It’s tempting to think that you can start over at any moment, just pack up your bags and head to new places, but like a shadow, your past will follow you. Wherever you go and whatever you do, your memories, experiences, and mistakes will never be far behind.

The lives of my parents shaped me as a child, which shaped the teenager I became, which installed the itches I had to scratch as a young adult, which propelled me to notoriety as a grown man, which pushed me to soft exile in a place I myself won’t confirm. In the moment it takes a woman I meet to search for my name on the internet, the entire distillation of my life is presented to her eyes in computerized form. In the seconds it takes a man to connect my face to a name he’s heard before, he sees a frustrated 19-year-old guy who was stuck being friends with girls and nothing more. In the hours it takes a journalist to write a hit piece on me, images flash of a little boy playing by himself, discovering new patterns.

Everything that happens in this moment is anchored to everything that happened before it, and this I can’t escape. A random whim or flight of fancy I once tickled is still with me today, its unexpected repercussions I will never shake. A spontaneous flash of creativity in the past firmly shackles me in the present.

I wonder what it would be like to hit the reset button and start with a new identity, a fantasy that can only come from the mind of a man who wishes to reverse his fame and go back to being a nobody, but this heavy anchor I must lug around with me, even to a tiny village where it would just take a month or two until a local recognizes me. The gossip and the looks and the paranoia follow. You either die a hero, or live long enough to see yourself become a meme, one that always stays with you.

When I’m sitting in public, I don’t put my back to the door. I scan every face. By now I can tell when someone knows me, when they’re talking about me, when they’re brave enough to take a picture on the sly. I have a speech ready for when she finds out, and I watch her face carefully as she decides to take it or leave it. I don’t invest time making friends with normal people because they won’t be able to handle what I’ve said in the past. Choosing to be alone more than not stops a lot of surprises, but I’m still ready for a loud knock at the door. If I must go to a new land tomorrow, and leave everything behind, including the little plants that I water every week, so be it. 

What have I done?

This anchor weighs on me heavily. I’m squeezed in tight, my body cramps. Why write a new book when it will be burned? Why open a new internet site that will be shut down? Why do a lecture when the hotel will cancel at the last minute? Why open a cute hipster cafe in old age when protesters will show up in front? I wait for something to change, but I know that nothing will. People have their own anchors to deal with than worry about mine.

One day I will burst. I can feel it coming. In a moment of beautiful rage, I will use all my strength and pick up my anchor and lift it over my head and throw it at whatever or whomever I want to destroy. My target will perish, I have no doubt, but attached to my leg is a shackle and chain. I will fly through through the air and be destroyed myself. Everything that happened to me, and everything that happened to my parents, their ancestors, Adam, the first atom, and the whole of the universe will blaze before my eyes. My anchor will explode into 10,000 pieces as my consciousness returns to the source. Finally, I can stretch.

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  1. Arthur Konrad September 25, 2017 at 10:38 am

    Those who abide in the forest,
    Peaceful, living the holy life;
    Those who eat but a single meal;
    – Why is their face so calm ?

    They do not grieve over the past,
    Nor do they yearn for the future;
    They live only in the present
    – That is why their face is so calm

    It’s from yearning for the future,
    And from grieving over the past;
    This is how fools become withered,
    – Like a fresh reed that’s been hacked down

    1. Todd September 25, 2017 at 11:44 am

      This philosophy can/will only take you so far in certain circumstances. What if you became physically crippled from a drunk driving accident at your own fault, and killed someone in the process? How about suffered war injuries that leave you permanently disabled, or even commit a crime you regret and “learned” from yet are in prison for life?

      Any past accident/mistake where you cannot live a “normal” life going forward, physically and mentally, cannot be cured by simply ignoring the past and blocking out future thoughts. When you cannot move forward as a normal person could due to previous errors, you have an anchor as Roosh has indicated. Many anchors that one complains about are simply mental limitations and can be cured by this philosophy, but not all.

      So while having an anchored past will certainly wither one’s appearance, it is not only fools, but those that are literally chained. I have my own anchor like Roosh, and living in the present can never solve it, and I am not sure if it ever can.

      One of your best posts yet Roosh, at times it sounded like you were describing me and I’m sure others will feel the same.

      1. Evan M September 25, 2017 at 12:06 pm

        There are people in all the circumstances you described who are able to accept their position, let go of regret and fear of death, have gratitude for the life they have lived, and be at peace. I have known some of them. And there are also people who have an objectively easy life, yet are full of dread, depression, anxiety and misery.

        It all depends on your level of spiritual development and strength of mind. Even now, it is not these situations themselves which assail you, but your thoughts about them, your fears. Whatever horrible circumstance you can imagine, I can assure you there have been people in that circumstance who faced it with courage and achieved a tranquility greater than what you or I possess in our lives now.

        For those who have not practiced it, it may seem mere philosophy. But since the dawn of man there have been sages who, usually after great efforts, were able to apply this knowledge as a shield against the miseries of life, which truly do arise in the mind. That is why all the great spiritual traditions speak of wisdom, jnana, serenity, liberation, enlightenment, self-realisation, etc. It is the highest human attainment. For most it only comes after arduous and earnest application, but when it does come, it is even more real than the external circumstances you describe.

        Though I´m sure these words mean little – it will only be understood if you encounter it in your own experience.

      2. Todd September 25, 2017 at 1:50 pm

        Good points, and the words have great meaning. I’ve encountered some of these and the main difficulties for me are the contradictions. For the most part I am at peace with reality and the anchor from my past. I am without a doubt stronger than ever spiritually and mentally, and have no fear of death whatsoever. But after mastering these points, further problems arise. If I knew what I know 10 years ago, I would have structured my life to thrive and survive, at least I imagine. Two other problems are ego and isolation, where I still believe I am capable of accomplishing x amount of things and feel it is my purpose to do so, and am consequently disappointed when reality sets in and doing absolutely nothing is a more likely outcome due to the circumstances.

        Like many that read this blog, I consider myself unique and abnormal, but not in a negative way. Despite usually disliking things that appeal to the LCD’s, there is something to be said with “fitting in” and being a normal member of the group. Something as simple as having a family, and living amongst a community of like-minded individuals centered around family, work, virtue, and purpose. I’m sure some can and are achieving this state, but for me it will be next to impossible.

        Staying busy and connecting with as many people as possible has kept me going, but a strong-willed man can only take so many surrogate activities in life to take place of what is really important. Especially when as time goes on, you are disappointed with how you are perceived, and simultaneously how you are not where you want to be and have no control in making the situation better. This is where it gets very tricky, and I’m hoping there is some light at the end of this tunnel spiritually for all who are on this path shackled with chains and carrying an enormous anchor with them.

      3. John Sharma October 2, 2017 at 11:51 pm

        I disagree. What stands out about every enlightened spiritual master is they had the benefit of a loving childhood and no responsibility for anyone else. Jesus wasnt an abused child or crucified in family court affecting not only himself but his children for a matter of decades not days. Same can be said for krishnamurti, sidharta gautama, yogananda, vivekenanda and all the others known and not so well known.

    2. colin r October 2, 2017 at 2:04 pm

      No attribution?

      It’s from the Dhammapada, I think. Arthur can tell you which verse.

      1. Arthur Konrad October 6, 2017 at 8:45 am

        Connected Discourses of The Buddha 1:10

    1. TravelNomad September 25, 2017 at 11:42 am

      You are so annoying

    2. Seth Falconer October 6, 2017 at 5:47 pm

      Stupid lady, we voted for that cover. Why don’t you go make some brownies and serve a good man?

  2. Mark Sweeter September 25, 2017 at 11:44 am

    These are words written by someone who is not connecting with others. At least, not enough anyway. I also work long hours and usually in relative isolation. I actually do well and work well in that manner. But you STILL have to connect to people. We’re not designed for complete isolation.

    Reading this article reminds me of some things Jordan Peterson was saying about the dangers of overwhelm, which can lead to Nihilism. It’s not a good place to be!

    You need to connect with people. Honestly Roosh… you are at your best my friend when you are engaging men that follow you and who are interested in what you have to say. For a while there, you got a bit more engaged on Twitter, and you even had some pretty good podcasts. I get that Twitter can become consuming.. but I’ve seen how much more animated you are when you are engaging.

    I also completely turned off FB. It felt pretty good. But I also had some guys ask me why I don’t post things. And now I am wondering if its just a cop out on my part to withdraw from sharing ideas and posting. I am still not sure about it.

    Can I make a suggestion though? Re-engage a bit. Do a podcast. Talk. It does work. If you can it all up.. there’s nowhere for the energy (even negative) to go but inward. And trust me.. LOT of guys ARE interested in what you have to say, having a dialog, and following. Creating content DOES help. It’s not a waste.

    1. Roosh September 25, 2017 at 2:26 pm

      “Engaging” and “connecting” is exactly what led to my predicament.

      1. Mark Sweeter September 25, 2017 at 5:46 pm

        Is it really a “predicament” though? It just “is”. Predicament implies there’s no solution or that there even needs to be a solution.

        You mentioned that you meet a girl and then you feel the need to come up with a speech or explanation about who you are or what you’re about. That tells me that the true crux of this “predicament” is you’d like to meet a decent woman and possibly settle down with her – but you feel encumbered by the fact that the minute she looks into your history she’s going to run away.

        Is that really a rational fear to have man? Or did this happen once (or recently) and you’re letting it get the better of you? Women are not that hard to sway into your corner.

        Anecdotal example… I met this girl once and I really liked her. She had all the qualities I desire (and require) in a potential mate. Some dude learned I was pursuing her and proceeded to get some people he knows to start sending her messages on FB – warning her I was some kind of player. The douche even posted photos from a private FB group where I had made some comments about some chick I was banging, and even pictures of her. This didn’t go over well with the chick I was dating. But it was a simple explanation. “Hey.. this was before I knew you. I was free to bang any chick I wanted. I didn’t wrong that girl in any way, and I didn’t lie to you or cheat on you. So this entire thing consists of one thing.. a jealous piece of shit who was trying to cock block me. So the topic is dropped.”

        And that was the end of it. She accepted it, and things were fine. Unless you personally fucked over the girl, most of them will accept your explanations. And if they don’t, then you’re already potentially getting yourself involved with a woman who is going to be a pain the ass anyway.

        To quote you.. and it is one of my favorite things you ever said…

        “Take over whatever you can, and tell people what to do. Tell the girl what you want her to do”.

        So this doesn’t sound like you right now. You’re a writer for God’s sake! You posses the skilled art of persuasion and the ability to articulate. Use it bro!!!

      2. Todd September 25, 2017 at 10:11 pm

        Due to how connected everything is on the internet now, most girls in metropolitan western countries either know Roosh or find out soon due to friends, acquaintances, etc. Out of that bunch, at least half will likely hate him for what the media’s characterization is, not based on truth at all. Most of the other half will be indifferent/sympathetic at first, but apprehensive down the road if things get serious.

        Let’s say Roosh wants to settle down and have a family (not sure if true or not). It isn’t as simple as finding a girl that is marriageable. Her family has to approve, which is going to be difficult due to all of the negative propaganda against him. Even if he did get married and have children, they will always be the outsiders as people love to gossip and Roosh will be the infamous guy with internet fame. Also his kids would find out who he is via the internet, and others at some point will bring it up in school. Petty, yes, but just the way things are and would be annoying at the least, and potentially relationship-destroying at the worst.

        Truth be told, Roosh has positively affected tens of thousands of men’s lives due to his work and the internet, but there was a cost to this medium. Your average joe is conflict averse, and people will ostracize to save their hide, even if they like what that individual is doing. I saw somewhere else recommending changing his name and starting over, but how appealing is that? Having no family/friends, and having to lie about your past just to fit in somewhere? Building a story on a house of sand will lead to collapse. Some might be able to do it for awhile, but very difficult for a man of virtue to pull off.

        Now Roosh is a smart man and he will figure things out one way or another, but the complete inability to live a normal, quiet life amongst even a small tribe, much less a city, is certainly what I would call a “predicament.”

      3. Mark Sweeter September 26, 2017 at 1:13 am

        I guess I’m a little confused. I say exactly what I think to my wife. I don’t hold back at all. I’ve even told her straight up that I don’t think women should be voting. Whether you’re famous or not shouldn’t matter.. Because a true alpha will tell it like it is anyway. You think you’re going to be able to hide your true nature throughout the remainder of your life? And just in the hopes that girls will like you? That is the complete opposite of game or the tactics of neomasculinity.

        I’m sorry. But this is just way too much woe is me to be considered masculine. A man finds his way. He gets his way. He takes what he wants. There’s no need for explanations or excuses.

      4. Todd September 26, 2017 at 12:26 pm

        Agree that excuses and explanations are useless, but saying controversial things to your wife and broadcasting it to the world are not on the same wavelength. How many people can you think of that are as publicly demonized by the media as Roosh was between the lectures/meetups? Maybe Andrew Anglin, David Duke, Richard Spencer, etc but they seemingly embrace the role as public enemy No. 1.

        Once you speak your mind publicly on controversial issues, especially when it is against the government’s interests, there is no going back. If it was so simple and unnecessary to do so, then all of us would not being commenting anonymously. I’m sure many corporations would love for you to tell their fellow female employees that all should not have the right to vote.

      5. Mark Sweeter September 26, 2017 at 1:13 pm

        Again.. these are just excuses. I’m not saying that putting yourself out there does not attract haters and bad press/media. But I never hear Rush L. complain that “oh no… I can’t do anything because people know who I am”. He embraces his notoriety and realizes that although there will be haters, there are also MILLIONS who think otherwise. If there are not, then your movement maybe needs to be called into question. Why so few followers? Why does hardly ANYONE agree with you out in the world?

        Of course, that is NOT the case with Roosh. He has TONS of support and people who read his books, read his articles, and totally agree. So fine.. hang out with those you agree with. That INCLUDES the women you consider being with. If a girl is offended by Roosh, then she’s not for him (maybe a bang). But she’s not good wifey material if she subscribes to modern feminism or pop culture degeneracy. So there’s nothing lost in all this. Just awareness of who these people are and then be happy it’s easier to discern who is worth your time.

        When I say that shit about women voting right in the presence of my wife, it is a test. I want to see how much she might disagree or fight back. If I present evidence and a position, I want to see how much she will try to challenge me. Mere disagreement does not mean I will dismiss that girl, but if she locks horns with me over it… pass!!!

      6. Evan M September 26, 2017 at 9:48 pm

        Mark all this stuff is easy for you to say from your position of anonymity, but if you had dozens of mainstream articles attached to your name saying you were a rapist, do you really think it would be so easy to just brush away? The truth is you have no idea of what it is like to experience that level of fame and pressure. It´s like me looking at some veteran with PTSD and saying ¨Why doesn´t he just let it go? If I was hit with an IED, I´d just stay cool and wouldn´t let it get to me!¨ Easy to say those words, but coming from someone who hasn´t even experienced 1/100th of it, it doesn´t mean much. Roosh has actually lived it. If you become a demonised public figure, have coordinated hate campaigns launched against you, have to hire security to even show your face in public, and manage to laugh it all off without breaking a sweat, then I might listen to you. Otherwise, you´re just deluding yourself.

      7. Mark Sweeter September 27, 2017 at 2:35 am

        You’re right. It’s always more masculine to play victim after you’ve made the choice to publicly articulate your positions and opinions. Got it…

      8. Evan M September 27, 2017 at 2:21 pm

        It´d be more masculine if you actually faced the pressure in real life, held your ground and lead us all by example. The only place you have ever withstood the kind of pressure Roosh has is in your own imagination. Instead of trying to teach something you have zero experience in, you should be quiet and listen to the people who actually had the balls to do it.

      9. Mark Sweeter September 27, 2017 at 3:22 pm

        Did Roosh actually ask you to white knight on his behalf? Or you’re just doing it on your own? I seriously doubt he would have requested that sort of thing.

      10. Evan M September 27, 2017 at 9:20 pm

        You should let go of your envy of Roosh and focus on doing something with your own life which will soothe your insecurity.

      11. Anti-Gnostic September 28, 2017 at 6:17 pm

        “A man finds his way. He gets his way. He takes what he wants. There’s no need for explanations or excuses.”

        Finds his way, yes. Gets his way and takes what he wants? Only if you want to be punched in the mouth, arrested, or sued.

        “Mere disagreement does not mean I will dismiss that girl, but if she locks horns with me over it… pass!!!”

        Because it’s about you perpetually maintaining total control of a situation, which is other than healthy.

        “He embraces his notoriety and realizes that although there will be haters, there are also MILLIONS who think otherwise.”

        So, why not direct everyone here to who you truly are. Shed your fake name and provide everyone your real identity. Have your wife even verify how you “tell it how it is” to her. I mean, if you are the true alpha, there is no need to be anonymous. Reveal yourself!

        “But she’s not good wifey material if she subscribes to modern feminism or pop culture degeneracy.”

        That is YOUR preference. For tens of millions of men, they believe differently, which does not mean they are cucks or gammas or any other derogatory term you find “appropriate”.

      12. Petruccio September 28, 2017 at 9:23 pm

        How about you shed your anonymity Anti-Gnostic? I haven’t forgotten the piece of shit you are. Quite brave to act like a SJW troll. Throw insults like ‘cucks’ and ‘gammas’ and yet you are a Potemkin man. You should offer constructive criticism that BUILDS a man, instead of supporting the forces that undermine good men.

      13. Anti-Gnostic September 29, 2017 at 11:47 am

        “How about you shed your anonymity Anti-Gnostic? I haven’t forgotten the piece of shit you are.”

        So where is that constructive criticism that builds a man you so proudly touted?

        “Quite brave to act like a SJW troll. Throw insults like ‘cucks’ and ‘gammas’ …”

        So, you are playing the victim card here. Do you need some Kleenex?

        “yet you are a Potemkin man…”

        Yes, I am a Potemkin man.

      14. Petruccio October 2, 2017 at 8:28 pm

        My apologies to you. I meant Potemkin Village of a man, nothing behind the façade.

      15. Mark Sweeter September 29, 2017 at 7:54 am

        Ahhh yes… the obligatory “you’re controlling” response. As if human being do not and should not attempt to control outcomes in their favor. That’s hilarious…

      16. Anti-Gnostic September 29, 2017 at 11:42 am

        It is HOW you go about controlling the situation, and not trying to have things go in one’s favor. Big difference.

        Would you like to know more, citizen?

      17. Anti-Gnostic September 26, 2017 at 10:42 am

        There isn’t any “negative propaganda” on Roosh, just the facts that he wrote advice books on how to bang women. Yes, he talked about the nature of females, but the overall goal was to pump them and dump them. That is the observable truth.

      18. Anti-Gnostic September 28, 2017 at 6:08 pm

        “Yes this isn’t negative propaganda at all…”

        Exactly. It’s called hate facts. One reaps what they sow.

      19. Dirk Diggler October 2, 2017 at 2:43 pm

        Her family has to approve? Are you Amish or are you writing this from the year 1850?

      20. MCGOO September 27, 2017 at 9:58 pm

        Women run towards bad boys, not away. But aside, that story you told about the girl you liked and the mangina dude who wanted her – that sounds like a male version of the cock blocking that hen mothers use to control and even out the beta orbiters who claim their ‘sistas’. In addition, what the hell would any man other than a pussy pandering beta want with some other dude’s used and ridden woman – or wife for that matter? I’d like to kick these idiots in the nuts who fall in love with someone else’s damn wife. How stupid can someone be? All that wife grovellers and gf hounds do is cause problems for the guys and temptation for the ding bats.

        Welfare whore den mothers will also plot against any males who they see controlling their females in their community or ‘project’ dump housing complexes. The rabid feminist man haters in subsidized housing will go after any patriarchal family that lives there too, stabbing the man if they can get their hooks into the woman and manipulate her. The radfem nazis that work for socialist services as women’s advocates are pros at forcing a woman’s hand against her man and dismembering and dissolving a family unit. That’s what they get paid to do. They are the worst of the bunch and will go the way of the witches during colonial times.

        ‘Witches’ of olde weren’t exclusively ‘wiccan’ per se, but they operated the same as modern day feminist women’s advocates. The ‘witches’ were sometimes rootless vagabond women and sometimes local gold digger whores that seduced married men and boys. They would also go from village to village and encourage women to become malcontent with married life, trying to persuade them to abandon their nests. Oooooh boy did that rub against the grain of the Dutch pilgrim settlers. “BURN THEM ALL” they cried. I don’t blame them.

        Regardless of the time period, harlots and witches and modern feminist women’s advocates are basically of the same cloth, and their actions accomplish the same – destruction of the community and culture. In the middle ages, there were no women’s studies and the jewish predecessors of Steinem, Abzug and Friedan had never tasted secularism and still clung to their conservative Hassidic restrictions.

        How then did ‘women’s advocate’ witches who effectively proselytized feminism (until they were burned) concieve of such doings? Well, they didn’t concieve what they did as much as it was a spiritual inclination. A DEMONIC WITCH BITCH spirit of scorn and wrath has existed from the beginning of time. Women have always been vulnerable to it. Men – the patriarchs – continually must beat back and bitch slap the hellacious bitch spirit down. When the spirit of patriarchy prevails, there is fidelity and bounty for all man and clan.

      21. Dirk Diggler October 2, 2017 at 2:49 pm

        Mark is right. What have you done that is so bad? People serve sentences for rape or murder, get released, and move on with their lives. Others actually work in porn and become quasi-celebrities, or they get out and live normal lives.

        You didn’t commit any crimes. All you did is write books about fucking a lot of women and teaching other guys how to do the same.

        If it’s that big of a deal, change your name to something basic, change your look to something conformist, and move to where a lot of people have your general skin color and look. You aren’t hispanic, but you could blend in with them pretty well. Plus, you already speak spanish. This defeatist, pity party is not like you and it solves nothing. For fuck’s sake, man up and get a grip on yourself.

      22. MCGOO September 27, 2017 at 2:13 pm

        WITCHES are stirring shit Roosh. ENERGY MANIPULATORS who are vile with the wrathful witch-bitch spirit from hell must have obtained an article of your clothing or hair in one of your encounters. They huddle in the dark drinking the sorrow of their own wasted eggs and drinking the blood of their own. And they use personal items or effects in a form of voodoo. They are posessed by the same spirit from the bowels of hell that animates Soros, the cabal and the transhumanists.

        THIS Washington Times article from 2016 by Jessica Chasmar contains boastful bragging how a particular Chicago group called FURIE (Feminist Uprising to Resist Inequality and Exploitation) will attempt to summon witch bitch energies to hurl against you and all men attending the meetup.

        At the end of the article, it states: “we’re witches and they’re gonna get hexed as [expletive]” These nasty witchwomen work in government, schools, churches, some are cougars and others are counterculture scrappers. They all have blood on their breath from using the bitch system to make their worldly gains and enough of them ride the heels of the jewbitch facilitated divorce rape system. Every beta that’s been chewed up by a false accusation or stripped of patriarchal authority in the jewfem divorce bitchcourts has had a taste of these real life culprit witches at work. They will be stopped. The supreme patriarchy thunders on the horizon. MAN is king. MAN returns to the throne. (Worldwide, matriarchal de-culturing is not all jewfem. Aboriginal matriarchal ‘cultures’ if you could call them cultures even, live without a jew on the island but they still practice the same bitch voodoo as the covens of witchbitches in western establishment. And the aboriginal cunt-worshippers live in stick huts because they killed the Architect – they killed in their sleep the men who divine the most supreme of all masculine creative energy – the BUILDER/ARCHITECT – and thus they spend eternity living like stinking animals in dirt mounds and drinking their own blood). Don’t let the witch bitch energy live and infect other females western man – never. HAIL THE PATRIARCHY!!

        Matriarchal cultures all have this common insideous thread running throughout with their women. They all oppose patriarchy with a passion and they burn and eat babies for fun. They’re also the wrathful gold diggers who put on a face of a compassionate wife until she divorce rapes. She was never loyal. THEY WILL be smashed and many patriarchs have under their wing the virtuous and loyal females who reject and betray the ‘bitch force’ that consumes the lost female pieces of shit from hell – THE WITCH BITCHES. Good loyal women betray the great bitch force always and it isnn’t so great after all. HAIL THE PATRIARCHY!!

        Again they’re nothing but CUNTS who attempt to manipulate energy. The ultimate culture vandals if left unchecked. Patriarchy always beats these fembitch femwitch sumboogers. . . eer ‘sumbitches’. Patriarchy beats them like rock-paper-scissors.


      23. Amalene Creggy September 27, 2017 at 10:26 pm

        May I suggest that your ego/pride is the weight of your problems. Also, sounds like you could do with some sound sleep.

    2. Tali September 25, 2017 at 5:32 pm

      It sounds like you’re asking him to perform more… Performing is different from connecting, and most of what people do when they have a large audience does not involve a meaningful human connection (despite what Facebook would like us to think…).

      1. Mark Sweeter September 25, 2017 at 5:52 pm

        Yeah, I was kind of referring more to perhaps a combo of doing content, but also something like the live call-in stream a few weeks back. That seemed to go well, and I thought Roosh seemed to enjoy it. I did. Some of it was pretty funny.

        And that is the thing that men NEED to be doing. It’s not enough to just post memes and mock.

      2. Tali September 25, 2017 at 6:21 pm

        Performing can be enjoyable – I’m sure it gives a great high, especially if you get positive feedback. But performers often have big lows, in their “regular lives”, exactly because it can be harder for them to connect with people.

        As to whether or not this is what men NEED to be doing – that’s an interesting point, you might be right about that, at least at a certain point in life. I’ll have to think about this one. I like to think that one can get past that once they had their fill, but I really don’t know.

        I do think that focusing on fewer, meaningful connections (in person!) is better for the human psyche, especially if these people appreciate you without you needing to perform for them. This can be hard to find though, which makes things harder for everybody…

        And it’s not a cop out on your part if you keep your ideas to yourself, BTW. Maybe write them down for yourself, when they come to you, and share them with the few people who are most interested in what you have in mind, and that you’d actually like to get their feedback on whatever it is. That’s what I’d consider “connecting”, and it would probably feel different from posting these things on Facebook.

    3. Eric September 26, 2017 at 2:21 pm

      I miss Roosh’s podcasts. Some real wisdom there.

      1. Mark Sweeter September 26, 2017 at 3:11 pm


  3. Evan M September 25, 2017 at 11:44 am

    Great article Roosh! It´s interesting, many in the pickup community quickly tire of strategizing to get pussy and leverage their notoriety to indulge in deeper topics – RSD with their inner game/Eckhart Tolle/ New-Age-West-Coast-Hipster-spirituality, Roissy with his culture/race war polemics, Rollo with his academic maculinist social theory… I enjoy aspects of all of them, and find other parts ridiculous, but I think Roosh´s existentialist musings are the most sincere and well done of the bunch. If Roosh compiled them all into a poignant philosophical work, I think it would outshine all his previous material, and even his cultural enemies may find themselves with a begrudging appreciation for it.

  4. Davis M.J. Aurini September 25, 2017 at 12:59 pm

    We’re all there, brother. The manosphere did so much good – and now it’s been subverted by forces who want to self-destruct, and bring us down with them in the process.

    I’m thinking, thinking, thinking about all of this – trying to see the path – but I feel like I’m stranded in Murkwood.

    1. Anti-Gnostic September 28, 2017 at 6:04 pm

      The manosphere is the bane of Christian masculinity.

  5. Peter September 25, 2017 at 1:01 pm

    You alright there, bud?

  6. Introvert Sigma September 25, 2017 at 1:20 pm

    Do you have any friends you can hang out with that aren’t connected with this whole manosphere thing?

  7. pinetree September 25, 2017 at 3:53 pm

    So glad you wrote this as I often feel the same. Things ARE changing but slowly. It is our fate to be here. Have to stick it out. What about those young boys sent off to war –ww1 and ww2. We never had it that bad luckily.

    1. John Sharma October 3, 2017 at 12:39 am

      I think things are changing fast now, not slowly. Critical mass is being reached. Red pill knowledge is becoming mainstream.

      I have waited 20 years for society at large to wake up to what i saw back then in about 1996, where fully aligning with feminism was going.

      Roosh can simply say hes trying to be humble in not talking about his fame as an author and blogger. In poor villages where his dollars are welcome, people are motivated to take his side regardless. The positive in this is it’s screening value. I an hard on women to test their loyalty, this infamy does that job even better.

      Pretty much all women switch between “i dont care what anyone says, i know who u really are” and using the same things to justify lowering your worth and authority if other bitches and bitchy men gossip to her for their own self interested influence or jealousy. Deal.

  8. Scotcho Rouleau September 25, 2017 at 5:26 pm

    sounds like you regret the last decade of fully disclosing your personality to the public, because now you own it. That has to suck. I don’t know what you should do.

  9. arménio pereira September 25, 2017 at 8:33 pm

    Dear Sir,

    Being opinions what they are, I sense that saying to you that your writings are between the things making the web and the collapsing society a somehow more palatable experience will not take you away from your somber leanings.
    Accidentally, the browser window where I read the present post also includes the link to Less Knowledge Is More: have you reread it?
    I really don’t know if it is possible to unlearn, or if unlearning is even a thing – if it is, surely it won’t be easy. Whatever happens, please know that you were able to surpass the rational barriers that enslave so many of us and reached that place that I hold most dear, my compassion. You have a place in my prayers. (As mostly devoid of meaning and filled with barren controversy as these words are nowadays) God bless.

  10. Lynn September 25, 2017 at 9:15 pm

    Why haven’t you legally changed your name?
    Do you have to come back to America to do that?

    Aside from messing with your identity on a mental level, it seems like the obvious solution. You have been dealing with this for years now, does keeping your birth name cause so much joy that it outweighs your paranoia and loneliness?

  11. Maximus Decimus Meridius September 25, 2017 at 10:38 pm

    Good read Roosh. I have been thinking along the same lines. I have a small following now on Twitter and my blog, but I ask myself every day, with you as a lesson… is this what I want?

    I have a book I think might sell gangbusters (don’t we all?). Perhaps even enough to allow me to retire. (Allow me my fantasy.)

    But that would also mean coming out… using my real name. And the content… a complete history and logical argument for the choice of patriarchy and the logical political/cultural consequences from accepting this truth…

    I rarely post my own work on your blog… but I think this is a good time, if I may.

    Grow Up Or Shut Up: How Red Pill Philosophy Is Killing The West

    I was told by one commentor that it was a slap in the face. This is not meant for you… I wrote the piece (as I do almost all of my writing) first and foremost for myself.

    The realization I have come to recently is… there is nowhere to run. Even if Roosh could throw away the anchor, hit reset, and start all over… we, as men, are still living in this… shit. Being anonymous or famous in shit… is still living in shit.

    Something has to break… and this post is I think another in many posts by leading edge authors like Roosh in the sphere to begin to articulate what I am as well on my blog.

    Enough is enough.

    Blogging… social media… all of it.

    Nothing is going to change… until we change the system.

    The only way we are going to change the system… is to bring back a patriarchy. That means getting into politics. Yes, even as corrupt and one-sided as it is now, it is the system we have and if we don’t start working it, (((they))) are coming for us all.

    Maximus… A political party? One that is outright advocating for patriarchy? You’re crazy.

    Hey… they already think we are all crazy… and nazi’s and hitlers, and deplorables, and dickless, sexless losers living in our Mom’s basement… fill in your favourite.

    I see Roosh as the classic Greek hero/tragedy. Achilles was told by his mother he could make a choice. To marry, father a family and live the rest of his life in complete anonymity, no one knowing his name once he was dead. Or… he could go to Troy, fight in the Trojan war, and become a name remebered throughout all the ages.

    Aim high Roosh. Or simply decide shut it all down.

    Despite the fame and notoriety you have now, shutting down ROK, your blog here, your twitter feed and youtube channel… you might be surprised at how fast you can go back to being a nobody. After all… it is the internet, not real life, and the internet has the attention span of a 3 year old. Yes… there is shit out there you can’t delete or control, but really… who is going to care if you completely change your life and leave it all behind? When someone asks or challenges you… laugh! Own it… own all of it… with a smile and simply… move on. There are countries out there to disappear in. Asia specifically I am thinking about. Life is what you make it. If you want to disappear Roosh… you can and you will. But you have to make the choice.

    And maybe that is what this post is all about. Your open questioning not about the past, but about the future. What path should you take Achilles? The door to hero worship and history is open… but do you want to go through it?

    I don’t know my choice or decision if I was in your shoes. And believe me, I have seriously put myself in them in thinking forward, no matter how fantastical, about becoming famous, let alone known, as you are.

    I have no doubt that should I have to make that choice… it will be a Rubicon I cannot cross back.

    But would you really want to? Caesar never looked back because he knew there was no point. The die is cast, let the fates and destiny play out as they will.

    Remember… it’s just a ride Roosh. Enjoy it for all you can and all it is worth. It is not just you Roosh asking these questions. Humanity has a HUGE anchor on it, especially in The West. We all know what that anchor is… we just need to throw it off and be free to live and love again… if we so choose.

  12. Righterous September 25, 2017 at 10:45 pm

    Your past is an excuse. You’re lack of confidence and determination. You are too depressed and I’m raising my anchor from this site. Godspeed.

  13. Andy September 26, 2017 at 3:42 am

    It’s simple – you are a victim of black magic. Do not delete my posts you pussy!

    1. MCGOO September 27, 2017 at 2:32 pm

      You’re right on about that. You nailed it. It is witch bitches. The witch bitches have been going to town because they’ve been disregarded and ignored. The problem is the witch bitches can’t stop. They have no governor. They’re backslidden humans who have fallen into a wild animal state not under patriarchal governance. History shows witches always get hung up high by their toenails and flung like a piňata. Patriarchy takes care of the witches and keeps their malicious misuse of the energy grid in check. Otherwise the land sinks into the sea. Patriarchy is the only grace on this Earth that makes it habitable by the human species.

  14. Stephan B September 26, 2017 at 5:33 am

    Change identity, name, looks(shave beard) and no one will recognize you. Problem solved.

  15. Tom September 26, 2017 at 6:52 am

    Man I regularly wonder what the fuck happened to my life. Now 34, plagued with burning neuropathic pain that I cannot undo. Fuck me. My life seems to have vanished, all my dreams goals and desires. Now what I ask God everyday. Now fucken what?

  16. pauldrake September 26, 2017 at 10:44 am

    “It is a mistake to think that the past is dead. Nothing that has ever happened is quite without influence at this moment. The present is merely the past rolled up and concentrated in this second of time. You, too, are your past; often your face is your autobiography; you are what you are because of what you have been; because of your heredity stretching back into forgotten generations; because of every element of environment that has affected you, every man or woman that has met you, every book that you have read, every experience that you have had; all these are accumulated in your memory, your body, your character, your soul. So with a city, a country, and a race; it is its past, and cannot be understood without it.” That quote is from the great historian and philosopher Will Durant who needs to be read by everybody trying to make sense out of life on this earth.

  17. nach nicholas September 26, 2017 at 2:50 pm

    hang in there rooshinho

  18. Stoic101 September 26, 2017 at 3:34 pm

    Sad read, I don’t know man, been following you for years now and I realize there’s a ton of hate out there and can be directed towards you but there’s two handles to everything…”Everything has two handles, the one by which it may be carried, the other by which it cannot.” Point being that I think you can end up ‘making’ your own problems. You can choose to make things an ‘issue’ for you or not. And I realize others will make things an ‘issue’ for you simply based on the stuff you’ve said. But if it doesn’t feel like a problem for you, than they can’t ‘harm’ you.

    I’ve had similar experiences in my life where I encounter people in the past that I didn’t get along with. If you literally feel agitated it will show in your actions. It’s best to just delete the past and move on man. In your case you can’t ‘delete’ it, its ALL out there for anyone to see. I feel like most everything you say is legit and real man, reading this post makes it seem as if your almost ashamed in a roundabout way. Nothing will happen to you unless you ‘think’ its a ‘problem’ man, Just own it and move on, nothing can harm your integrity. If you want to open a coffee shop, open a coffee shop man. This will sound weird, but you can sort of end up creating your own problems. If you think you’ll end up with protesters at your coffee shop than you probably will, whereas if you just went ahead and did it and didn’t think anything of it than you’d never be the wiser and never have protesters.

    Basically if you’r going to make a ‘self-fulfilling prophecy’ make sure its something that you deem positive and not negative.

    Personally I’d say fuck it man, do what feels right for you. If hate comes your way you’ll still have the same reason and logic to draw on, the same logos.

    “Forget the future. When and if it comes, you’ll have the same resources to draw on-the same logos.”

    Good luck man, and keep it up.

  19. Seneca September 26, 2017 at 4:27 pm

    unfortunately, what was seen as ‘cool’ 10 years, ago, now is sexist, racist, etc, because every moaning bastard is so selfish as believing that there is nothing worse than stupid problems like what someone said about whom. You need an healthy dose of Seneca, check out the letters from a stoic, also called letters to Lucilius. Read them and get the excellent audiobook on audible, I am studying and hearing this every day, it really helps me. And embrace solitude. I do too. In Italy we have a proverb that Schopenhauer would have loved: ‘better alone than in bad company’. The bad company is the majority of people, which on the internet they show their true colours. It’s the worst of society.

    1. Seneca September 26, 2017 at 4:34 pm

      ironically, Seneca had the same problem: his success and fame in the end turned against him. The letters mentioned were written after he realized all this. They are really worth reading. And remember: as bad as it feels, the reality is that for many, it’s worse. These idiots who waste their time bitching about everybody, will realize all this too, soon enough. By then they won’t have the time or energy left to bitch about every stupid meaningless shit anymore.

  20. leogets September 26, 2017 at 5:37 pm

    The past is not an anchor, it’s a springboard. Too many aphorisms here that explain that:

    1. Seneca September 27, 2017 at 4:01 am

      it’s a ‘springboard’ if you are still 20 years old, but when you are almost 40, it’s a completely different game. It’s easy to theorize about stuff.

  21. Janez Koren September 26, 2017 at 7:42 pm

    I think you should visit a psychiatrist

  22. HB September 26, 2017 at 7:50 pm

    Manosphere/redpill/alt-right men often point out that sluttish behaviour in women has consequences, even though this hyperfeminist hell of a society we live in tries to normalise it and glorify it. What Roosh is going through, as other men like him are going through if they lived as out in the open as he did, is the virtually the same: you don’t get to settle down with a decent wife after writing dozens of books on how to bang hot women. You lived that life as an alpha male and enjoyed it, but now that very life you lived will prevent you from making a meaningful connection with women because they know you wouldn’t make for a potential lifelong partner. In other words, you are not beta provider material, which is the type of man most sane women look for to grow old with. You might get extremely lucky and find a unicorn who plays along with it (some male porn performers are married with children) but she probably wouldn’t be attractive enough for your tastes or could be into some weird cuckquean fetish or something.

    “Alpha fucks and beta bucks,” you may say, but who gets the last laugh? All those hot women Roosh banged have moved on and married or will marry a beta provider type. Roosh and those like him will have a very hard time finding a wife to have children and grow old with. That’s the price he is paying and will keep paying for having banged all those hot women. Maybe it’s worth it for some, but reading this post, it certainly appears that Roosh regrets it. After all, we are primates and we evolved into mostly monogamous mating as a way to avoid killing each other’s offspring. It is in many ways one of the foundations of civilisation as we know it.

    But hey: look on your works, ye mighty, and despair. This too shall pass. Your infamy won’t last forever, Roosh. There’s already plenty of famous people who I never heard of before. You could pull down your websites and change your identity. In a few years you’ll find very few will know or remember you, and if they do you could just pretend or show genuine compunction. You might still have a shot at a normal life. Though I’d rather see you keep going down this path and take the experiment to its conclusion, like the scientist you once were.

    1. Girl in the World September 27, 2017 at 10:38 am

      I think most women would rather marry a strong, masculine man with a checkered past than a nice beta any day. Most women will give a “real man” who wants to make a real commitment a lot of leeway – they’re kind of rare. Of course, almost all women want a provider. That’s simple biology.

      1. HB September 28, 2017 at 2:02 pm

        For the record, I don’t mean “beta” as in nice-guy-doormat-who-will-put-up-with-anything-women-do. “Beta males” make up the vast majority of men and most of us don’t put up with drama and bullshit. We don’t have as much sex as “alpha males” mostly because we are not willing to act like scumbags and risk STDs, pregnancies and drama with crazy bitches. We can be every bit as masculine and strong, and some of us are much more “real men” than slimy PUAs and scumbags who walk out on women after getting them pregnant. Real men make hard decisions and put women and children first, not their base appetites and “freedom.”

        Most of those men with a “checkered past” won’t be able to commit. They may say they are and even wish to be, but after having so much experience with women they will soon revert to their ways and put their needs above wife and children. And I’ve seen many women get duped into believing them, ending up single mothers.

      2. Anti-Gnostic September 28, 2017 at 6:01 pm

        Most women who are mentally imbalanced would rather marry a strong, masculine man with a checkered past.

        Almost all women want a provider who is honest and trustworthy.

  23. John September 26, 2017 at 9:50 pm

    Don’t underestimate the tale of your redemption

    1. Seneca September 27, 2017 at 4:12 am

      wtf are you talking about, sophist ? Explain, as your lazy ass, mentally indolent 3 word sentence is not up to code.

  24. Girl in the World September 27, 2017 at 1:15 am

    Roosh, you can do anything you want. You’re smart, handsome, sensitive, and determined. The right friends and lover won’t judge you for your history. They’ll love you for it. Peace begins in the mind. A song for you:

    1. Seneca September 27, 2017 at 4:10 am

      it’s easier for women…..women are less prone to be left to their own devices, unless they are really ugly. For men, it’s a very different story. It’s not bias, I am speaking out of first hand experience and observation.
      I hear women say how ‘it’s harder’, but really it’s the other way around. If you are on your own, things are way harder, and there’s a big difference about being on your own for a week or for years or even your entire life.
      And yes, I have tried it all. All of it. It does not work because we mistakenly believe that all there is to do is for the individual to ‘do something about it’. It’s a lot more complicated, as very little depend on ourselves, and a lot more by chance. But that’s not what most self help bullshitters say, which is what you mentioned about ‘you can do anything you want’. It’s easier said than done. And I don’t blame you for believing this crap, I did so myself.

  25. sassstoo September 27, 2017 at 10:14 am

    that last paragraph confirms to me that you are indeed mentally ill. Good luck.

  26. Darwin September 28, 2017 at 3:47 am

    Have a kid

  27. baphington September 28, 2017 at 6:58 pm

    You know good movies or series. After a while they just suck. Why nobody understands. They started being filled with drama.

    Cut the bullshit. You can legally change your name. If you stop writing in 2-3 years nobody would know you or recognize you.

    The problem is different. The act of banging a girl is physical not emotional. Totally different for when you buy a ring to ask a woman to marry you. This is the thoughest thing you will do. Your heart will start to palpitate.

    Afterwards in marriage you need to concede. And above all resist all the shit. But you have your children. When your sad or with moments like your experiencing they will jump all over you. You simply don´t have time for bullshit. Life passes too fast.

    You want to have a deep and meaningful relationship with woman in 3 months. It takes years.

    Sometimes I miss the pua lifestyle. But I quickly snap out of it. When I remember the solitude. It was like a drug. Great. But after the hangover. Your body aching. And your mental health deteriorating because of dealing constantly with the worst specimen of whores.

    Your here to build something. And to make the world a better place.

    Now with all this said. Go and find yourself a woman. Stop with the bullshit and excuses.

  28. CHILLLLLLLL September 28, 2017 at 7:24 pm

    Your a boat. Where do you wanna dock? Take the fucking helm and decide where you wanna go. The waves are nothing. NOTHING YOU HEAR.

    Let go of superficiality. Make yourself a test to stick with a girl for more than 1 year.

  29. TSK September 28, 2017 at 9:06 pm

    “By now I can tell when someone knows me”


    Would you be able to tell if anyone recognizes you just by looking at their eyes?
    The room is dead silent and a man just looks at you (not a quick glance) but a long gaze.

    1. Roosh September 29, 2017 at 8:40 am

      The eyes undergo a certain pattern when it recognizes something. It jerks off to the side to access memory and then re-focuses on the target with higher intensity.

  30. Reanimator44 September 28, 2017 at 11:30 pm

    “Whoever has come to understand the world has found only a corpse, and whoever has found a corpse is superior to the world.”

  31. Lucius Clarus September 29, 2017 at 2:29 am

    Dunno what to say Roosh.

    Been following your journey for about 10 years. Watched you go through these stages.

    There is value in all experiences. I’ve found Stoicism to be a great help. You might also enjoy Viktor Frankl’s book “Man’s Search for Meaning.”

  32. Baphilininnnnn September 29, 2017 at 6:24 pm

    It will never be as good as it was. You´re like a football player in it´s peak. But the peak is gone. You became too old. You still want to continue. You still want to hear the public cheer for every goal you score. You can´t. Trying some escape. Becoming a coach. And you made the shift from game to politics but it´s not the same. You struggle to find the same motivation. Getting on a plane and setting foot in a new city. It was great. You don´t feel it anymore. Why? You made a trade. The devil told you: Rooshie now you fuck all this beautiful girls. But you will be lonely. Where do I sign you´ve asked. And with a cross you sealed your fate.
    The second fact is this has been your home. This blog, the forum. If you find a girl and marry this will cease to exist. This scare you. But my litle chicken shit. Your not here in this world to be a precious petal. No. You´re here to leave your mark. To pound the walls. To move right when everybody is moving left. Are you afraind of losing this after you get married. What will you write about? This digital world you created so precious like a bubble. Is in fact like a judgemental father or mother. No woman will be good enough for my audience. But the audience and the digital world can go and FUCK THEMSELVES. Your hapiness is above all. Except your children when you grow old.
    I another fact which I forgot. Will write in another time.

    1. Seneca September 30, 2017 at 10:20 am

      reasoning over the past and realizing that it’s very different from the present, doesn’t mean one is weeping like a bitch. It only means one is really growing the fuck up.

  33. Baphilininnn September 29, 2017 at 6:39 pm

    The third fact. Now I remember. You can´t be a part-time radical. Or parcial thought criminal. You are against the state, the jews the illuminati, the feminism. But want to leave peaceful in your home.
    Clandestinity is tough. It´s not a walk in the park.
    Your always dipping your foot in one water and taking it out. Than you giggle like a litle girl. Ohhhhh this water was much deeper than what I thought. Hihihihihihihihihih.
    Stop it. Either your an outlaw clandestine or a respectable citizen. You can´t have the cake…

    Let me tell you a story which is totally unrelated to this but I feel like telling. Just like the forum was before all you ridiculous rules. I was with my wife and one of my best friends. I noticed some moves by my friend. My wife was somehow happy. To be falttered. Nothing obvious. Bu I could tell. Of course I didn´t made any jealousy act. It would give power to my wife. When she left I told my friend: “You know I´ve got your wife phone number don´t you?” the look on the fuckers face. If I wanted I could fuck his wife any way possible. I´m retired but not dead.
    If I love my wife. Yes. She´s the mother of my childs and have great tits. But I only told her once. I loved. Her tits I cumpliment daily.

    You know you just got to say the word. And a small revolution will happen.

    Anyway I hope you snap out of this moment. I´ve been reading you for more than 10 years. It´s when you least expect it´s what people used to say. But it´s not. If you want wife material YOU HAVE TO BE HUSBAND MATERIAL.

    Go into real estate investment Roosh. Friday night and i´m reading this:

    Real estate it´s beautiful. Stocks gives more money but it´s more political. Real estate is neutral. It´s the closest to game. when I call about RE the game I play. You should see it. I made 1M this year in real estate investments.

    1. Roosh September 30, 2017 at 7:29 am

      “Your always dipping your foot in one water and taking it out. Than you giggle like a litle girl. Ohhhhh this water was much deeper than what I thought. Hihihihihihihihihih.
      Stop it. Either your an outlaw clandestine or a respectable citizen. You can´t have the cake…”

      This is accurate. I don’t want to be a societal “bad boy” every day. Sometimes I just want to take an anonymous, quiet walk and smell the roses. But I can’t have it both ways. My past, I’m learning, is forcing me to take on the bad boy role whether I like it or not. Either I fight it, unsuccessfully, or embrace it.

      1. Seneca September 30, 2017 at 10:19 am

        the only people who criticize you for the past being an anchor are children…..they think they have everything under their control. It’s only a matter of time before they too will fall on their ass, hard. All these supposed ‘though’ ‘alpha-men’ are really little more than delusional assholes. They too will realize ‘What am I to do? Death is chasing me, and I have no time for stupid people while I am doing something worthwhile’.

  34. Danny October 1, 2017 at 10:03 am

    Roosh, I respect that you accept responsibility of your choices and actions. Some other people always blame someone or someything else.

    I can also relate to the concept that the past is an anchor. We may have been born in the wrong place or the wrong time, or had bad parents, or grew up with assholes. In my case, some of these affected me not getting any sex in my prime years, and now I have this huge sex addiction of watching porn a lot, and thinking about it a lot more often than I should, and spening most of my free time on unproductive behaviors.

  35. Barwin October 1, 2017 at 9:33 pm

    In the beginning of a change the patriot is a scarce man, and brave, and hated and scorned. When his cause succeeds, the timid join him, for then it costs nothing to be a patriot.
    – Mark Twain

    Roosh, thank you for what you do. When you’re right you’re right, no matter how many people say you’re wrong. You are a patriot.

  36. Jeremy Martinez October 1, 2017 at 9:35 pm

    I understand. Not being known, but…
    I moved around a lot. I’ve slept around a lot. I’ve done a lot of regrettable things. Never malicious, but regrettable. I’ve known MANY people.
    Sometimes, I worry I’ll do something of note one day. And the flood of average people coming forward to take revenge for no particular evil done to them will destroy anything I build.
    So, while different, I understand. Notoriety for something as honest as wanting to travel and fuck women can be rough because people don’t want to be honest with themselves.
    If you wanted to travel and cook, and just fucked women as part of it… That is normal. But if you just want to travel and fuck women, somehow it is wrong.
    I explained to my wife the other night, when she read a quote from a guy saying women were easy to trick: Women are not easy to trick, they just want everything with a shiny veneer. They know why you want to take them out, they just want you to wrap it well. Nothing is real to them until someone says it. A slut can be a slut, but if you say it, it makes it real.
    Women want to eat meat, but not see it slaughtered. They want sale prices on Fair Trade. Women want equal respect for unequal results. They are vegetarians with leather purses.
    Women are fully aware it is blue, but they want men to tell them the sky is red.
    Women expect men to build a safe world around them that matches their imagination. And men are slowly learning to expect the same.
    The past is an anchor, but your curse is that you were honest. And it makes the world feel shame for their lie.

  37. Char Aznable October 2, 2017 at 1:01 pm

    Thank you for your service. Even if your notoriety eventually overcomes your strength at least it won’t have been entirely thankless.

  38. sean October 2, 2017 at 2:35 pm

    once again, kicking ass Roosh V!

  39. Stuart October 2, 2017 at 4:43 pm

    As we say where I’m from, “you can’t put the shit back in the horse.”

  40. Nevsky October 3, 2017 at 12:07 am

    Innocent babies reflected in tears
    They’re crying and screaming inside their fears
    Tiny, pale fingers are stretched in the air
    They’re looking so sweet, they’re looking so fair
    Years to come babies turn into men
    Some of them live, and some of them can’t
    Secrets that lie underneath their souls
    Guarded unanswered, guarded for all…

  41. Tony October 3, 2017 at 12:41 am

    Ladies and Gentlemen, here we have the real Roosh……straight up Pussy…’re not going to be tossed into oblivion because you’re shackled…..the target you wish to destroy is yourself…’s so obvious even to you, that you are going to kill yourself…..which is what happens with excessive promiscuity, from both male and females…..although like most cowards, you probably won’t go through with it.

    You’re a gigantic clown, with your Letterman beard…….ugly motherfuckers, the both of you……that’s the real red pill, and probably the reason your sister gets trizzed out on a regular basis considering she is from the same gene pool.

    All this game and PUA and red pill to use a community parlance is so fucking beta I can’t take it…..I never fully bought into it, just figured here are some straight up losers who will do whatever it takes to be with girls….ironically the biggest cockblockers out there…..and considering they are completely devoid of any pride or self-respect what-so-ever….I’m sure they have shamelessly acquired some knowledge that could be of some use…..but no.

    The real red-pill truth is that you have to go out there and experience this bullshit by trial and error….that’s the only way…..your ego, or confidence, will never grow following someone else’s lead in these deeply personal matters.

    I’ve been through all these phases, ebbs and flows of life…..just like everyone…..Brad Pitt has been cheated on folks, no one is immune……women are scummy at the core just like most guys…..we get it, but guess what, we always have…..who the fuck wants to live in a red pill world? No one, that’s who.

    These are dark realities that you should try to push into the back of your mind only to be drawn upon when the situation arises…..even Neil Strauss is a giant clown but at least he is a decent writer…..still a super herb despite all the hot ass, fame and fortune he’s gotten… have the least interesting articles on here man, you’ve been passed up and left in the dust with trendy beard…..all butt hurt and resigned to writing poetry and talking about “cute hipster” cafes…..straight up faggot talk.

    If you were married to your perfect soulmate…’d be introducing bigger cocks into the bedroom by now and sucking on them five years from now……I hate the feminism movement and what Western society has become just as much as the next guy……but you should really retire…..and by retire I mean kill yourself…..and broadcast it somewhere…..not so you will die a hero but so your last remaining fanboys will finally know what the world always has….

    you’re a gutless fuckboy.

    1. Tony October 3, 2017 at 1:29 am

      All these dudes…..Tucker Max being the worst…..crying about Mommy and Daddy, all the while having the time of their lives with the privilege afforded to them by Mommy and Daddy.

      The party never lasts forever…..just like the greedy Baby Boomers whining and moaning about entitled Millenials like a bunch of bitches……Return of Kings? Sounds alarmingly close to Make America Great Again……guess what….America was always just a Great place for Shameless pieces of garbage to flourish at the expense of the less fortunate…..and Royalty has always been incestuous and plagued with Pedophile, much like the elite in “Great” America.

      Even the King of the Jungle lions get tossed by the wayside when they’re too old to hack it anymore… it should be……hell, even the Silverback Harambe was killed by an elitest, rich Dentist who’s probably got so many skeletons in the closet that he undoubtedly hates himself as well.

      Have a little gratitude and do dope shit….that’s all I can say….things truly do have a way of evening out….and a lot of the time depression is a direct result of one’s own inner character… can’t hide from yourself….and sometimes the only thing left to do is kill yourself…..but at least do the world and yourself a favor by going against form for once and being a man……..take yourself out and ONLY yourself.

      1. strawberryman October 14, 2017 at 9:06 am

        “I’m not beta! You’re all beta! I’m definitely not beta! So what if you get laid! Getting laid too much is BAD! It’s promiscuity! Failing often like me is good! It’s the proper way to do things! Being a cuck is also a-ok! Even Brad Pitt got cucked! So I don’t have to feel inferior to you and your big manly beard! LOL LMAO ROFL I’m laffin’ at all of you right now! LAFFIN’!!!”

  42. Afiq Hamid October 8, 2017 at 11:51 pm

    So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past

    -Scott F. Fitzgerald

  43. Miss Molocoy October 9, 2017 at 11:54 am

    I’m a woman and I’ve read your blog for years.
    I’ve always appreciated your writing even though I’ve always taken it with a large pinch of salt.
    And I am in the abhorrent category of the women who had fun in their twenties and settled down in their thirties.
    I got invaluable advice from your blog, on how to deal with men, in the years I was single.
    I’ve also always related with your philosophy of life, living frugally, getting in touch with once true desires, studying philosophy,

    Ultimately, if I tomorrow I bumped into you in a public place, I would come and say hello and I would have a friendly chat with you.
    I think people who hate you, really and truly have nothing going on in their life.
    You haven’t hurt anyone. You’re a pick up artist. I’ve met many in my life, and I survived!

  44. Zelcorpion October 11, 2017 at 11:31 am

    As tiresome as your situation can be at times – you don’t need to wait for a reboot to the source to attain freedom.

    We all have to deal with restrictions. Freedom comes by attaining inner detachment of our situation. We adapt to the pros and cons of the condition and live with it.

  45. JQ October 15, 2017 at 8:11 pm

    I see your point but perhaps it is not that hard to find a woman to settle down. Other men with worst reputations than Roosh have had women even in their worst moments. Now if we talk about living a normal life well that is harder. You might need to go live in a place were language and geographic circumstances offer a barrier against your past. Like a Latin American country were internet in the country side is scarce and people speak spanish. Of course that might all fall down if some enemy finds out and he campaigns against you; but there is a relativity in all this. When women regularly have kidds and marry drug dealers, abusers and deadbeat dads ; I have seen time and time again they come back to those men. In some places the woman will simply won’t care as long as you provide and sometimes not even that. Now if you choose to fit in an anglophone city with a woman who has a career, a regular job and regular circle of friends/ family then that is more difficult. You will need to find someone who is some kind of anti-feminist and ready to face the social backlash coming from friends and family. Not an easy proposition to sell. But who knows, with men pussification at an all time high masculine men are always on demand.

  46. Baldur Ás October 17, 2017 at 3:33 pm

    “Why open a cute hipster cafe in old age when protesters will show up in front?”

    By then you’ll be a legend, man. They’ll be asking for your autograph.

  47. Clay Steel November 9, 2017 at 12:22 am

    Roosh V, I sure hope that you are still reviewing these comments. I am a Christian man, and like you I have some anchors. Fortunately, through the years of carrying this anchor I have become much stronger. I was attracted to your site because we share many of the same values and are troubled by the very same things that trouble the Lord. The only difference between us is your youth, writing ability and how we “deal” with these fore mentioned troubles of our fallen world.
    Christ makes all things new ( Isaiah 43:19English Standard Version (ESV)
    19 Behold, I am doing a new thing;
    now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?
    I will make a way in the wilderness
    and rivers in the desert.
    Roosh, you do not need to reinvent yourself or erase your past. You won’t need to change first before coming to Christ. Christ will transform you and your new life will set you free from your bondage. You will find love in Christ and He will bless you deeply. Please don’t take my word for it, give Him a try by reading the New Testament (first), pray for understanding, and surrender your life to Him.
    Last, I honestly believe you are a Christian at heart, if not already. It is just time to begin a relationship with your Heavenly Father. You would be a tremendous asset to THE KINGDOM. Your intellect, wit, writing ability and interpersonal skills could make you a “fisher of men”.
    P.S… I’m not a technical man with great computer skills. My FB page is Brad Strong (Spokane area). I used Clay Steel in the past and both are wimpy aliases. I’d like to “come out of the cave” as a real man when I figure out how to change my FB page. Please feel free to contact me…I’m not really an “evangelist”, just a husband and father who loves the Lord. God Bless you Roosh.