Scenes from Poland flash into my mind. The gray street I lived on for two years, with the hipster cafe right across my kitchen window. My favorite pub where I’d stand next to the bathroom and fish for loose Polish women. The Catholic Church I walked by a thousand times but only went into at the very end. The shopping mall with the basement supermarket. Two-hundred grams of cheese and one-hundred grams of ham, prosze. I met a virgin there in the produce section, and I’m sure she still is a virgin.
I’m back home in my place of birth. Poland was only a waystation, but I made too many memories there. I remember the lake I would ride around with a rented bicycle and the pleasing aroma of hamburger meat from the food truck down the street. I remember the profession of insincere love she whispered into my eager ear. Go away, all of it! You are not a part of my life anymore.
I commandeered a section of my mother’s living room. I look out the window and see my 21-year-old mountain vehicle parked on the street. Three black teenagers film a low-budget rap video. Poland taps on the glass. Do you miss me? Maybe going back could be good for me. I wouldn’t need a car to get around. My friends would live only minutes away—no more driving for an hour or two just to have a dinner with them.
And don’t you remember how cheap it was? You can’t afford America, especially after burning your books in so rash a manner. You’ll need a lot of time to write new books. Cheap and pleasant Poland can help with that. How else do you think you’re going to live? You don’t even have health insurance. Your parents wouldn’t mind if you go back. They love you, and will support you like they always have. Go back, Roosh, go back to Poland. The United States is not for you.
Get behind me, Satan!
My life in Poland was a fantasy. Money from sex filth, auto-deposited into my bank account. Women sexually craved me because of a beard and an accent they heard in movies and television shows they never should’ve watched. No family responsibilities, no rides to give to my mother or aunt. No real worries or concerns. The hardest part of the day was pumping up my muscles in the gym to sustain a steady supply of sex. Did my latest game book add to my savings? Let me count the dollars. Does the harlot want another go? Let me prepare the bed of fornication.
Living abroad was supposed to make me a man, but it made me more like a woman. It made me effeminate, an addict of pleasure and comfort. The bigger my muscles became on the outside, the weaker I became on the inside. Fornication put shackles on my wrists; cheap living put them on my ankles. Where did my virtue go? Lost in my luggage on one of my yearly visits back home to pretend I loved my family. And what of those men who followed me into foreign lands? Blind like me. I lived a fantasy for too long, and now when I want to live right, the memories of all my mistakes penetrate my mind when I pray, when I drive my mother to the supermarket, when I pay $400 for a visit to the dentist.
I lost and found myself in Poland. Killed and reborn in the same place. Deemed so by God. Poland served its purpose; the world served its purpose, but I am not a child of Poland or the world. I am the blood child of an Iranian man and Armenian woman who immigrated to the United States, my home. I am the spiritual child of God the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. Let Poland be for the Poles and let the world be for the worldly. Get behind me, Poland, I live with you no longer.
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I really enjoyed reading this roosh. You inspire me to do better myself. Your writing helps me with my journey to find God in my heart. I felt his grace and thus know how far away from God i am. I thank you again because it helps to see people who are further than i am in this journey.
Thank you. Your work is helpful to more people than you know.
This is a great article, I can tell it comes straight from the heart.
A lot of the US is quite a bit cheaper than Maryland. Have you considered moving to a different state?
Thanks again for this good piece.
This is something that eats up at me everyday. Fantasising about living in foreign countries, and not being able to do so. I wish I had your strength.
And when you pay 400$ to visit the dentist it’s DRILL BABY DRILL!!!
Hahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
It’s natural to feel this way, as our lives abroad, if sustainable, are always better. Mark ames wrote about his withdrawal symptoms from Russia well before he was me tooed by a fat American journalist.
Nothing wrong with going back as poland is more traditional.
Way too many J-e-w-ISH influence in Poland, Ukraine and Russia these days.
Schön geschrieben.
Poland has made her mark, she affects where life is going now, or where it could have, but hadn’t gone; interesting how even the bricklayer from hundreds of years ago, who raised the tenement Roosh lived in, impacted the course of his life- had a hand in that specific turn.
The Armenian Church in communion with the Catholic Church, has a small presence in Poland- http://www.piotripawel.diecezja.gda.pl/galerie/kategorie/ormianie, with father Isakowicz-Zaleski (video in Polish, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ezKWEcUX3c), a well known and respected commentator. There is also the Greek Catholic Church (Ukrainian) of the Eastern Rite, fully united with Rome.
Too bad Roosh went for the low hanging fruit (but life isn’t over till it’s over, I knew people with big plans, who had died before they even had a chance to start), and Polish women are notorious mudsharks- in the 1980s, when Kaddafi was sending his military types to us for training, with dollar bills sticking out of their pockets, they would have loose girls waiting in line, and chasing after them at the disco.
I suggest Roosh look into acquiring Iranian and Armenian citizenships, it doesn’t hurt not to be a hostage of a singular gang- from Washington, DC in his case.
To be an American man is to worship the dirty J-e-w and his white woman f-eminzi wh0redom. America is the fempire of the world because the J-e-w owns America. Mapleland doesn’t have free speech laws which makes it a good cuntry to discriminate against men. White women in Burgerland and Mapleland are cancer. As an African-American, I am proud to say death to the J-e-w world order.
Good to see an African American man who doesn’t see the white woman as his saviour
I applaud you for seeing the light. Continue to preach the truth as did Ice Cube.
Iran is appealing and I’ve been looking into some educational opportunities there that are up to six-months in duration. Iran has one of the most educated and well read populations in the world. Further, Iran embraces traditionalism and rejects modernism. The cuisine and options for fresh produce are abundant from what I’ve read.
Roosh,maybe stay with your Mom for the next six months while thinking about your current road trip. While on this trip you may find a place that you would like to call your home in the future and that will need contemplation and planning time, so being there with your Mom over the holidays and winter might be good. It looks like the Albany, NY area has a lot of orthodox churches and the land outside of the city, may not be too expensive.
Good point, Roosh. I am certain you are not at the end of your journey, as I have a few more years on the buckle than you. Mind me, I always admired your articles (Conservatives are losers, I think is one of the best). Yet, familiarize yourself to the thought that the US of A might NOT be the end of YOUR road. Are the USA really a true home to anyone? At least the USA since 1945? (Or should I say since 1919? Or 1865?) Think about it. The 400$ for the dentist are just the symptom of a disease. It might be someone else than S***n trying to tell you to go somewhere else. Warm regards. Thomas
Running is not an answer. He is American. As i am a Lithuanian. You have a heritage that you can’t run from. The inherited culture and blood runs too deep. It is a blessing and a curse. You get the wonderful traditions that are held through immesurable time. But you also have a responsibility to keep that tradition and to fight against anyone who tries to destroy it. Be it foreign ideology, force, or a ruling class. You can’t run away because we all are going to be judged in the end. What will be your excuse for not fighting when the Lord asks you?
Everyone has their role in this fight against evil. These are times of illumination. The shadows are clearer than ever just like rot in peoples heart. So is the virtue on people.
In the end we all find our way to fight the only rule is to not run away from the fight.
P.s. I hope i dont sound preachy. Just trying to express my opinion.
I wanted to put into consideration if being “American” is of any true heritage, coming from a “Volk”. Not trying to be offensive, and I have the feeling that Roosh might understand. Anyway, the message was meant to him principally. Maybe I should have simply sent it to him personally.
True, accepting waht God gave us is part of the plan. I am currently in Lithuania, from which part are you?
I live in a small village which is in the district of Kretinga.
Close to Palanga, very beautiful place. Right now I am living between vilnius and panevezys. Tomorrow going to visit Siluva. Your country is a nice place but I can see that all the modern garbage it´s coming really fast and there are not many vocations to stop it. Sad to see.
It’s all part of being in european union. Its satanistic tentacles reach far. I even got fined for not wearing a mask. The joke is i never once wore a mask and when i was nice and tried to comply with wearing one i got find for trying to do so(250€). God does have a sense of humor. I am glad i found God because now i can see small signs he is giving me. I think even if i saw one god given sign in my life it would be worth more than any money in the world.
Beartaria lives on 🙂
Yes I know what you mean. God has a great sense of humor but is also fierce at times… can´t play games! I would like to ask you some questions about palanga area since i am considering moving with the family. Could you write me to [email protected]?? Thanks in advance!
I was speaking with an incredibly devout woman in Poland. She was telling me about how in her city of Krakow there are so many Churches and people always celebrating.
If you were Catholic there would be a way to live there. If foreign travel is only for fornication in your mind, I understand that. But, what if someone wanted to be with people of their faith. Perhaps a move to Armenia is in order where there are congregations of like minded Armenian Orthodox.
Get behind me Poland, but we know that USA is the great Satan. Americanism is heresy. There is no escape, but don’t take it out on Poland.
I just wanted to say that your comment has inspired me to check out Poland next year, specifically Krakow after doing a quick Goolag search and seeing how many churches are there. there’s even a good amount of Traditional Catholic Churches as well in the city. Thanks again!
I can definitely recommend Kraków but Prague is also beautiful. There are a lot of churches in both of those cities. Last year I’ve seen a Catholic procession going through crowded with tourists Charles Bridge in Prague. Im not sure if you can see something like that in the Western part of the Europe. I could be wrong though.
If you will decide to visit Czech Republic I can recommend doing a road trip and checking the castles there (best to do it in the summer when they are open).
And most of the churches are open everyday and there are masses during the weekdays. Thats one of those things that I miss from Poland.
Thank you, this really hit home for me. It has convicted my aching heart. I hope you don’t mind me saying but you remind me of a modern day St. Anthony of the Desert. Before becoming a monastic he gave away his fortune and his sister to be raised by Nuns. When he achieved isolation in the desert he was bombarded by demons with thoughts of his past life, he missed his sister and and was tempted with regret of the money he gave away. I pray that you persevere by God’s grace. Thank you again.
Roosh, amazing writing. This is like therapy for me. It’s almost heartbreaking. Sometimes I felt like I was let a stray. By family, friends. They were let a stray too. Then you learn. There’s that saying. Takes ten years to slap the stupid out of you. Found this to be very true. Thank you for your honesty.
Well said.
I wasted 10 years too- basically my entire 20s.
On the right path now and that’s what matters.
How did you waste them?
Dropped out of law school, rebelled against family for the sake of it, became an alcoholic and sex addict, then became fat/obese in mid/late 20s.
31 now, clean and sober for a long time, and in the best shape ive been in for 11 years.
Lot of uncertainty about career (like a lot of people) but the basics are being built.
Wow! Good on you, it takes a lot of strength to build yourself up again.
Thanks alot. Sky is the limit.
Don’t feel like you are too far behind in career. Early 30’s you can still make a very successful career if you focus, and choose a field that rewards your talents.
Don’t be too harsh for yourself Roosh, your parents migrated from the middle east to the US, was that a sin? It is not a sin either to leave parents and have life of your own, Matthew 19:5 ‘For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh’. Anyway It’s pleasing to read good things about own homeland. Greetings from Kraków
the thing is,he’s not married and the scripture doesnt apply to him
Remember that you were a slave in Egypt, and the LORD your God redeemed you from there.
Nice writing man.
Not only did Poland serve its purpose, but your past work did as well.
It got me out of a dark place and put me in the right direction.
Even though I am not part of any organized religion, I see a lot of truth in your current work too.
God is where every man must eventually look. There is nothing else.
All the best.
The recent converts are the most radical and zealous, my you’re now the epitome of virtuosity, SJW virtue signalling have nothing on you. A confused child of the unholy union of pagan enemies: an iranian muhammedan or zoroastrian and an Armenian heretic. Have Armenians already forgotten their genocide at the hands of the Turks for the Armenian “patriarch” to endorse the re-mosqueing of Hagia Sophia? When are you going to write about this, heretic? https://www.persecution.org/2020/06/17/armenian-patriarch-endorses-reopening-hagia-sophia/
Roosh,
I am about seven years your senior, but I have appreciated your voice and guidance for a few years now. Though I have never been to Poland, and I am on a second marriage with three kids, I very much appreciate the sentiment in this post. Oddly, my Poland was shitty little Dayton, Ohio and a parade of white trash honeys, semi-pro hookers, and many hours of post-closing time drinks at just about every bar in town for about 20 years. Oh, satan does occasionally beacon an evil call to those times for me as well, but having the divine knowing of Jesus Christ really has enlightened me to move beyond those lucid temptations.
Like you, I have fond memories for certain friends and certain women of those long and lonely nights, but God taught me the most valuable lesson about seven years ago. After reconnecting (we had known each other in high school) and building a relationship with my now wife at one of those SW Ohio bars, I was diagnosed with testicular cancer in 2013.
It could have been or should have been a host of other viral illnesses that I would have earned that would have sent this message to reset my life, but for me it was cancer, and I got the message loud and clear. As I re-started my life as a one ball wonder, my wife (then girlfriend) became pregnant, naturally. God sent me a son at the age of 41. Six month later, my cancer returned to my abdomen as stage 3.
Through the summer of 2015, I fought a battle with cancer, BEP chemo, and a few bad infections. My dad drove me to treatment everyday, and I saw for the first time in my life how much he loved me. In my heart, I knew one way or another, I was reaping not only for me the sin I had sowed. The fear of not being able to raise my son in a proper way, in this crazy world was worse mentally than chemo was physically. Still, it was I fight I had to complete and win. By October 2015, I was cancer free, and still feel great today with a loving wife and three great kids, including my beloved son.
Today, I listened to an interview where you talked about the death of your sister. I immediately sent up a prayer for you and your family. I am sorry that you and your family had to endure her loss. I think daily about so many who talked with in treatment, that probably didn’t end up with my blessing of renewed life. I struggle still to this day with ego and pride, but when I think of those that cancer takes, I try to recenter in the humility of our Lord.
In my post-cancer life, I found “Return of Kings” and your podcast. I explored Orthodox Christianity through the “Whole Council of God” podcast, but ultimately settled more to my childhood/family roots as a Puritan Reformist believer. But I am blessed with access to a diversity of Christian faith as I am also the university librarian as a traditional Catholic institution. I was upset to see that YouTube had banned you this summer, and that is how I found your site today. Anyway, this long post is simply here to say, thank you for your voice hang in there, and stay true to the path that the Lord has placed you on.
God Bless
“ The bigger my muscles became on the outside, the weaker I became on the inside. “
Well then not really weak inside because you’ve never had big muscles. Do you have some form of reverse body dysmorphia? The youtube comment ona video of yours was right, “is this scrawny dude telling me that muscles are important”.
Please man, stop saying you have muscles.
Btw dear Roosh, you’re very stupid, insane and mediocre. Armenians are. No armenian is a great man. You’re inferior and below the white. Period.
Sorry, you lose at life and of course yoiu need to delude yourself you’re close to God and have a messiah complex. I piss in your mouth. You’re an inferior being to me and many whites.
Lol
Roosh is more of a pro civilization man than 95% of whites.
He has made an incredible contribution towards masculinizing western men.
You are nothing and want credit for your background.
50% of whites atleast are just as useless as most of the rest of the world (except perhaps slightly less hostile).
@babu baht – you’re a pajeet. You’re a follower of a loser. Don’t you have some woman to beat from Pakistan?
White trash did you know that Indians dislike Pakistanis? If whites like you weren’t m0lesting ch1dren in SEA you would have realized that India Pajeets are hostile to Pakis.
do you really think God has a favorite skin color?
Your mind controls your body, but your spirit controls your mind. Many of us are stuck focusing on the body.
( 1 + 0.01 ) ^ 365 = 37.7834343328873
Body: lift 1 lb more every day. One more pushup every day. Add 5 more seconds to your run
Mind: write down 10 things you are grateful for today
Spirit: read 15 minutes of the Bible every day
White American women shag dogs and white Canadian women give bbbjs to young boys.
White American women love dogs, and white Maplestan women do bbbjs on babies.
I’m Polish but I actually live in Iceland for many years now.
I like it here but I do miss the old towns of Poland or Czech Republic. I miss the rich history of that part of Europe, it’s architecture, the churches, the libraries, the cafés, the hidden parks, that special sense of humour that we share, the summer in the countryside etc. It feels different there.
Everything has its price though, there are things that are good and bad wherever you go but I think what matters is what comes from within. I’m at home when I’m at peace wherever that might be because the peace comes from God not from the location.
How are the Iceland women? Attractive and feminine, or no?
There are plenty of beautiful girls here but unfortunately they hit the Wall quite early in their life most likely due to their lifestyle. You can find a lot of young single mothers here, abortions are also common and the femisist indoctrination is quite severe.
You made your choice, obviously money are more important for you than things you mentioned that you miss.
I came to Iceland because I needed to change something in my life and at that point leaving my country seemed like a good idea.
bingo! you will carry your problems,sins and issues and virtues everywhere you go
Have you ever thought about living in Armenia?
What the hell is he going to do in Armenia?
What do people do there anyway? Poop their pants?
“Get behind me, Satan!” in the context of Poland sounds horrible. I know what you mean Daryush, because you associate Poland with you sinful past, but because I am a Pole living now in Poland it little bit awkward reading that my country is Satan.
Anyway you right in your conclusions: “No one who sets a hand to the plow and looks to what was left behind is fit for the kingdom of God.”
With that line I’m referring to the source of my thoughts, not Poland. USA is far more evil.
Daryush, are you sure that USA is more evil than Poland? I used to live in US and I found hot spots of devout Catholic religious fervor I have never seen in Poland. Poles have so many complexes, most of Polish people feel inferior to the “Western people”.
Germans have words for what you feeling… Weltschmerz… it is not given, that feeling to everyone so cherish it, you get that feeling in Chopin music
It is the proof that we are not for this world. My beloved Poland can be tricky.
As others have mentioned, you do not have to plant yourself in your home country. Look up Amy Carmichael, she was a missionary in India: she truly spoke the word of God and lived by her word in enough ways. But we have neglected our home country for too long. There is a time and place for traveling and God has certainly set my sight on rebuilding locally.
History repeats itself. Our purpose remains steadfast but the way in which we accomplish our purpose changes with the ebbs and flows of this very moment we live.
It is estimated 2.3 billion Christians live on this earth: how many actually believe? I would love to hear your thoughts.
Roosh in your Toyota 4Runner video you’re balding in the crown. Ba ha ha ha. You live with your mom at 41, you are buying beater SUVS from 20 years ago because your funds are limited and with no career prospects.
You want a virgin yet you’ve banged dozens of STD ridden sluts.
Life is certainly giving you what you deserve.
Thank you for purging yourself from the gene pool, you hirsute neanderthal.
stop hating. Roosh has seen andexperienced more and done more for many more than you ever will. ….and he is barely at midlife.
Unable to buy a new car, broke, living with mom 41,balding, and no career prospects yeah ok. His fifteen minutes of fame are over.
If Daryush is such a loser, why trash him? Why do you need to kick “the lying down man”? What’s wrong with you?
To be honest, for a any man the biggest success is to convert before he dies.
B/c he’s a narcissistic hypocrite of the highest order. Pretending to do a 180 at the moment he was slammed by the internet mobs that precipitated in the police coming to his door.
Roosh took advantage of many women for pump and dumps – and now he wants a traditional woman which he cannot find especially now that he’s older, balding, broke, and living with his mom at 41.
If you don’t see that Roosh is now a loser of the nth degree, then you’re low class trash too.
There will always be low confident losers that follow their leaders b/c they have no spine of their own. In a couple of years, Roosh will be no more.
> Why do you need to kick “the lying down man”?
B/c he was and is no different from the ones he criticized vociferously.
White women f-u-c-k dogs and cry r-a-p-e charges on men. Death to the J-e-w and the white woman.
I kinda suspect there is truth to this, but I think Roosh is an interesting, talented writer.
All he did was make a few bucks from omega incels to pump and dump poor girls from poor countries. He sure did a lot. At least life is giving him a good punishment. If Roosh really feels he’s a saint and not trying to rebrand he can donate all his ill earned income to charity.
Low value men like yourself simply are not fit to breed.
do u think that is an easy thing to do ? making a few bucks from omega incels and get them to the pump and dump stage with por girls from poor countries ?
what exactly is his punishment ? aging ? balding ? living with his mother ? …….um….ok……not fit to breed ? …um..sure thing …hitler
Hey, be nice
Balding? So what? He is bringing goodness, real goodness to us.
Nah you’re just omega tier trash
…and you never know.. My husband was like Roosh. When we married he was 40 and I was 22. 27 years later we have two grown up kids.
Must have been ugly and:or fat to for a guy 18 years older
Why are you so invested in the life of the person you seem to hate? A healthy person never follows people whom he deems to be of lesser character.
Who are you? Some loser that is taking advice from a broke pick up “artist.” Your lack of confidence is that low.
And I’m simply amused by this charlatan rebranding himself as a Christian go distance himself from the online mob.
You are fools.
You’re about as far from amused as it gets. You’re spending your time on the blog of a person you admittedly hate, airing out your internal unhappiness for all to see.
Literally nobody gives a shit what you think about Roosh. Literally not a single person. Every post you make looks more and more pitiful and obsessed.
He’s getting older? Yeah, no kidding, Einstein. He wants a Virgin? Doubt it, but he would probably like a virtuous woman. I think he’d even be fine with celibacy too at this point though.
Your genius contribution here is that he’s faking his conversion for money? Yep, you’re a real Einstein, that’s why he stopped selling all his books.
He’s like many of us: we are or were deceived by the world, enslaved to our lusts, going down the wrong path. We all have wasted years and time we’ll never get back. But better late than never. His story is an inspirational one. He sacrificed his economic future by deleting his books. He may be poor, but he has different priorities now. That’s what you don’t get. Balding, poor, none of it matters. When we walk in righteousness, there is a peace that fills the heart.
You’re wasting your time here. None of the things you list are important. We’ll all grow older and uglier. Many of us will make mistakes that cost us years, maybe decades. Some of us will never change our ways or see the light. But the father of the prodigal son says to his elder brother to rejoice, because “he was dead, and is alive again. He was lost, but is now found.”
May we all be found again and may we all be alive once more. Roosh, pray for the rest of us. As for you, you speak the words of Satan. Get thee hence.
Amen, Andrew, and well said. We need more folks out there with your resolve and insight.
White femonism form alliances with white nationalism as in your comment you fat white femonzi whore.
White women are cancer.
Dude, that is so rude. Calm down and leave the guy alone. People will suck the life out of someone for trying to be a better person? Why? He is clearly wanting to make changes and its hard. Why not actually say something nice?
Balding? He has the strong Armenian hair genes, he has fabulous hair. What are you talking about.
I don’t get it, aren’t people allowed to change and improve? He has said many times he is not proud of his past and is embarrassed at the waste of time.
This is essentially a criticism from the world. Appeals to materialism, vanity, greed, etc… why on earth would you think any of these insults would stick?
It’s about 100 times sadder that you’ve watched so much of Roosh to know he’s balding and a billion times sadder that you’re here thinking he cares. Look at your life and how empty it is.
Roosh. no needs to go to these extremes. There is always a middle ground…a golden mean.
You could have and can easily go back to Poland and marry a nice Christian polish woman and start a business or continue the one you have…..
it’s not an either/or ..all or nothing thing all the time.
He can’t get a decent job bc he has no meaningful skills.
He can be pastry chef in Poland.
It will be the hairiest pastry in Europe
Hey look, it’s Roosh’s stalker with the career advice nobody asked for! What are the odds this person is single?
he can write
he can do basic programming
he can market
he can proselytize
he knows game i.e. persuasion.
he has plenty of marketable skill to apply to any area he chooses.
He can wipe his ass (hopefully)