Scenes from Poland flash into my mind. The gray street I lived on for two years, with the hipster cafe right across my kitchen window. My favorite pub where I’d stand next to the bathroom and fish for loose Polish women. The Catholic Church I walked by a thousand times but only went into at the very end. The shopping mall with the basement supermarket. Two-hundred grams of cheese and one-hundred grams of ham, prosze. I met a virgin there in the produce section, and I’m sure she still is a virgin.

I’m back home in my place of birth. Poland was only a waystation, but I made too many memories there. I remember the lake I would ride around with a rented bicycle and the pleasing aroma of hamburger meat from the food truck down the street. I remember the profession of insincere love she whispered into my eager ear. Go away, all of it! You are not a part of my life anymore.

I commandeered a section of my mother’s living room. I look out the window and see my 21-year-old mountain vehicle parked on the street. Three black teenagers film a low-budget rap video. Poland taps on the glass. Do you miss me? Maybe going back could be good for me. I wouldn’t need a car to get around. My friends would live only minutes away—no more driving for an hour or two just to have a dinner with them.

And don’t you remember how cheap it was? You can’t afford America, especially after burning your books in so rash a manner. You’ll need a lot of time to write new books. Cheap and pleasant Poland can help with that. How else do you think you’re going to live? You don’t even have health insurance. Your parents wouldn’t mind if you go back. They love you, and will support you like they always have. Go back, Roosh, go back to Poland. The United States is not for you.

Get behind me, Satan!

My life in Poland was a fantasy. Money from sex filth, auto-deposited into my bank account. Women sexually craved me because of a beard and an accent they heard in movies and television shows they never should’ve watched. No family responsibilities, no rides to give to my mother or aunt. No real worries or concerns. The hardest part of the day was pumping up my muscles in the gym to sustain a steady supply of sex. Did my latest game book add to my savings? Let me count the dollars. Does the harlot want another go? Let me prepare the bed of fornication.

Living abroad was supposed to make me a man, but it made me more like a woman. It made me effeminate, an addict of pleasure and comfort. The bigger my muscles became on the outside, the weaker I became on the inside. Fornication put shackles on my wrists; cheap living put them on my ankles. Where did my virtue go? Lost in my luggage on one of my yearly visits back home to pretend I loved my family. And what of those men who followed me into foreign lands? Blind like me. I lived a fantasy for too long, and now when I want to live right, the memories of all my mistakes penetrate my mind when I pray, when I drive my mother to the supermarket, when I pay $400 for a visit to the dentist.

I lost and found myself in Poland. Killed and reborn in the same place. Deemed so by God. Poland served its purpose; the world served its purpose, but I am not a child of Poland or the world. I am the blood child of an Iranian man and Armenian woman who immigrated to the United States, my home. I am the spiritual child of God the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. Let Poland be for the Poles and let the world be for the worldly. Get behind me, Poland, I live with you no longer.

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  1. Lithuanian Bear September 14, 2020 at 10:21 am

    I really enjoyed reading this roosh. You inspire me to do better myself. Your writing helps me with my journey to find God in my heart. I felt his grace and thus know how far away from God i am. I thank you again because it helps to see people who are further than i am in this journey.
    Thank you. Your work is helpful to more people than you know.

  2. Buster September 14, 2020 at 11:00 am

    This is a great article, I can tell it comes straight from the heart.

    A lot of the US is quite a bit cheaper than Maryland. Have you considered moving to a different state?

    Thanks again for this good piece.

  3. DelMar September 14, 2020 at 11:20 am

    This is something that eats up at me everyday. Fantasising about living in foreign countries, and not being able to do so. I wish I had your strength.

    1. authun September 22, 2020 at 5:32 pm

      Why not? It’s not as hard as you think.

  4. Thomas September 14, 2020 at 11:39 am

    And when you pay 400$ to visit the dentist it’s DRILL BABY DRILL!!!

  5. Jjj September 14, 2020 at 12:44 pm

    It”™s natural to feel this way, as our lives abroad, if sustainable, are always better. Mark ames wrote about his withdrawal symptoms from Russia well before he was me tooed by a fat American journalist.
    Nothing wrong with going back as poland is more traditional.

    1. 109 Problems solved September 16, 2020 at 1:32 am

      Way too many J-e-w-ISH influence in Poland, Ukraine and Russia these days.

      1. Cavalier September 21, 2020 at 6:46 pm

        That could be said of America at this point too. All Western countries are pretty much owned by them.

  6. Marja September 14, 2020 at 1:23 pm

    Schön geschrieben.

    1. authun September 22, 2020 at 5:33 pm

      Oder? Ich denke, daß sein Herz noch im Polen liegt.

  7. Dariusz September 14, 2020 at 1:43 pm

    Poland has made her mark, she affects where life is going now, or where it could have, but hadn’t gone; interesting how even the bricklayer from hundreds of years ago, who raised the tenement Roosh lived in, impacted the course of his life- had a hand in that specific turn.

    The Armenian Church in communion with the Catholic Church, has a small presence in Poland-, with father Isakowicz-Zaleski (video in Polish,, a well known and respected commentator. There is also the Greek Catholic Church (Ukrainian) of the Eastern Rite, fully united with Rome.

    Too bad Roosh went for the low hanging fruit (but life isn’t over till it’s over, I knew people with big plans, who had died before they even had a chance to start), and Polish women are notorious mudsharks- in the 1980s, when Kaddafi was sending his military types to us for training, with dollar bills sticking out of their pockets, they would have loose girls waiting in line, and chasing after them at the disco.

    I suggest Roosh look into acquiring Iranian and Armenian citizenships, it doesn’t hurt not to be a hostage of a singular gang- from Washington, DC in his case.

    1. 109 Problems solved September 16, 2020 at 1:35 am

      To be an American man is to worship the dirty J-e-w and his white woman f-eminzi wh0redom. America is the fempire of the world because the J-e-w owns America. Mapleland doesn’t have free speech laws which makes it a good cuntry to discriminate against men. White women in Burgerland and Mapleland are cancer. As an African-American, I am proud to say death to the J-e-w world order.

      1. Babu baht September 16, 2020 at 7:10 am

        Good to see an African American man who doesn’t see the white woman as his saviour

      2. Amwolf September 16, 2020 at 1:35 pm

        I applaud you for seeing the light. Continue to preach the truth as did Ice Cube.

      3. Dariusz September 20, 2020 at 12:37 pm

        Swearing tarnishes and depreciates language, bastardizes speech; a trolling like yours, does the same to real, valid issues, worth a serious consideration. African-American is an artificial term no thinking person would use to describe himself: “Turned out pastor King was no negro; neither black! He was African-American”- a line from a Polish parody rap song.

      4. Fred September 21, 2020 at 1:20 am

        Right on,my brother!

    2. Amwolf September 16, 2020 at 1:38 pm

      Iran is appealing and I’ve been looking into some educational opportunities there that are up to six-months in duration. Iran has one of the most educated and well read populations in the world. Further, Iran embraces traditionalism and rejects modernism. The cuisine and options for fresh produce are abundant from what I’ve read.

      1. Dariusz September 20, 2020 at 12:52 pm

        I only brought up those countries because of Roosh’s roots, he should have a shot, Armenians have easy access to Russia, while Iran (because of it’s oil and gas) is close to China, a rising economic superpower, but not a place I would want to live in. 

        To me the west is best, and I mourn its passing, I’m no fan of stale countries that live off of state owned natural resources like Russia, Arabia, Iran, or Venezuela, all very corrupt which directly affects the average citizen. Those are alien places. 

        My preference would be Armenian brandy, wine, and Georgian bread which were famous for their great taste throughout Imperial, and even Soviet Russia.   

        The choice between modernity or traditionalism is for people to make individually, not for the government to decide, when now in the west people pay the price for rejecting communist ideology, while it should be banished from public life altogether.

        One always could have been a hermit that grows his own food in the USA, it’s not against the law just yet, a cosmopolitan or anything in between, as long as one is not required to be be one or the other, that’s fine with me. Farmers sell their produce, and organic food is readily available, you can use deadly force to defend your home and so on, without fear of going to prison for murder like in Poland.

        So while Iran is not the evil country they say it is on TV, it’s not my kind of place. Cuba brags about how many doctors they have but it’s still a horrible country. Setting benchmarks for how many educated people there are, or need to be, won’t do any good; people must be free to do what they do best, and if they’re people of good will, the country will succeed, and true- and having a lot of smart ones helps.

      2. Cavanah December 21, 2020 at 3:21 pm

        Iran is not “traditional.” It has a regime since 1979 which was implemented by a military coup within a popular revolution, which is based on a small sect within Shia brand of Islam. Before 1979 Iran was like any European country.

      3. authun September 22, 2020 at 5:35 pm

        The Persian culture is rich indeed.

  8. Anna Carter September 14, 2020 at 2:18 pm

    Roosh,maybe stay with your Mom for the next six months while thinking about your current road trip. While on this trip you may find a place that you would like to call your home in the future and that will need contemplation and planning time, so being there with your Mom over the holidays and winter might be good. It looks like the Albany, NY area has a lot of orthodox churches and the land outside of the city, may not be too expensive.

  9. Thomas Bart September 14, 2020 at 2:23 pm

    Good point, Roosh. I am certain you are not at the end of your journey, as I have a few more years on the buckle than you. Mind me, I always admired your articles (Conservatives are losers, I think is one of the best). Yet, familiarize yourself to the thought that the US of A might NOT be the end of YOUR road. Are the USA really a true home to anyone? At least the USA since 1945? (Or should I say since 1919? Or 1865?) Think about it. The 400$ for the dentist are just the symptom of a disease. It might be someone else than S***n trying to tell you to go somewhere else. Warm regards. Thomas

    1. Lithuanian bear September 14, 2020 at 3:16 pm

      Running is not an answer. He is American. As i am a Lithuanian. You have a heritage that you can’t run from. The inherited culture and blood runs too deep. It is a blessing and a curse. You get the wonderful traditions that are held through immesurable time. But you also have a responsibility to keep that tradition and to fight against anyone who tries to destroy it. Be it foreign ideology, force, or a ruling class. You can’t run away because we all are going to be judged in the end. What will be your excuse for not fighting when the Lord asks you?
      Everyone has their role in this fight against evil. These are times of illumination. The shadows are clearer than ever just like rot in peoples heart. So is the virtue on people.
      In the end we all find our way to fight the only rule is to not run away from the fight.
      P.s. I hope i dont sound preachy. Just trying to express my opinion.

      1. Thomas Bart September 14, 2020 at 3:36 pm

        I wanted to put into consideration if being “American” is of any true heritage, coming from a “Volk”. Not trying to be offensive, and I have the feeling that Roosh might understand. Anyway, the message was meant to him principally. Maybe I should have simply sent it to him personally.

      2. Balto September 15, 2020 at 3:11 am

        True, accepting waht God gave us is part of the plan. I am currently in Lithuania, from which part are you?

      3. Lithuanian Bear September 15, 2020 at 4:36 am

        I live in a small village which is in the district of Kretinga.

      4. Balto September 15, 2020 at 2:30 pm

        Close to Palanga, very beautiful place. Right now I am living between vilnius and panevezys. Tomorrow going to visit Siluva. Your country is a nice place but I can see that all the modern garbage it´s coming really fast and there are not many vocations to stop it. Sad to see.

      5. Lithuanian bear September 15, 2020 at 4:17 pm

        It’s all part of being in european union. Its satanistic tentacles reach far. I even got fined for not wearing a mask. The joke is i never once wore a mask and when i was nice and tried to comply with wearing one i got find for trying to do so(250€). God does have a sense of humor. I am glad i found God because now i can see small signs he is giving me. I think even if i saw one god given sign in my life it would be worth more than any money in the world.

        Beartaria lives on 🙂

      6. Balto September 16, 2020 at 2:14 pm

        Yes I know what you mean. God has a great sense of humor but is also fierce at times… can´t play games! I would like to ask you some questions about palanga area since i am considering moving with the family. Could you write me to [email protected]?? Thanks in advance!

      7. authun September 22, 2020 at 5:44 pm

        250 EUR? In Lithuania?!? Ouch!

      8. Lithuanian bear September 24, 2020 at 2:17 pm

        Yeah. Thats if it is your first ofense. Otherwise you can get from 500-1000e. And if you are a buisness owner or a cashier the fine gets up to 6000e so people are complying hard. But then again you can always find places to shop who have a more relaxed attitude because just because you can get fined doesnt mean you will (police is not omnicient and omipotent). They are far and few but if you are not a slave of convenience its not that bad. There is a push back but it is not as big as i would like it to be. On a daily basis most people comply.

      9. Greddy October 4, 2020 at 5:47 pm

        Labas 😀 Smagu rasti bendramintį lietuvį komentaruose. Gal galima su tavim kažkaip kitaip susisiekti?

      10. Fred September 21, 2020 at 1:22 am

        These are dumb place names.

      11. Cavalier September 21, 2020 at 7:06 pm

        They are Lithuanian names. Should they name their towns with English names to please you.

  10. BisonMan September 14, 2020 at 2:28 pm

    I was speaking with an incredibly devout woman in Poland. She was telling me about how in her city of Krakow there are so many Churches and people always celebrating.

    If you were Catholic there would be a way to live there. If foreign travel is only for fornication in your mind, I understand that. But, what if someone wanted to be with people of their faith. Perhaps a move to Armenia is in order where there are congregations of like minded Armenian Orthodox.

    Get behind me Poland, but we know that USA is the great Satan. Americanism is heresy. There is no escape, but don’t take it out on Poland.

    1. Mr.Poster September 14, 2020 at 11:55 pm

      I just wanted to say that your comment has inspired me to check out Poland next year, specifically Krakow after doing a quick Goolag search and seeing how many churches are there. there”™s even a good amount of Traditional Catholic Churches as well in the city. Thanks again!

      1. Alicja September 15, 2020 at 3:34 am

        I can definitely recommend Kraków but Prague is also beautiful. There are a lot of churches in both of those cities. Last year I’ve seen a Catholic procession going through crowded with tourists Charles Bridge in Prague. Im not sure if you can see something like that in the Western part of the Europe. I could be wrong though.
        If you will decide to visit Czech Republic I can recommend doing a road trip and checking the castles there (best to do it in the summer when they are open).

      2. authun September 22, 2020 at 5:45 pm

        Everybody wants to go to Krakow.

      3. Trebor September 25, 2020 at 6:02 am

        Don’t go to Krakow, it’s doesn’t even hold a candle to ToruÅ„ or smaller towns like Bielsko-BiaÅ‚a, Krosno or Sandomierz. Kraków is not that good looking, it’s too crowded and traffic is nasty. ToruÅ„ is busy but it’s chill.

    2. Alicja September 15, 2020 at 3:25 am

      And most of the churches are open everyday and there are masses during the weekdays. Thats one of those things that I miss from Poland.

    3. Jon123 October 28, 2020 at 5:13 am

      I agree , it”™s not Poland”™s fault he went there and went to the trashiest bars to meet drunk sluts .

  11. Matthew September 14, 2020 at 2:56 pm

    Thank you, this really hit home for me. It has convicted my aching heart. I hope you don’t mind me saying but you remind me of a modern day St. Anthony of the Desert. Before becoming a monastic he gave away his fortune and his sister to be raised by Nuns. When he achieved isolation in the desert he was bombarded by demons with thoughts of his past life, he missed his sister and and was tempted with regret of the money he gave away. I pray that you persevere by God’s grace. Thank you again.

    1. Fred September 21, 2020 at 1:25 am

      Ha,no Jews do this type of thing.

  12. LuLu September 14, 2020 at 7:26 pm

    Roosh, amazing writing. This is like therapy for me. It’s almost heartbreaking. Sometimes I felt like I was let a stray. By family, friends. They were let a stray too. Then you learn. There’s that saying. Takes ten years to slap the stupid out of you. Found this to be very true. Thank you for your honesty.

    1. Ben September 14, 2020 at 9:17 pm

      Well said.

    2. Babu baht September 14, 2020 at 9:22 pm

      I wasted 10 years too- basically my entire 20s.

      On the right path now and that’s what matters.

      1. Grace September 14, 2020 at 10:43 pm

        How did you waste them?

      2. Babu baht September 14, 2020 at 11:06 pm

        Dropped out of law school, rebelled against family for the sake of it, became an alcoholic and sex addict, then became fat/obese in mid/late 20s.

        31 now, clean and sober for a long time, and in the best shape ive been in for 11 years.

        Lot of uncertainty about career (like a lot of people) but the basics are being built.

      3. Grace September 15, 2020 at 12:27 am

        Wow! Good on you, it takes a lot of strength to build yourself up again.

      4. Babu baht September 15, 2020 at 2:03 am

        Thanks alot. Sky is the limit.

      5. Admiral September 17, 2020 at 7:52 pm

        Don’t feel like you are too far behind in career. Early 30’s you can still make a very successful career if you focus, and choose a field that rewards your talents.

  13. angrybite September 14, 2020 at 7:43 pm

    Don’t be too harsh for yourself Roosh, your parents migrated from the middle east to the US, was that a sin? It is not a sin either to leave parents and have life of your own, Matthew 19:5 ”˜For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh”™. Anyway It’s pleasing to read good things about own homeland. Greetings from Kraków

    1. johnny doe September 16, 2020 at 12:23 pm

      the thing is,he’s not married and the scripture doesnt apply to him

  14. PMN September 14, 2020 at 8:35 pm

    Remember that you were a slave in Egypt, and the LORD your God redeemed you from there.

  15. Babu baht September 14, 2020 at 8:42 pm

    Nice writing man.

    Not only did Poland serve its purpose, but your past work did as well.

    It got me out of a dark place and put me in the right direction.

    Even though I am not part of any organized religion, I see a lot of truth in your current work too.

    God is where every man must eventually look. There is nothing else.

    All the best.

  16. yomismo September 14, 2020 at 8:49 pm

    The recent converts are the most radical and zealous, my you’re now the epitome of virtuosity, SJW virtue signalling have nothing on you. A confused child of the unholy union of pagan enemies: an iranian muhammedan or zoroastrian and an Armenian heretic. Have Armenians already forgotten their genocide at the hands of the Turks for the Armenian “patriarch” to endorse the re-mosqueing of Hagia Sophia? When are you going to write about this, heretic?

  17. Mike September 14, 2020 at 9:43 pm

    I am about seven years your senior, but I have appreciated your voice and guidance for a few years now. Though I have never been to Poland, and I am on a second marriage with three kids, I very much appreciate the sentiment in this post. Oddly, my Poland was shitty little Dayton, Ohio and a parade of white trash honeys, semi-pro hookers, and many hours of post-closing time drinks at just about every bar in town for about 20 years. Oh, satan does occasionally beacon an evil call to those times for me as well, but having the divine knowing of Jesus Christ really has enlightened me to move beyond those lucid temptations.

    Like you, I have fond memories for certain friends and certain women of those long and lonely nights, but God taught me the most valuable lesson about seven years ago. After reconnecting (we had known each other in high school) and building a relationship with my now wife at one of those SW Ohio bars, I was diagnosed with testicular cancer in 2013.

    It could have been or should have been a host of other viral illnesses that I would have earned that would have sent this message to reset my life, but for me it was cancer, and I got the message loud and clear. As I re-started my life as a one ball wonder, my wife (then girlfriend) became pregnant, naturally. God sent me a son at the age of 41. Six month later, my cancer returned to my abdomen as stage 3.

    Through the summer of 2015, I fought a battle with cancer, BEP chemo, and a few bad infections. My dad drove me to treatment everyday, and I saw for the first time in my life how much he loved me. In my heart, I knew one way or another, I was reaping not only for me the sin I had sowed. The fear of not being able to raise my son in a proper way, in this crazy world was worse mentally than chemo was physically. Still, it was I fight I had to complete and win. By October 2015, I was cancer free, and still feel great today with a loving wife and three great kids, including my beloved son.

    Today, I listened to an interview where you talked about the death of your sister. I immediately sent up a prayer for you and your family. I am sorry that you and your family had to endure her loss. I think daily about so many who talked with in treatment, that probably didn’t end up with my blessing of renewed life. I struggle still to this day with ego and pride, but when I think of those that cancer takes, I try to recenter in the humility of our Lord.

    In my post-cancer life, I found “Return of Kings” and your podcast. I explored Orthodox Christianity through the “Whole Council of God” podcast, but ultimately settled more to my childhood/family roots as a Puritan Reformist believer. But I am blessed with access to a diversity of Christian faith as I am also the university librarian as a traditional Catholic institution. I was upset to see that YouTube had banned you this summer, and that is how I found your site today. Anyway, this long post is simply here to say, thank you for your voice hang in there, and stay true to the path that the Lord has placed you on.

    God Bless

    1. Bocephus October 13, 2020 at 8:12 pm

      Inspiring story man. God bless!

  18. Muscles? September 15, 2020 at 1:38 am

     The bigger my muscles became on the outside, the weaker I became on the inside. “

    Well then not really weak inside because you’ve never had big muscles. Do you have some form of reverse body dysmorphia? The youtube comment ona video of yours was right, “is this scrawny dude telling me that muscles are important”.

    Please man, stop saying you have muscles.

    Btw dear Roosh, you’re very stupid, insane and mediocre. Armenians are. No armenian is a great man. You’re inferior and below the white. Period.

    Sorry, you lose at life and of course yoiu need to delude yourself you’re close to God and have a messiah complex. I piss in your mouth. You’re an inferior being to me and many whites.

    1. Babu baht September 15, 2020 at 2:06 am


      Roosh is more of a pro civilization man than 95% of whites.

      He has made an incredible contribution towards masculinizing western men.

      You are nothing and want credit for your background.

      50% of whites atleast are just as useless as most of the rest of the world (except perhaps slightly less hostile).

      1. Blade September 15, 2020 at 4:46 pm

        @babu baht – you’re a pajeet. You’re a follower of a loser. Don’t you have some woman to beat from Pakistan?

      2. 109 Problems solved September 16, 2020 at 1:26 am

        White trash did you know that Indians dislike Pakistanis? If whites like you weren’t m0lesting ch1dren in SEA you would have realized that India Pajeets are hostile to Pakis.

      3. Hagio Sophia October 6, 2020 at 2:30 am

        “rest of the world” ugh you don’t know about the rest of the world.

    2. Christ Pill September 15, 2020 at 12:08 pm

      do you really think God has a favorite skin color?
      Your mind controls your body, but your spirit controls your mind. Many of us are stuck focusing on the body.
      ( 1 + 0.01 ) ^ 365 = 37.7834343328873
      Body: lift 1 lb more every day. One more pushup every day. Add 5 more seconds to your run
      Mind: write down 10 things you are grateful for today
      Spirit: read 15 minutes of the Bible every day

    3. 109 Problems solved September 16, 2020 at 1:24 am

      White American women shag dogs and white Canadian women give bbbjs to young boys.

    4. 109 Problems solved September 16, 2020 at 1:25 am

      White American women love dogs, and white Maplestan women do bbbjs on babies.

  19. Alicja September 15, 2020 at 3:18 am

    I’m Polish but I actually live in Iceland for many years now.
    I like it here but I do miss the old towns of Poland or Czech Republic. I miss the rich history of that part of Europe, it’s architecture, the churches, the libraries, the cafés, the hidden parks, that special sense of humour that we share, the summer in the countryside etc. It feels different there.

    Everything has its price though, there are things that are good and bad wherever you go but I think what matters is what comes from within. I’m at home when I’m at peace wherever that might be because the peace comes from God not from the location.

    1. Babu baht September 15, 2020 at 3:40 am

      How are the Iceland women? Attractive and feminine, or no?

      1. Alicja September 16, 2020 at 3:11 am

        There are plenty of beautiful girls here but unfortunately they hit the Wall quite early in their life most likely due to their lifestyle. You can find a lot of young single mothers here, abortions are also common and the femisist indoctrination is quite severe.

      2. Osman October 2, 2020 at 2:40 am

        Of course they are.

    2. Yavorsky September 15, 2020 at 7:18 am

      You made your choice, obviously money are more important for you than things you mentioned that you miss.

      1. Alicja September 16, 2020 at 3:35 am

        I came to Iceland because I needed to change something in my life and at that point leaving my country seemed like a good idea.

    3. johnny doe September 16, 2020 at 12:24 pm

      bingo! you will carry your problems,sins and issues and virtues everywhere you go

  20. Iostman September 15, 2020 at 5:23 am

    Have you ever thought about living in Armenia?

    1. Babu baht September 16, 2020 at 8:16 am

      What the hell is he going to do in Armenia?

      What do people do there anyway? Poop their pants?

      1. Osman October 2, 2020 at 2:48 am

        RooshV is half Armenian he’s said that like a billion times.

    2. MICHAEL H September 21, 2020 at 1:34 pm

      My guess learning a completely new language will be a serious barrier and trust me It gets more difficult with age.
      I guess If Roosh did return abroad it would be a place where he has some knowledge of the local language.
      Maybe we’ll have A Dead Bat In Paraguay part 2.

  21. Yavorsky September 15, 2020 at 7:24 am

    “Get behind me, Satan!” in the context of Poland sounds horrible. I know what you mean Daryush, because you associate Poland with you sinful past, but because I am a Pole living now in Poland it little bit awkward reading that my country is Satan.
    Anyway you right in your conclusions: “No one who sets a hand to the plow and looks to what was left behind is fit for the kingdom of God.”

    1. Roosh September 15, 2020 at 12:07 pm

      With that line I’m referring to the source of my thoughts, not Poland. USA is far more evil.

      1. Yavorsky September 15, 2020 at 6:06 pm

        Daryush, are you sure that USA is more evil than Poland? I used to live in US and I found hot spots of devout Catholic religious fervor I have never seen in Poland. Poles have so many complexes, most of Polish people feel inferior to the “Western people”.

  22. Judyta Mielnicka September 15, 2020 at 11:06 am

    Germans have words for what you feeling… Weltschmerz… it is not given, that feeling to everyone so cherish it, you get that feeling in Chopin music
    It is the proof that we are not for this world. My beloved Poland can be tricky.

  23. Christ Pill September 15, 2020 at 11:43 am

    As others have mentioned, you do not have to plant yourself in your home country. Look up Amy Carmichael, she was a missionary in India: she truly spoke the word of God and lived by her word in enough ways. But we have neglected our home country for too long. There is a time and place for traveling and God has certainly set my sight on rebuilding locally.
    History repeats itself. Our purpose remains steadfast but the way in which we accomplish our purpose changes with the ebbs and flows of this very moment we live.
    It is estimated 2.3 billion Christians live on this earth: how many actually believe? I would love to hear your thoughts.

  24. Blade September 15, 2020 at 1:28 pm

    Roosh in your Toyota 4Runner video you’re balding in the crown. Ba ha ha ha. You live with your mom at 41, you are buying beater SUVS from 20 years ago because your funds are limited and with no career prospects.

    You want a virgin yet you’ve banged dozens of STD ridden sluts.

    Life is certainly giving you what you deserve.

    Thank you for purging yourself from the gene pool, you hirsute neanderthal.

    1. almadison September 15, 2020 at 1:42 pm

      stop hating. Roosh has seen andexperienced more and done more for many more than you ever will. ….and he is barely at midlife.

      1. Goru September 15, 2020 at 4:16 pm

        Unable to buy a new car, broke, living with mom 41,balding, and no career prospects yeah ok. His fifteen minutes of fame are over.

      2. Yavorsky September 15, 2020 at 6:00 pm

        If Daryush is such a loser, why trash him? Why do you need to kick “the lying down man”? What’s wrong with you?
        To be honest, for a any man the biggest success is to convert before he dies.

      3. Blade September 15, 2020 at 6:30 pm

        B/c he’s a narcissistic hypocrite of the highest order. Pretending to do a 180 at the moment he was slammed by the internet mobs that precipitated in the police coming to his door.

        Roosh took advantage of many women for pump and dumps – and now he wants a traditional woman which he cannot find especially now that he’s older, balding, broke, and living with his mom at 41.

        If you don’t see that Roosh is now a loser of the nth degree, then you’re low class trash too.

        There will always be low confident losers that follow their leaders b/c they have no spine of their own. In a couple of years, Roosh will be no more.

        > Why do you need to kick “the lying down man”?

        B/c he was and is no different from the ones he criticized vociferously.

      4. 109 Problems solved September 16, 2020 at 1:29 am

        White women f-u-c-k dogs and cry r-a-p-e charges on men. Death to the J-e-w and the white woman.

      5. Stevedawg September 18, 2020 at 3:41 pm

        I kinda suspect there is truth to this, but I think Roosh is an interesting, talented writer.

      6. Goru September 15, 2020 at 4:27 pm

        All he did was make a few bucks from omega incels to pump and dump poor girls from poor countries. He sure did a lot. At least life is giving him a good punishment. If Roosh really feels he”™s a saint and not trying to rebrand he can donate all his ill earned income to charity.

        Low value men like yourself simply are not fit to breed.

      7. almadison September 16, 2020 at 9:25 pm

        do u think that is an easy thing to do ? making a few bucks from omega incels and get them to the pump and dump stage with por girls from poor countries ?

        what exactly is his punishment ? aging ? balding ? living with his mother ? …….um….ok……not fit to breed ? …um..sure thing …hitler

    2. Judyta Mielnicka September 15, 2020 at 3:15 pm

      Hey, be nice
      Balding? So what? He is bringing goodness, real goodness to us.

      1. Goru September 15, 2020 at 4:14 pm

        Nah you”™re just omega tier trash

    3. Judyta Mielnicka September 15, 2020 at 3:29 pm

      …and you never know.. My husband was like Roosh. When we married he was 40 and I was 22. 27 years later we have two grown up kids.

      1. Goru September 15, 2020 at 4:15 pm

        Must have been ugly and:or fat to for a guy 18 years older

      2. Lithuanian bear September 15, 2020 at 4:26 pm

        Why are you so invested in the life of the person you seem to hate? A healthy person never follows people whom he deems to be of lesser character.

      3. Goru September 15, 2020 at 4:41 pm

        Who are you? Some loser that is taking advice from a broke pick up “artist.” Your lack of confidence is that low.

        And I”™m simply amused by this charlatan rebranding himself as a Christian go distance himself from the online mob.

        You are fools.

      4. Andrew September 16, 2020 at 6:35 pm

        You”™re about as far from amused as it gets. You”™re spending your time on the blog of a person you admittedly hate, airing out your internal unhappiness for all to see.

        Literally nobody gives a shit what you think about Roosh. Literally not a single person. Every post you make looks more and more pitiful and obsessed.

        He”™s getting older? Yeah, no kidding, Einstein. He wants a Virgin? Doubt it, but he would probably like a virtuous woman. I think he”™d even be fine with celibacy too at this point though.

        Your genius contribution here is that he”™s faking his conversion for money? Yep, you”™re a real Einstein, that”™s why he stopped selling all his books.

        He”™s like many of us: we are or were deceived by the world, enslaved to our lusts, going down the wrong path. We all have wasted years and time we”™ll never get back. But better late than never. His story is an inspirational one. He sacrificed his economic future by deleting his books. He may be poor, but he has different priorities now. That”™s what you don”™t get. Balding, poor, none of it matters. When we walk in righteousness, there is a peace that fills the heart.

        You”™re wasting your time here. None of the things you list are important. We”™ll all grow older and uglier. Many of us will make mistakes that cost us years, maybe decades. Some of us will never change our ways or see the light. But the father of the prodigal son says to his elder brother to rejoice, because “he was dead, and is alive again. He was lost, but is now found.”

        May we all be found again and may we all be alive once more. Roosh, pray for the rest of us. As for you, you speak the words of Satan. Get thee hence.

      5. Antonio Zoli September 18, 2020 at 1:34 am

        Amen, Andrew, and well said. We need more folks out there with your resolve and insight.

      6. MICHAEL H September 21, 2020 at 1:48 pm

        Depends on the country, here in Brasil a few lucky dudes marry womem 20 years younger unlike the USA where barring extreme wealth or status that much of an age difference is extremely rare. If Roosh wants to marry a younger wife 10 years his junior returning abroad would be his best option but you need an income to do that.

    4. 109 Problems solved September 16, 2020 at 1:28 am

      White femonism form alliances with white nationalism as in your comment you fat white femonzi whore.

    5. 109 Problems solved September 16, 2020 at 1:28 am

      White women are cancer.

    6. DelMar September 16, 2020 at 2:39 am

      Dude, that is so rude. Calm down and leave the guy alone. People will suck the life out of someone for trying to be a better person? Why? He is clearly wanting to make changes and its hard. Why not actually say something nice?
      Balding? He has the strong Armenian hair genes, he has fabulous hair. What are you talking about.
      I don’t get it, aren’t people allowed to change and improve? He has said many times he is not proud of his past and is embarrassed at the waste of time.

    7. Andrew September 16, 2020 at 7:47 pm

      This is essentially a criticism from the world. Appeals to materialism, vanity, greed, etc… why on earth would you think any of these insults would stick?

      It”™s about 100 times sadder that you”™ve watched so much of Roosh to know he”™s balding and a billion times sadder that you”™re here thinking he cares. Look at your life and how empty it is.

  25. almadison September 15, 2020 at 1:46 pm

    Roosh. no needs to go to these extremes. There is always a middle ground…a golden mean.

    You could have and can easily go back to Poland and marry a nice Christian polish woman and start a business or continue the one you have…..

    it’s not an either/or ..all or nothing thing all the time.

    1. Goru September 15, 2020 at 4:18 pm

      He can”™t get a decent job bc he has no meaningful skills.

      1. Babu baht September 15, 2020 at 7:22 pm

        He can be pastry chef in Poland.

        It will be the hairiest pastry in Europe

      2. Andrew September 16, 2020 at 6:58 pm

        Hey look, it”™s Roosh”™s stalker with the career advice nobody asked for! What are the odds this person is single?

      3. almadison September 16, 2020 at 9:20 pm

        he can write
        he can do basic programming
        he can market
        he can proselytize
        he knows game i.e. persuasion.

        he has plenty of marketable skill to apply to any area he chooses.

      4. Babu baht September 17, 2020 at 12:37 am

        He can wipe his ass (hopefully)

  26. James Patrick September 15, 2020 at 5:08 pm

    Great article. It’s funny I was actually converted before you, even though your forum was a catalyst. Mentions of the Mencius Moldbug writings > into discovering the basis of much is Christianity > into 2 years with the Roman Catholic SSPX Latin Mass and baptism. But ironically it just doesn’t seem to work for me. I still keep tabs on your developments, almost as a window for ‘What if I’m wrong, what if Christianity is still right I’m just viewing it wrong’. But it’s tough, and Churches only 10% full is demotivating while Mass gets repetitive and boring outside of certain elements. And the people don’t even dress up, everyone seems shabby and poor and elderly.. it’s tough to relate to. This is another main gripe, I was hoping to meet people of great virtue and spiritual achievement, but perhaps I don’t have eyes to see it, but I just see something altogether different. Maybe it’s just the country I’m in, or the Catholic church in this country. But for now Christianity will be something I have many agreements with in private and with private prayer, but no Churchgoing or peers for me.

    1. Yavorsky September 16, 2020 at 4:22 am

      “”And the people don”™t even dress up, everyone seems shabby and poor and elderly.. it”™s tough to relate to. This is another main gripe, I was hoping to meet people of great virtue and spiritual achievement, but perhaps I don”™t have eyes to see it” – I have a completely different experience with Latin mass attendees. The church where I go people generally are dressed smart. Also there is quite a variation in age, from young to old.

    2. Judyta Mielnicka September 27, 2020 at 2:38 am

      James, but those shabby, elderly and poor are IT, that IS what you are searching for
      I am sure you are familiar with Ortodox Survival Course, /Fr Rose, Fr S Allen/ I will pray for your peace/Everything you looking for is at the altar, in almost empty church with poor unpopular attendance, you can learn /with Grace of course/real faith from those babushkas rather then from highly regarded celebrated spiritual gurus. I sent you warm words this way, it seems I know that feeling you described from my youth.

  27. Babu baht September 15, 2020 at 9:32 pm

    Time to go back to game roosh

    There is nothing else in this world

    U lived as an arab conqueror and you should be proud of it

    What’s the point of worshipping god when sitting at mommy’s home all day? that is the life of a castrated man.

    You did good in the past and time to pick up again.

    1. Blade September 15, 2020 at 11:53 pm

      All Roosh did was go to 2nd/3rd world countries to bang poor women. If his game is so great he should be banging them nicely here in America. He never could even before he became infamous.

      He’s now balding at 41, living at home with his mom (how alpha is that?), hasn’t had a real job in about 15 years +, buying hoopty cars (2000 Toyota 4runner for $3k), etc.

      He’s too old now to be playing PUA as that creepy 41 YO at the bar in Poland.

      He wants a virgin girl even though he banged hundreds and spread STDs.

      > that is the life of a castrated man.

      he never did well in the USA. That’s why he whined about it. He went to 2nd/3rd world countries where prostitution and escorts a big thing. They see an American with money they’re ofc going to show interest. If given a choice no girl wants a hairy Arab like Roosh. He also has no muscle LOL.

      If Roosh wasn’t so narcissistic, and hypocritical, his condition would be understandable.


    2. Hagio Sophia October 6, 2020 at 2:33 am

      he’s not an arab and no he should go back to the life.

  28. Ego Sum Victor September 15, 2020 at 10:17 pm

    May Christ favor you in your endeavors to live a holy life Roosh.

    Christ save Western Civilization!

    1. Babu baht September 15, 2020 at 10:47 pm

      Only conquest creates civilization.

      Read Nietzsche or Bronze age pervert

      West is f***ed.
      Low iq blacks or latinos won’t conquet.

      Oligarchs will prevent any real conquest of the west by a superior group.

      1. 109 Problems solved September 16, 2020 at 1:31 am

        Those same “low IQ Blacks” would burn down an entire white neighborhood because Karen falsely cried r-a-p-e on a black man. The J-e-w and the white woman are cancer.

      2. Yavorsky September 16, 2020 at 4:17 am

        Only conquest creates civilization” Not true. It never happened that something destructive was creative.

      3. Babu baht September 16, 2020 at 8:29 pm

        True civilization is not farming/peasant life.

        That is unremarkable and uninspitational

    2. Babu baht September 15, 2020 at 11:34 pm

      Christianity, and indeed all organized religion, has castrated the Aryan man.

      Men should think of themselves as descendants of Gods, and all try to become as close an image of God..not bow their head submissively, or think that Christ is ‘the only son of God’

      Organized religion has created human peasants.

      1. Hagio Sophia October 6, 2020 at 2:35 am

        why did you leave your Christian faith?

  29. Richard Roma September 16, 2020 at 12:43 am

    You can travel without sinning. IMO you falsely equate the two things because that’s how the bad part of your life went. I spent a whole summer in Poland and never fornicated with anyone… Just enjoyed seeing the sights. Salt mines, churches, castles, WW2 bunkers etc.

  30. 109 Problems solved September 16, 2020 at 1:22 am

    Poland is a globalist country.

    1. Yavorsky September 16, 2020 at 4:16 am

      Current elites are globalists, but most of the people not.

  31. Tyler September 16, 2020 at 6:28 am

    If you look at Poland this way cannot even imagine what America would be by that definition. Also, not all men live in lands for hedonsim in self-pleasure. I have been living in Eastern Europe now for 2 years and my day-to-day lifestyle is not much different then it was when I was in the states.

  32. Daniel September 16, 2020 at 11:06 am

    You should still get big and muscular, but for other reasons, like being able to perform labour and good health.

    1. Babu baht September 17, 2020 at 12:34 am

      Labour for others is for slaves

      Get lean and muscular to train yourself for war

      Superior men must once again take to the sees

      Shall we conquer Scandanavia, Poland or Africa?

      1. Kris September 21, 2020 at 7:28 pm

        You, indian shithead can conquer a toilet… that”™s about it…

      2. Babu baht September 24, 2020 at 3:25 am

        On the contrary- Indians and Chinese will inherit the earth.

        We are doing conquest in Australia now.

      3. Jacek October 29, 2020 at 4:49 am

        First clean up your miserable country where people defecate and die on the streets.

  33. James Bale September 16, 2020 at 11:36 am

    It seems like this article tickled a lot of demonized scabies. Like roaches, they crawled out from the pit of scum to attack Roosh, to spit out frustation and crying around, “Yeah Roosh you deserve that, you did so much wrong, go back to us, turn back to satan!” and defending the lies from their dark lord who pets and trained them to be human dogs.
    These people try to induce him to his old self, because they thought this sincere article about his past, might be a sign of weakness, the opposite is the case. Only strong men share their personal struggles, they have the power to talk about topics, to reveal their inside, because they have no fear of comments from kinky people. Men and women on the right side, have no fear to speak about personal thoughts.

    1. Lithuanian Bear September 16, 2020 at 12:51 pm

      Give not that which is holy unto the dogs, neither cast ye your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn again and rend you.- Matthew 7:6

      1. James Bale September 16, 2020 at 2:30 pm

        I’ll take this verse to heart. Thank you!

    2. Grace September 16, 2020 at 1:15 pm

      Well Said!

  34. Buster September 16, 2020 at 1:09 pm

    About some of the comments here:

    I know I shouldn’t be, but I’m still amazed at the amount of butthurt some people express towards another man they’ve never met and with whom their sole interaction consists entirely of articles and comments on a web site.

  35. Low Voltage September 17, 2020 at 7:35 am

    Be a a man and stay in America, Roosh. Here, we work hard, so the One Percent can live like you did in Poland.

    1. Babu baht September 24, 2020 at 3:26 am

      Roosh has every right to go meet Polish woman

  36. Paul UK September 17, 2020 at 12:52 pm

    Roosh, I, for one, am glad to see that you are able to see Poland )and the time you spent there) in a realistic light.
    There is nothing special about Poland and Polish women (Eastern Europe and its people in general). There are way more worldly and materialistic that their Western counterparts.
    It’s a dog-eat-dog world over there.
    I glad that now you understand that in Eastern European women’s eyes your American accent equals money and US citizenship. Plus your “exotic (Persian and Armenian ) looks could give a slight advantage over Polish guys. But you did not marry any of the Polish girls for a reason.
    Washington DC (and any major US city, really) has things that Poland (and E. Europe in general ) doesn’t have: diversity.

    1.Tons of young women from different ethnic backgrounds : you don’t need to travel to find one that could be a potential wife.

    1. Kris September 21, 2020 at 7:30 pm

      Yeah! Keep your thrash to yourselves!

  37. Admiral September 17, 2020 at 7:43 pm

    I think this is a normal feeling. I also lived in Bratislava, and then in Estonia for almost 2 years between them. 10 years later with a family in the US, I feel a strong urge to drop everything and go back. But I can’t. There is no way to return. I’m not the same person even if the countries of Eastern Europe haven’t changed as quickly as I it would not be the same. Some of us are destined to never fully have a home. Roosh by the way, when you come through Ohio, let me know.

  38. Stevedawg September 18, 2020 at 3:34 pm

    I don”™t see what”™s wrong with going back to Poland?

    Lower cost of living, healthier society, not in the middle of political / civil unrest. What”™s not to like? What do you really owe to the US?

    I wouldn”™t mind leaving if I could, but I”™m tied down with a child.

    Prospects for dating / marriage are probably better there than in the US.

  39. Deeply Faithful September 19, 2020 at 5:50 am

    Poland doesn’t need you. We are better off without your persona. Don’t come back.

  40. todo September 19, 2020 at 8:41 am

    listen to your feelings dude, you still have some life to live in poland, that’s what these impressions are telling you. The body knows what the mind doesnt want to hear.

  41. Antonio Zoli September 19, 2020 at 4:25 pm

    On September 11, 1683, King John Sobieski III of Poland, rode out to his forces of winged Hussars, and admonished them that they were on that day to save Christianity in the west. Then he charged into a vastly larger army of Ottomon Turks, routed their Janissaries, and their leader, Karah Mustafah, won the battle, and saved the day. Pope Innocent XI gave a homily in honor of Sobieski at the Vatican entitled “there was a man named John”.
    On September 11, 1697, at the Battle of Zenta, Prince Eugene of Savoy defeated the Ottomon Turks, ending their invasions of Europe.
    A writer once wrote an excellent article on the former ROK site about the Siege of Malta, and how the Knights of Malta, vastly outnumbered, repelled and defeated the Ottomon Turks. I believe his name was English Bob, and some other Red Pillers, tried to marginalize the writer, but the empirical truth was that in the end, with resolve and faith, the Christian Knights of Malta were victorious, as were the Christian Hussars, and their Christian king of Poland. Tonight and tomorrow I will worship in my church, as an Eastern Christian, not in a Mosque, Red Pillers!

  42. AL Du Clur September 20, 2020 at 9:20 am

    Roosh, God has chosen you to follow him. You don’t need to be so doctrinaire. Ask yourself if you are closer to God in Poland or the USA and live accordingly

  43. E. Dahl September 20, 2020 at 7:12 pm

    So now Poland is Satan because Roosh lived there and did things that he now regrets. What self-centeredness. This guy’s articles get more and more ridiculous

    1. Andrew September 22, 2020 at 12:47 am

      He”™s not saying Poland is Satan. Sheesh, some of you are so myopic.

      He is saying the temptation in his head to return to what he perceives as “comfort” is Satan. To him, comfort is Poland. For another man, it could be anything.

      He is saying that perhaps God means for him to suffer like this, with these women, with these money troubles here, etc.. he”™s saying we should stand strong and not run when the going gets tough. It”™s actually not about Poland at all.

  44. Ben September 21, 2020 at 10:32 am

    I thank God for you.

  45. John September 21, 2020 at 11:41 am

    I think you really Miss Poland, and don’t really want it behind you. I don’t really understand why you left, women are more feminine there, Religion and faith more valued, and they aren’t divided by race and other issues. I might move there. Since I’ve been back in the states I don’t have any intelligent conversations. Those women are better for marriage and long term

    1. Kris September 21, 2020 at 7:34 pm

      You are right about Poland but stay away from here!

  46. peter smith September 21, 2020 at 4:42 pm

    you miss the sex and the good times, you aren,t fooling anyone Roosh. once you have sampled the good life no one wants to go back to being a monk. its not natural or healthy to live a life without sex, you think your going to meet a nice christian girl to marry and have good sex with ? dream on my friend , dream on .

  47. Farzad September 21, 2020 at 6:25 pm

    I believe Poland will get you back to the glory you crave Roosh.go man …go

  48. Kris September 21, 2020 at 7:42 pm

    Hey you piece of shit! I used to meet you in the cafe at the building in the corner of the square at the bottom of the picture – the one opposite to The Whiskey in the Jar…

    I was considering multiple times if I should follow you through those dark streets back to your home and give you a good beating. Your muscles are non existent and you know how you used to shit your pants at the sight of tall, strong and aggressive Slavic men you were passing by like a rat every day, moving to the other side of the street…

    Also – never have I seen you with a girl… always by yourself.

    Don”™t come back shithead! If I see you again – you will get beaten. Also I will put your picture with some description at the Lech stadium and other places that Lech hooligans frequent – this will provide you with unforgettable memories!

    1. Andrew September 22, 2020 at 12:49 am

      Give him a beating for what? Why do you hate him so? Is it because you are possessed by demons?

    2. Fortunat September 22, 2020 at 1:41 am

      This is aggressive (christian?) masculinity reappearing, fending off every and all outside contenders for native cooch. 🙂

  49. JAY JAMES September 21, 2020 at 9:02 pm

    come up to CANADA my friend/with parliamentary democracy that has worked for over 1000 years. become a citizen with free health care/the second largest land country in the world-Russia is first. Canada is basically a Catholic country[at least most of the current politicians in power. 5000 miles from coast to coast-u can find whatever u want-including France in Canada-QUEBEC. all races, colors, religions, and more all living in peace. Never had a civil war. Buy a farm be self sufficient and live in peace for the rest of your life.AND FOR THE WOMEN of Canada/the best mixture of all races, religions,from the world. Zip back to the States easy for a quick trip to see WHAT U ARE NOT MISSING. WELCOME TO CANADA.

  50. John September 21, 2020 at 9:14 pm

    Sounds like you need to go there dont know maybe normal vacation

  51. Bill Countess September 21, 2020 at 9:31 pm

    Have you thought of Maine? There is a tiny cabin for sale on ebay right now for 52k that includes 41.4 acres.

  52. Billy September 21, 2020 at 9:55 pm

    Gotham needs Roosh-man.
    The Roosh-man must return.

  53. Fortunat September 22, 2020 at 12:52 am

    Poznan is really the nicest polish city, what an amazing place.

    I was going through a similar phase when I was there in 2014.

    Nice taste.

    Now go on to become the spiritual godfather of neomasculinity.

  54. Roki Vulovic September 22, 2020 at 8:17 pm

    Might be better to move back. I myself am part Russian and part German, but my heart hangs almost entirely on my Slavic blood. I have nothing in common with the country my parents immigrated to. When I was in Serbia for holidays and came back to Germanistan I got homesick … for Serbia. As E. Michael Jones put it, my country is a huge concentration camp full of hyper politically correct sex robots hating everything their forefathers built. My heart bleeds for them for they don’t know better, but that is all I care to shed.

    The stores and pubs close early during the night, for no reason really, and you barely see people outside past 10pm even though the city is as big as Novi Sad. We basically have nationwide curfew for God knows how long. I don’t know any other country that goes asleep that early and forsakes living for the sake of wageslavery.

    Roosh, you can live in a foreign country without becoming a degenerate. Culturally you are more in line with the Eastern European people, so why pretend it is your duty to live in Jewmerica? Cleanse yourself spiritually in Poland, Serbia, or wherever you wanna be and settle with a cute girl and finito. Life isn’t as complicated as you make it out to be.

    You ought to let go of your hatred and anger towards women because you focus too much on the travesties they do, instead of the very beauty they can give as well.

  55. Markit September 23, 2020 at 8:11 am

    I think is that could be a great idea going back to Poland! is the place to be for peoples like you! I love all east Eu. I guess it was also good going back to your country (be near your parents and friends too) to test how good you felt there… as you can see you are complaining a lot about your country, which I agreed. But now the problem is… You cannot fly to Poland! or if you will made it prepare yourself for a quarantene! also considering that masks rules and restriction are pretty much the same of Us there. I was in Ukraine this summer and for a month I lived a normal life there! no masks in the public services, taxi, bar, restaurants, clubs open! We had to use it only in some stores not all! It was so great! Going back to normality I felt like to cry once my foot hit the ground! I hope soon all waking up! We cannot stand this frode too long worldwide! good luck if your are going back!

    1. Turkish Delight October 2, 2020 at 4:53 am

      I don’t blame you for saying that. I want to leave the US again. I need to have a good plan. I nned some kind of job.

  56. Mexico man October 1, 2020 at 7:25 pm

    Damn dawg this shit almost made me cry

  57. Frenchie Koveras October 24, 2020 at 3:14 pm

    Great story & well said in the choice of words.