spread its fire in every single direction (or is the sun a upward burning flame like a candle?). You must be absolutely blind and delusional to believe in this flat earth lie.

      You flat-earthers deny God’s power. Your God is called Scientism and Disinformation also known as Satan.

  11. Mike Hunt January 28, 2020 at 9:45 am

    Weren’t you raised in the Church? What made you turn away in the first place? Sex. You’ll probably say “sex isn’t worth chasing” even though you spent most of your 20’s and 30’s chasing it. Only after your sex drive declined and your ability to increase the quality of your pussy you got did you decide to give up and turn to God, also conveinent because now you have a new way to make moeny by preying on lonely men coping with religion.

    1. Dennis February 1, 2020 at 1:57 pm

      Shut up, Satan!

    2. Cisco Automation February 1, 2020 at 4:05 pm

      Mike, the only reason he’s throwing PUA under the bus is that the 30’s is the last decade to be a PUA. Washed Up Inferior Cougars and money grubbing mail order brides are left. It just reeks of bitterness & jealousy & “You can’t fire me, I quit”. It is really good how he turned to God, but he thrown PUA under the bus & has gone scorched earth to something so valuable. Just be more honest and say the REAL reasons you’re abandoning PUA.

  12. Jay January 28, 2020 at 10:38 am

    a man must first be broken by God, before he is honored. It is only when a person is besieged by a supernatural enemy, sent by God, which he is helpless to fight against, that the person discovers how he is so easily resentful, angry, impatient, doubtful [loss of faith], and profane. Under the pressure of the adversaries, a man discovers what a low, selfish, angry beast he really is. It is a necessary humbling process. It is a necessary suffering. A man must see over a significant period of time how low he is, how selfish he is, how profane he is, how evil he is ”” and he must learn this so that he never forgets it. A man must be humbled, and it is impossible for a man to voluntarily humble himself; any such voluntary attempts to humble one’s self only increases a man’s pride. Only the hand of God can truly humble a man. His only hope has to rest in God’s mercy; there can be no other escape. His only objective must become to be rid of his selfish, cursing, profane, hating, resentful self; so when it is finally taken away, he hates evil so much, that he would never even consider drifting back into selfish behaviors again. A man must be broken by God.

  13. Jay January 28, 2020 at 10:42 am

    Our life on earth is “evil school” where we voluntarily learn to hate evil in this life; or in the next life we experience the hurts and harms we have caused by our evil actions and words, thus being repulsed by our past and becoming completely committed to never repeating those mistakes.

    Sinners cannot live in heaven with God, or heaven would turn into Hell. We all have to be purified to live in God’s presence and to live in perfect harmony and love with our brothers. A common belief is that all fleshly Christians who are still sinning will be instantly purified in the last minute of their lives, to then live in heaven. This is wrong because God will never take away our free will; and if he purifies us without our having learned to loathe and hate our selfish habits and addictions , once instantly purified, we would drift back into the same patterns of selfish behaviors that cause us to embrace sin. So in this life or the next, we have to: 1) discover the bitterness of the passions and pleasures that our hearts desire, and 2) over time suffer the consequences of our passions and pleasures, while longing to have them removed by desperately seeking the grace of God to be changed. In Hell, our passions are unrestrained, similar to how we are without restraint to lusts and violence in our dreams. For our passions are the worst of tyrants. When we are placed so that we are entirely given up to them, they will torment the heart, and, like a torrent, sweep all before them, and yet never be satisfied. We must discover that true liberty is to be found only in Him, whose truth shall set us free, and who shall lead us to understand that only in perfectly virtuous words and deeds, (prompted and energized by Him as His will to be done ), are we really free. In this way, when our heart’s defects are removed, one at a time, we are certain not to return to sin in our free wills. Love never forces its own way , instead it helps us see the error of the wrong way, so we can choose the right way; and then rewards us with the grace of change, finally resulting in purity.

    1. Mike Hunt January 28, 2020 at 6:28 pm

      Yeah I think it’s great to burn someone for all eternity because they fucked around a little bit. Do you even have any proof of this so called heaven and hell, or are you just in on a collective dillusion? You didn’t even really addresss my main point that Roosh turned from sex not because he learned better but because the hedonic treadmill wasn’t working anymore and God was a more conveneint choice.

      1. Jay January 30, 2020 at 2:14 am

        Jesus said few would be saved, because the gate is narrow and the way is compressed, and many would seek to enter and not be able to . Mat 7:13-14, Luke 13:23-24 . So what happens to the vast majority of people, including 2 billion ( few?) people claiming to be ‘christians,’ who don’t produce fruit , become
        purified , reach a sinless state , and enter the Kingdom of Heaven while on earth ? Are they doomed to everlasting torture in Hell?* A God, who tortures the vast majority of humanity forever, is a sick twisting of the scriptures to make our Father of light, mercy, compassion, and love into a monster; any person of reason finds this twisted concept of God repulsive. This false concept of an unforgiving, eternally punishing God serves to turn masses of people away from Christ and God; it is the devil’s doctrine and tool. Should we fear God? Oh, Yes! We should fear his displeasure; like a good parent, (but infinitely better than a human), he will discipline and punish us for the things we continue to do wrong ”” but to a purpose ”” to teach us, change us, and to reconcile us to himself in love. God is Love. Love corrects. Love disciplines. But Love restores. Love never fails. Do you honestly think God created us so he could punish and torture us forever? If you do, you have grossly underestimated his power, his forethought, his mercy, his kindness, his compassion, and most of all ”” his LOVE. The purpose of life is to find God, and his purpose will not be thwarted. He values every life. We are his creation, and he loves all of us. We all are one. Every person you see will eventually be your brother, reconciled to God, after being purified with removal of our lusts, affections, selfishness, addictions, and pride. To live in heaven, you must be purified: either in this life with less pain and a greater reward , or purified in the next life, called Hell. Neither is a pleasant experience; to die to self is not pleasant. And how does one get out of Hell? One must pay the last penny of their debt of sins committed on the earth to get out: I tell you, you shall not get out until you have paid the very last penny, Luke 12:59 ; and by long, long pleading to the
        Lord Jesus Christ, (the savior of all men) to purify them, after the last penny, (a figure of speech describing a penalty), has been paid…. Everyone will be taught of God . It shall come to pass that whoever shall call on the name of the Lord shall be saved, Joel 2:32 ,Acts 2:21, Rom 10:13 ; and every man will eventually call out to the Lord to save him. As the earthly saying is: there are no atheists in foxholes, so there will be no atheists in Hell. Every knee will bow and confess that Jesus Christ is Lord , eventually.
        But, people who don’t find holiness in this life ” will be punished with everlasting destruction, separated from the face of the Lord and away from his glorious power .” 2 Thes 1:9 . Notice he does not say destruction of life or torture, just separated from the face of the Lord and the glory of his power ”” that is the eternal punishment. There is the
        Kingdom of Heaven , and the heaven after hell, but a heaven isolated from the presence and glory of the Lord. Those not purified, those who die in their sins, all must pass through the lake of fire, commonly called Hell; (but not really Hell, because Hell and death are also cast into the lake of fire) *; but the spirit lives forever and eventually leaves
        Hell to a much better life than earth. To lose your soul is to lose that part of God within every man that could have been
        united with the fullness of Christ, to have become a Son of God.

      2. Jay January 30, 2020 at 2:19 am

        The soul having been united with Christ, then lives in a higher dimension of love and Life than to live in spirit only. The Lord names this reward “the kingdom of God;” it is a reward that is beyond man’s imagination, beyond the words of earth to describe. Man must give up his entire life to God; in exchange God gives man himself ”” the greatest gift imaginable, but without our understanding until God is fully known.
        Everyone will deeply regret forever that they did not obtain purification while living on earth, for two reasons: 1) the pain of Hell, that will seem like forever, and 2) the loss of their soul with the eternal loss of the kingdom. Those with the deepest regrets will be those who called themselves Christians, had the promise before their eyes continually, and who did not seek the righteousness of God and his internal Kingdom as their highest priority in life ”” those who thought Jesus was an excuse for sin
        rather than He who would destroy the sin in them ”” those who ignored his command to be perfect as your Father in heaven is perfect ”” those who were
        content to live in their flesh , worshiping in the false church of Babylon ”” those who were content with a supposed remote God, instead of seeking the kingdom within and God within where they could worship God in spirit and truth.
        The fulfillment of the soul’s potential is beyond man’s wildest imaginations; it offers something to every man that is beyond our ability to grasp. If we fail to become free of sin in this life, when we see what we could have become, we will be devastated. Everyone will be devastated at what they could have obtained while living on the earth; and those who thought they had loved God will be further devastated over what they failed to give to Him in their life on earth, which was to deny their selfish nature, seek his guidance, follow it; thus to then bring honor and glory to Him by producing the fruit of the Spirit. To miss the opportunity to bring honor and glory to your creator, who created you and of all the universe and heavens, is to miss your lifetime’s opportunity.
        Those who die in their sins will shudder with deep sorrow when they look back at their petty, worthless, ridiculous pursuits while they were on the earth, when they could have followed God’s promptings and realized the rewards that they then see and understand, but which will forever be unattainable for them. That sorrow will never leave those who fail to attain the kingdom in this life on earth.

    2. Dennis February 1, 2020 at 2:00 pm

      There is no free will, you Pelagian fool. The Bible only speaks of God’s will and the Devil’s will. There is no inbetween. You cannot save yourself. Faith is God’s work through the Holy Ghost. You can’t even believe by yourself.

      1. Radu February 3, 2020 at 3:51 pm

        Apart from demon possesed people who cannot control their actions, the others use their free will to follow or not God’s word.

  14. Jay January 28, 2020 at 4:13 pm

    I find it interesting that Roosh’s articles and comments from some of the followers of this blog, written over the years, have brought me closer to God and given me meaning more than any church or preacher. You would think a forum like this would only be full of degenerate men chasing vanity but the opposite is actually true. Most guys here were actually looking for something more than just sex. I stopped going to church years back neither to I listen to any preachers. I believe God put a light in every man’s heart and those who genuinely want to seek Him will find him. You don’t need any man to teach you about God. The truth is within you. The light is hidden within the darkness of your heart.

  15. Caleb Roy January 28, 2020 at 10:30 pm

    It”™s so funny that Roosh has put up ALLLLL manner of articles and such. And yeah, maybe he had a couple bad comments here or there. Maybe some people didn”™t agree with him. But most of the time, it was a simple, I disagree but whatever floats your boat.

    BUTTTT, now that Roosh turns to God and to Jesus, the comments are nasty saying things like you are dumb, an idiot, Roosh you are weak, etc etc etc. Things people never would have said to Roosh are now being proclaimed. But I guess that”™s the power of Christ. The demons and the sinners don”™t like hearing where the Holy Spirit convicts them.

    God bless Roosh. Keep on trucking. The heavenly riches will come your way. God be with you always.

  16. Justuseful January 29, 2020 at 12:03 am

    Good for you Roosh, let Jesus Christ be your path. If you wish to know more about god I will be glad to help.

  17. Matt January 29, 2020 at 9:34 pm

    What’s with the weird typos and misspellings, Roosh? Is English not your first language?

    From the article:
    “I watched Caitlyn Jenner receive an award from ESPN for her courage in wearing makeup and women”™s clothes.”

    Let me fix that for you:
    I watched Bruce Jenner receive an award from ESPN for his courage in wearing makeup and women’s clothes.

  18. canivet January 30, 2020 at 3:47 am

    The Hound of Heaven

    You’re not the first He found this way. Beware lukewarmness and anomie, give all witness and go the distance.

  19. Dariusz January 31, 2020 at 5:12 pm

    Trying to shoot the messenger, without addressing the validity of the expressed views.

    Hell is where all those who, by their own wish and free life choices, have chosen to reject God, and committed deadly sins, go; it’s not some messing around that lands you there guaranteed. Hell is literally the place forsaken by God, you sentence yourself to spending eternity in the company of the original, the very first, rebellious, evil spirits, along with the darkest of souls- and it sure ain’t fun where there is no love:

    As for proof, if Jesus- whom the Talmud ( Orthodox Jews are mostly talmudists / cabalists ) smears as a whore’s son- is to this day so viciously attacked by them, he sure wasn’t just a mushroom, like the deceased CIA pawn who used to woo and fool naive college kids, one Terrence McKenna, would like you to believe; Jesus is the real deal, and the scale and intensity of the continued attacks on him confirm it. And it’s not just the Jews’ being pragmatic since they don’t want anybody around who believes they have killed his God in the human flesh; orthodox Jews actually pray to demons when needed, and even atheistic Jews share the national supremacist views of Zionism and seek to destroy all potential barriers and peoples they deem threats.

    If Jesus and all the saints, their extraordinary life stories, the miracles God performed through them, and still does if you care to look- there are numerous people who have been healed or rescued from hopeless situations by the power of prayer and the intercession of the saints, people who have directly experienced the hand of God, though you’re not gonna read about them in the NY Times, or see it on TV- don’t convince you, nothing will, trying would be a fool’s errand. And don’t assume science will ever possess the tools to investigate an entirely different dimension, the ultimate level of existence, this is out of reach and always will be, there are limits to what we can do, and what we can do it with, in this here universe.

    Now, God gave us free will, which you wouldn’t really have if you had a complete certainty he is ever present, knows and sees everything. The doubt allows you to be truly free. You can do as you please without looking over your shoulder, in fear of transgressing God. Consequently, the stronger your faith, the closer to a living saint you become. And to reiterate, God is not some fact that earthly, human science is capable of comprehending. But if you look carefully, the hand of God is visible in the universe, in the way everything works: ,

    [side note: notice how the Jewish interviewees in this video reassert their atheist positions, but keep in mind that to survive and advance in the marxist academic climate, many keep quiet about their real convictions, which probably isn’t even the case here, they’re also sticking up for their compatriot, Freud, when the interviewer brings him up, no surprise since so many psychologists and academics are Jews who profit from this whole Freud centered fraud and have build their careers/livelihoods around it, it’s in their interest to promote all of that to the fullest, no wonder Freud’s importance is “doubling” every year among them. ] But back to the key point- the world, and everything in it, is not an accident. I remember way, way back in high school discussing with friends how I did not believe in evolution, and how neither humans nor animals have evolved at least in the course of recorded history. Evolution was also a marxist tool communists used in their fight against God, and an unborn human was never called that, though my views did not stem just from being a natural contrarian who never wanted to be a part of the herd, who would automatically oppose anything the system tried to throw at me.

    Some people live like there is no God, some want to be their own gods, be gods themselves, sometimes they’re arrogant takers who make their own rules concerning ethics where the idea of good is anything that benefits them and to hell with everybody else; while the people the Church canonized, actually had lived their lives as if they had always known God is above them at all times, in their hearts there were never any doubts, the way they conducted themselves, being only concerned with the salvation of their souls and those of others, their eyes were set on the higher things- not of this world. Many suffered greatly, but never relented, and remained undeterred, for them God’s existence was an undeniable fact, because there is nothing the limited and finite suffering a human can go through, can take away from the joy of everlasting life in Heaven.

    It’s not anybody’s responsibility to try to convince a troll why Roosh is doing what he’s doing. He speaks for himself in the above article, he has come a long way, and he’s back home- a Christian, it would be impossible for you to claim he’s not true to his word, had he started writing as one. If you believe this article is inauthentic, what about his PUA articles- did you also then think: ‘this fraudster Roosh is just making money off of ’em losers’, or were you cheering him on ? Were you there to point that out ? Did you alert others he was just out to write anything they wanted to read/hear ? Are you ashamed of yourself for being taken advantage of ? Do you feel like a sucker ? You’re so smart why don’t you tell us who the real Roosh is ? Seems to me his old articles were true and useful for what they were written, what he talked about worked, he was as serious then as he is now. Forget the high profile ‘me too’ cases, and college sexual assault hoaxes in the west ( which won’t be the centre of the universe in the next 10 or 20 years anyway)- these aren’t even a drop in the ocean when compared to the total debauchery that’s taking place all around the world, the media are disconnected from reality, life goes on, and the world keeps turning, I’ve no idea about the numbers, but legions of people the world over go out to clubs, bars and other entertainment venues every weekend, driven by their basest urges, and always will, even in the poorest countries; there will always be money to be made by tapping into this market one way or another. But it takes a first rate cynic to keep writing about scoring sluts when you’re past a certain age, while it would be a walk in the park for him, Roosh apparently ain’t one. You want to do something respectable and learn from your mistakes. Roosh could be running his own labs by now, while owning numerous patents, had he stayed in the field.

    I first read about him in the Takimag, Gavin’s column, the fact that he was sitting in Poland piqued my curiosity, I would’ve never guessed then, Roosh had been an atheist at some point. ROK looked like a site on the right side of all issues, he is not a turncoat, he’s definitely never been a commie or against us, it was obvious he was at a minimum a cultural Christian as they say. My biggest litmus test is the support for abortion, if you reject that evil, more often than not, everything will fall into place – God comes before everything, then family, the rest is everybody’s own choice and sex and women shouldn’t be anybody’s priority when you’re no longer in your twenties, and if you’re smart- never, you’ll never score more bee-tchzz than a homeless dog on the outskirts of Warsaw anyway, is this the race you want to take part in ? You focus on yourself and your personal growth, everything else will come to you naturally with God’s blessing, traveling is nice, but you do that to learn about the world and yourself, not for chicks, 25 years go by in the blink of an eye, two blinks feel just like one and you’re already 50, remember that, and don’t waste your time- especially with loose women, another 40 years and you’re 80. Forget Roosh, look at any of his articles as if it had been written by an anonymous author and ask yourself if it is not valid. Just like anybody else, I know people who have come back to faith, except that writing wasn’t their career, so detractors and ill-wishers have no ammunition to shoot from this angle; better late than never, but don’t wait until you’re on the deathbed- like Stalin, or “our” own general Jaruzelski in Poland.

    1. Jake February 3, 2020 at 3:47 pm

      you have the age old demon of Catholic anti-semitism repent

      1. Dariusz February 9, 2020 at 2:31 pm

        It’s just the opposite. The original Jewish hatred of Christ, and especially , their anti Catholic sentiment. You’re called an anti semite just for noticing that. If Jews hate you, when they’re out to destroy you or your country, they call you an anti semite, I’m not particularly fond of Muslims, but an Iranian infant , whose whole world is his mother’s face and loving arms, is also an anti semite because Jews wish he was dead.

        Joe Sobran first observed that when Jews are against you, you’re labeled an anti semite. ” A Jew hits you with a rod, and screams oy! [ouch] himself ” [as if he was in pain] – an ancient Polish saying.

        I posted the wrong video link, the correct long version is here:

  20. orion February 2, 2020 at 12:07 pm

    I’m disgusted by this literally disgusted. I was raised in a christian home and let me tell you God is used only to gain power. If Roosh is using God to become more powerful then that is certainly a perfectly good motive, but at least disclose it (which I guess is also stupid) If he becomes one of “the family” etc then that is an incredibly smart move, but please I hope I see some semblance of him not “actually” believing this nonsense.

  21. samflyg February 3, 2020 at 7:39 pm

    Encouraging to hear your thoughts and the changes you have made in your life, and although I don”™t mean to be rude, the Bible commands me to speak the truth in love …
    I have been saved for about 4 years, I spent approximately two of those years evangalising and continue to preach the gospel frequently.
    I meet people on a weekly basis who claim to be Christian, and yet have absolutely no understanding of what the gospel is, not what it means to be saved.
    Romans 10:13
    For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.

    Jesus makes it clear salvation is a narrow way, and few will find it –
    Matthew 7:14
    Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.

    Based on your ”˜testimony”™, it is apparent, that while you are seeking God, which is well and good, you sir, are not saved.

    How can I be so sure –
    Romans 10:17
    So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.

    Nothing in your testimony leads me to believe that you have heard the gospel preached;
    A changed life isn”™t the gospel, nor evidence of salvation…
    People clean their life up with AA and 12 step programs everyday.
    The gospel is the power of God unto salvation to everyone that believeth

  22. john smith February 7, 2020 at 3:12 am

    i know u think ur being original with christian trolling but youre about 8 years behind the curve, christian trolling ie pretending to be a christian online existed a long time ago i first saw it near 8 years ago on 4chan. if you arent trolling it seems like trauma has reverted u to whatever made u feel safe as a child i recommend some magic mushrooms or some mdma so you can heal and set your mind straight again. good luck.

  23. Guest February 12, 2020 at 3:03 pm

    This is all very poetic but I would like to argue that you are also a bullsh’tter. At 40 years old you realized that you cannot compete with the younger guys and your sex drive is no longer the same as it used to be. Your reputation as an edgy PUA guy going against society was not working anymore as big companies are cracking down on guys like you by banning your books and YouTube channels, so you had to adopt to please the people who control the platforms that you use to sell you bullsh”t. Also, you realized that the identity you created for yourself was not that “cool” for an older guy and you have to make changes to your public image so you thought up of this. I think that your “faith” and public display of affection for God is a sham. Furthermore, there is an slight hint of you rubbing shoulders with racists and bigots who cover up their evil nature with religion, which makes no sense since you are Middle Eastern, but nonetheless the smell is in the air. Maybe you are just trying to cater to their audience to sell your upcoming book about God r something, as if you are an authority on the subject.

    I could offer some more insights, but let’s just start with this. Let me know what you think, Roosh.

    1. Amon March 7, 2020 at 11:51 pm


    2. bob April 7, 2020 at 5:35 pm

      Racism does not exist. It is a word created by the jew communist Leon Trotsky. You are just another person who has been sucked into modern nonsense without realizing it

  24. kevm3 February 12, 2020 at 9:47 pm

    Jesus has let us know he is the WAY, the TRUTH and the LIGHT, and there is no way to the Father but through Him. This directly establishes that there is ONE way to the Father despite what other religions and deceivers may try to tell you of ‘numerous paths’ and numerous ways. This is why the new age always focuses on ‘multiple ways’ to Heaven, which is a lie. It is good you have come to be a follower of Jesus, and as such, make sure your faith is firm and you do not deviate because there is unparalleled deception in these end times, and the Bible has told you as such. When you are truly following Jesus and living a live pleasing to God, which involves a life of sacrifice, you will experience a joy that far surpasses the joy the world promises through sin, which is a fleeting and empty joy. Anyhow, check out Stephen Darby ministries. He points out a lot of truths

  25. Fred February 14, 2020 at 7:25 pm

    I really want to die. Will I go to some hell? Is death annihilation?

  26. Ari February 21, 2020 at 6:03 am

    Dear Roosh, so so happy for the turn that things have taken! To be honest I was expecting it. We all are the Prodigal son, we only turn to our Father when we are finally brave enough to admit that we are starving!! Starving for the truth, starving for Christ, they are one and the same. A new chapter is beginning in your life, look forward to everything!! You will become such a witness for the Truth! Read the life of St Mary of Egypt, a journey from formication to faith, like yours, like so many others. I am so proud of you and of your Courage, the greatest courage ever, to get down on your knees, to humble yourself, to open the door of your heart!
    Cheering for you,
    An Orthodox

  27. Dood McMan March 2, 2020 at 9:45 pm

    I think Roosh is just peddling the jezuz krap as a way 2 tap another market = ‘reformed fornicator’ talk circuit. Just like the whole ‘game’ thing is a big joke, as obviously he is just scooping up dregs into banging ISIS RAPEugees as a middle finger against civilization. Maybe after he gets bored with the christbait nonsense can paint himself brown & tell us how the path 2 enlightnment is 2 become a ‘wigger’ & ‘spread your seed’ through fat nihilist hags… not 2 imply he wasn’t humping hags B 4, with his line about ‘I’ll hump N E chik who isn’t morbidly obese’ LOL

  28. Words from a Stoic March 22, 2020 at 3:42 am

    It is so interesting how this all unfolded. But I’m not surprised. The internet is developing in response to humanity’s demand for information. Those who truly seek knowledge and wisdom are, perhaps, reaching that inevitable stage where they are beginning to question their purpose in the universe. At first, the information sought was practical; how to attract women; how to accumulate wealth. But alas, no matter what level of knowledge mankind reached, he was left unfulfilled. Correct me if I’m wrong, but the top blog artists are more knowledge seekers than they are knowledge providers. What is a “blog” exactly? Is it short for web log? Is it just a log of our thoughts to help us in our journey? It almost seems like a trend that many of the top blog artists are beginning to question their purpose and existence. For those who truly seek, it is inevitable in their quest for knowledge they begin to reach the Most High. Anyway, we’ll just have to wait and see.

  29. sn00py April 18, 2020 at 5:15 am

    Roosh, thank you for sharing your spiritual journey with us.

    May I recommend a few books to read by Father Seraphim Rose:

    Orthodoxy and the Religion of the Future
    Genesis, Creation, and Early Man
    The Soul After Death

    I just watched your youtube Rooshour 42 Coronavirus is Revolution… and it is eery how your predictions and coming back to Orthodoxy — it reminds me a lot of Father Seraphim’s journey.

    God bless you.

    Keep writing.

  30. Joshua December 5, 2020 at 5:31 pm

    So many men I admire are converting to the Orthodox Church. I”™m Protestant but it has become so ”˜woke”™, secular and feminism had taken it over. I”™m attending an Orthodox Church tomorrow. Thanks for being a light in a dark world.