It’s tempting to think that you can start over at any moment, just pack up your bags and head to new places, but like a shadow, your past will follow you. Wherever you go and whatever you do, your memories, experiences, and mistakes will never be far behind.

The lives of my parents shaped me as a child, which shaped the teenager I became, which installed the itches I had to scratch as a young adult, which propelled me to notoriety as a grown man, which pushed me to soft exile in a place I myself won’t confirm. In the moment it takes a woman I meet to search for my name on the internet, the entire distillation of my life is presented to her eyes in computerized form. In the seconds it takes a man to connect my face to a name he’s heard before, he sees a frustrated 19-year-old guy who was stuck being friends with girls and nothing more. In the hours it takes a journalist to write a hit piece on me, images flash of a little boy playing by himself, discovering new patterns.

Everything that happens in this moment is anchored to everything that happened before it, and this I can’t escape. A random whim or flight of fancy I once tickled is still with me today, its unexpected repercussions I will never shake. A spontaneous flash of creativity in the past firmly shackles me in the present.

I wonder what it would be like to hit the reset button and start with a new identity, a fantasy that can only come from the mind of a man who wishes to reverse his fame and go back to being a nobody, but this heavy anchor I must lug around with me, even to a tiny village where it would just take a month or two until a local recognizes me. The gossip and the looks and the paranoia follow. You either die a hero, or live long enough to see yourself become a meme, one that always stays with you.

When I’m sitting in public, I don’t put my back to the door. I scan every face. By now I can tell when someone knows me, when they’re talking about me, when they’re brave enough to take a picture on the sly. I have a speech ready for when she finds out, and I watch her face carefully as she decides to take it or leave it. I don’t invest time making friends with normal people because they won’t be able to handle what I’ve said in the past. Choosing to be alone more than not stops a lot of surprises, but I’m still ready for a loud knock at the door. If I must go to a new land tomorrow, and leave everything behind, including the little plants that I water every week, so be it. 

What have I done?

This anchor weighs on me heavily. I’m squeezed in tight, my body cramps. Why write a new book when it will be burned? Why open a new internet site that will be shut down? Why do a lecture when the hotel will cancel at the last minute? Why open a cute hipster cafe in old age when protesters will show up in front? I wait for something to change, but I know that nothing will. People have their own anchors to deal with than worry about mine.

One day I will burst. I can feel it coming. In a moment of beautiful rage, I will use all my strength and pick up my anchor and lift it over my head and throw it at whatever or whomever I want to destroy. My target will perish, I have no doubt, but attached to my leg is a shackle and chain. I will fly through through the air and be destroyed myself. Everything that happened to me, and everything that happened to my parents, their ancestors, Adam, the first atom, and the whole of the universe will blaze before my eyes. My anchor will explode into 10,000 pieces as my consciousness returns to the source. Finally, I can stretch.

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Arthur Konrad
3 years ago

Those who abide in the forest,
Peaceful, living the holy life;
Those who eat but a single meal;
– Why is their face so calm ?

They do not grieve over the past,
Nor do they yearn for the future;
They live only in the present
– That is why their face is so calm

It’s from yearning for the future,
And from grieving over the past;
This is how fools become withered,
– Like a fresh reed that’s been hacked down

Todd
Todd
3 years ago
Reply to  Arthur Konrad

This philosophy can/will only take you so far in certain circumstances. What if you became physically crippled from a drunk driving accident at your own fault, and killed someone in the process? How about suffered war injuries that leave you permanently disabled, or even commit a crime you regret and “learned” from yet are in prison for life?

Any past accident/mistake where you cannot live a “normal” life going forward, physically and mentally, cannot be cured by simply ignoring the past and blocking out future thoughts. When you cannot move forward as a normal person could due to previous errors, you have an anchor as Roosh has indicated. Many anchors that one complains about are simply mental limitations and can be cured by this philosophy, but not all.

So while having an anchored past will certainly wither one’s appearance, it is not only fools, but those that are literally chained. I have my own anchor like Roosh, and living in the present can never solve it, and I am not sure if it ever can.

One of your best posts yet Roosh, at times it sounded like you were describing me and I’m sure others will feel the same.

Evan M
Evan M
3 years ago
Reply to  Todd

There are people in all the circumstances you described who are able to accept their position, let go of regret and fear of death, have gratitude for the life they have lived, and be at peace. I have known some of them. And there are also people who have an objectively easy life, yet are full of dread, depression, anxiety and misery.

It all depends on your level of spiritual development and strength of mind. Even now, it is not these situations themselves which assail you, but your thoughts about them, your fears. Whatever horrible circumstance you can imagine, I can assure you there have been people in that circumstance who faced it with courage and achieved a tranquility greater than what you or I possess in our lives now.

For those who have not practiced it, it may seem mere philosophy. But since the dawn of man there have been sages who, usually after great efforts, were able to apply this knowledge as a shield against the miseries of life, which truly do arise in the mind. That is why all the great spiritual traditions speak of wisdom, jnana, serenity, liberation, enlightenment, self-realisation, etc. It is the highest human attainment. For most it only comes after arduous and earnest application, but when it does come, it is even more real than the external circumstances you describe.

Though I´m sure these words mean little – it will only be understood if you encounter it in your own experience.

Todd
Todd
3 years ago
Reply to  Evan M

Good points, and the words have great meaning. I’ve encountered some of these and the main difficulties for me are the contradictions. For the most part I am at peace with reality and the anchor from my past. I am without a doubt stronger than ever spiritually and mentally, and have no fear of death whatsoever. But after mastering these points, further problems arise. If I knew what I know 10 years ago, I would have structured my life to thrive and survive, at least I imagine. Two other problems are ego and isolation, where I still believe I am capable of accomplishing x amount of things and feel it is my purpose to do so, and am consequently disappointed when reality sets in and doing absolutely nothing is a more likely outcome due to the circumstances.

Like many that read this blog, I consider myself unique and abnormal, but not in a negative way. Despite usually disliking things that appeal to the LCD’s, there is something to be said with “fitting in” and being a normal member of the group. Something as simple as having a family, and living amongst a community of like-minded individuals centered around family, work, virtue, and purpose. I’m sure some can and are achieving this state, but for me it will be next to impossible.

Staying busy and connecting with as many people as possible has kept me going, but a strong-willed man can only take so many surrogate activities in life to take place of what is really important. Especially when as time goes on, you are disappointed with how you are perceived, and simultaneously how you are not where you want to be and have no control in making the situation better. This is where it gets very tricky, and I’m hoping there is some light at the end of this tunnel spiritually for all who are on this path shackled with chains and carrying an enormous anchor with them.

John Sharma
John Sharma
2 years ago
Reply to  Evan M

I disagree. What stands out about every enlightened spiritual master is they had the benefit of a loving childhood and no responsibility for anyone else. Jesus wasnt an abused child or crucified in family court affecting not only himself but his children for a matter of decades not days. Same can be said for krishnamurti, sidharta gautama, yogananda, vivekenanda and all the others known and not so well known.

colin r
colin r
2 years ago
Reply to  Arthur Konrad

No attribution?

It’s from the Dhammapada, I think. Arthur can tell you which verse.

Arthur Konrad
2 years ago
Reply to  colin r

Connected Discourses of The Buddha 1:10

Amanda Johnson
Amanda Johnson
3 years ago

I wonder what your past in the Illuminati is like Roosh “V”. Isn’t a “V” symbolic of a peace sign with index and middle fingers, which is 33, since there are 3 knuckles in each finger?

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TravelNomad
TravelNomad
3 years ago
Reply to  Amanda Johnson

You are so annoying

Seth Falconer
Seth Falconer
2 years ago
Reply to  Amanda Johnson

Stupid lady, we voted for that cover. Why don’t you go make some brownies and serve a good man?

Mark Sweeter
Mark Sweeter
3 years ago

These are words written by someone who is not connecting with others. At least, not enough anyway. I also work long hours and usually in relative isolation. I actually do well and work well in that manner. But you STILL have to connect to people. We’re not designed for complete isolation.

Reading this article reminds me of some things Jordan Peterson was saying about the dangers of overwhelm, which can lead to Nihilism. It’s not a good place to be!

You need to connect with people. Honestly Roosh… you are at your best my friend when you are engaging men that follow you and who are interested in what you have to say. For a while there, you got a bit more engaged on Twitter, and you even had some pretty good podcasts. I get that Twitter can become consuming.. but I’ve seen how much more animated you are when you are engaging.

I also completely turned off FB. It felt pretty good. But I also had some guys ask me why I don’t post things. And now I am wondering if its just a cop out on my part to withdraw from sharing ideas and posting. I am still not sure about it.

Can I make a suggestion though? Re-engage a bit. Do a podcast. Talk. It does work. If you can it all up.. there’s nowhere for the energy (even negative) to go but inward. And trust me.. LOT of guys ARE interested in what you have to say, having a dialog, and following. Creating content DOES help. It’s not a waste.

Roosh
3 years ago
Reply to  Mark Sweeter

“Engaging” and “connecting” is exactly what led to my predicament.

Mark Sweeter
Mark Sweeter
3 years ago
Reply to  Roosh

Is it really a “predicament” though? It just “is”. Predicament implies there’s no solution or that there even needs to be a solution.

You mentioned that you meet a girl and then you feel the need to come up with a speech or explanation about who you are or what you’re about. That tells me that the true crux of this “predicament” is you’d like to meet a decent woman and possibly settle down with her – but you feel encumbered by the fact that the minute she looks into your history she’s going to run away.

Is that really a rational fear to have man? Or did this happen once (or recently) and you’re letting it get the better of you? Women are not that hard to sway into your corner.

Anecdotal example… I met this girl once and I really liked her. She had all the qualities I desire (and require) in a potential mate. Some dude learned I was pursuing her and proceeded to get some people he knows to start sending her messages on FB – warning her I was some kind of player. The douche even posted photos from a private FB group where I had made some comments about some chick I was banging, and even pictures of her. This didn’t go over well with the chick I was dating. But it was a simple explanation. “Hey.. this was before I knew you. I was free to bang any chick I wanted. I didn’t wrong that girl in any way, and I didn’t lie to you or cheat on you. So this entire thing consists of one thing.. a jealous piece of shit who was trying to cock block me. So the topic is dropped.”

And that was the end of it. She accepted it, and things were fine. Unless you personally fucked over the girl, most of them will accept your explanations. And if they don’t, then you’re already potentially getting yourself involved with a woman who is going to be a pain the ass anyway.

To quote you.. and it is one of my favorite things you ever said…

“Take over whatever you can, and tell people what to do. Tell the girl what you want her to do”.

So this doesn’t sound like you right now. You’re a writer for God’s sake! You posses the skilled art of persuasion and the ability to articulate. Use it bro!!!

Todd
Todd
3 years ago
Reply to  Mark Sweeter

Due to how connected everything is on the internet now, most girls in metropolitan western countries either know Roosh or find out soon due to friends, acquaintances, etc. Out of that bunch, at least half will likely hate him for what the media’s characterization is, not based on truth at all. Most of the other half will be indifferent/sympathetic at first, but apprehensive down the road if things get serious.

Let’s say Roosh wants to settle down and have a family (not sure if true or not). It isn’t as simple as finding a girl that is marriageable. Her family has to approve, which is going to be difficult due to all of the negative propaganda against him. Even if he did get married and have children, they will always be the outsiders as people love to gossip and Roosh will be the infamous guy with internet fame. Also his kids would find out who he is via the internet, and others at some point will bring it up in school. Petty, yes, but just the way things are and would be annoying at the least, and potentially relationship-destroying at the worst.

Truth be told, Roosh has positively affected tens of thousands of men’s lives due to his work and the internet, but there was a cost to this medium. Your average joe is conflict averse, and people will ostracize to save their hide, even if they like what that individual is doing. I saw somewhere else recommending changing his name and starting over, but how appealing is that? Having no family/friends, and having to lie about your past just to fit in somewhere? Building a story on a house of sand will lead to collapse. Some might be able to do it for awhile, but very difficult for a man of virtue to pull off.

Now Roosh is a smart man and he will figure things out one way or another, but the complete inability to live a normal, quiet life amongst even a small tribe, much less a city, is certainly what I would call a “predicament.”

Mark Sweeter
Mark Sweeter
3 years ago
Reply to  Todd

I guess I’m a little confused. I say exactly what I think to my wife. I don’t hold back at all. I’ve even told her straight up that I don’t think women should be voting. Whether you’re famous or not shouldn’t matter.. Because a true alpha will tell it like it is anyway. You think you’re going to be able to hide your true nature throughout the remainder of your life? And just in the hopes that girls will like you? That is the complete opposite of game or the tactics of neomasculinity.

I’m sorry. But this is just way too much woe is me to be considered masculine. A man finds his way. He gets his way. He takes what he wants. There’s no need for explanations or excuses.

Todd
Todd
3 years ago
Reply to  Mark Sweeter

Agree that excuses and explanations are useless, but saying controversial things to your wife and broadcasting it to the world are not on the same wavelength. How many people can you think of that are as publicly demonized by the media as Roosh was between the lectures/meetups? Maybe Andrew Anglin, David Duke, Richard Spencer, etc but they seemingly embrace the role as public enemy No. 1.

Once you speak your mind publicly on controversial issues, especially when it is against the government’s interests, there is no going back. If it was so simple and unnecessary to do so, then all of us would not being commenting anonymously. I’m sure many corporations would love for you to tell their fellow female employees that all should not have the right to vote.

Mark Sweeter
Mark Sweeter
3 years ago
Reply to  Todd

Again.. these are just excuses. I’m not saying that putting yourself out there does not attract haters and bad press/media. But I never hear Rush L. complain that “oh no… I can’t do anything because people know who I am”. He embraces his notoriety and realizes that although there will be haters, there are also MILLIONS who think otherwise. If there are not, then your movement maybe needs to be called into question. Why so few followers? Why does hardly ANYONE agree with you out in the world?

Of course, that is NOT the case with Roosh. He has TONS of support and people who read his books, read his articles, and totally agree. So fine.. hang out with those you agree with. That INCLUDES the women you consider being with. If a girl is offended by Roosh, then she’s not for him (maybe a bang). But she’s not good wifey material if she subscribes to modern feminism or pop culture degeneracy. So there’s nothing lost in all this. Just awareness of who these people are and then be happy it’s easier to discern who is worth your time.

When I say that shit about women voting right in the presence of my wife, it is a test. I want to see how much she might disagree or fight back. If I present evidence and a position, I want to see how much she will try to challenge me. Mere disagreement does not mean I will dismiss that girl, but if she locks horns with me over it… pass!!!

Evan M
Evan M
3 years ago
Reply to  Mark Sweeter

Mark all this stuff is easy for you to say from your position of anonymity, but if you had dozens of mainstream articles attached to your name saying you were a rapist, do you really think it would be so easy to just brush away? The truth is you have no idea of what it is like to experience that level of fame and pressure. It´s like me looking at some veteran with PTSD and saying ¨Why doesn´t he just let it go? If I was hit with an IED, I´d just stay cool and wouldn´t let it get to me!¨ Easy to say those words, but coming from someone who hasn´t even experienced 1/100th of it, it doesn´t mean much. Roosh has actually lived it. If you become a demonised public figure, have coordinated hate campaigns launched against you, have to hire security to even show your face in public, and manage to laugh it all off without breaking a sweat, then I might listen to you. Otherwise, you´re just deluding yourself.

Mark Sweeter
Mark Sweeter
3 years ago
Reply to  Evan M

You’re right. It’s always more masculine to play victim after you’ve made the choice to publicly articulate your positions and opinions. Got it…

Evan M
Evan M
3 years ago
Reply to  Mark Sweeter

It´d be more masculine if you actually faced the pressure in real life, held your ground and lead us all by example. The only place you have ever withstood the kind of pressure Roosh has is in your own imagination. Instead of trying to teach something you have zero experience in, you should be quiet and listen to the people who actually had the balls to do it.

Mark Sweeter
Mark Sweeter
3 years ago
Reply to  Evan M

Did Roosh actually ask you to white knight on his behalf? Or you’re just doing it on your own? I seriously doubt he would have requested that sort of thing.

Evan M
Evan M
2 years ago
Reply to  Mark Sweeter

You should let go of your envy of Roosh and focus on doing something with your own life which will soothe your insecurity.

Anti-Gnostic
Anti-Gnostic
2 years ago
Reply to  Mark Sweeter

“A man finds his way. He gets his way. He takes what he wants. There’s no need for explanations or excuses.”

Finds his way, yes. Gets his way and takes what he wants? Only if you want to be punched in the mouth, arrested, or sued.

“Mere disagreement does not mean I will dismiss that girl, but if she locks horns with me over it… pass!!!”

Because it’s about you perpetually maintaining total control of a situation, which is other than healthy.

“He embraces his notoriety and realizes that although there will be haters, there are also MILLIONS who think otherwise.”

So, why not direct everyone here to who you truly are. Shed your fake name and provide everyone your real identity. Have your wife even verify how you “tell it how it is” to her. I mean, if you are the true alpha, there is no need to be anonymous. Reveal yourself!

“But she’s not good wifey material if she subscribes to modern feminism or pop culture degeneracy.”

That is YOUR preference. For tens of millions of men, they believe differently, which does not mean they are cucks or gammas or any other derogatory term you find “appropriate”.

Petruccio
Petruccio
2 years ago
Reply to  Anti-Gnostic

How about you shed your anonymity Anti-Gnostic? I haven’t forgotten the piece of shit you are. Quite brave to act like a SJW troll. Throw insults like ‘cucks’ and ‘gammas’ and yet you are a Potemkin man. You should offer constructive criticism that BUILDS a man, instead of supporting the forces that undermine good men.

Anti-Gnostic
Anti-Gnostic
2 years ago
Reply to  Petruccio

“How about you shed your anonymity Anti-Gnostic? I haven’t forgotten the piece of shit you are.”

So where is that constructive criticism that builds a man you so proudly touted?

“Quite brave to act like a SJW troll. Throw insults like ‘cucks’ and ‘gammas’ …”

So, you are playing the victim card here. Do you need some Kleenex?

“yet you are a Potemkin man…”

Yes, I am a Potemkin man.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Grigory_Potemkin

Petruccio
Petruccio
2 years ago
Reply to  Anti-Gnostic

My apologies to you. I meant Potemkin Village of a man, nothing behind the façade.

Mark Sweeter
Mark Sweeter
2 years ago
Reply to  Anti-Gnostic

Ahhh yes… the obligatory “you’re controlling” response. As if human being do not and should not attempt to control outcomes in their favor. That’s hilarious…

Anti-Gnostic
Anti-Gnostic
2 years ago
Reply to  Mark Sweeter

It is HOW you go about controlling the situation, and not trying to have things go in one’s favor. Big difference.

Would you like to know more, citizen?

Anti-Gnostic
Anti-Gnostic
3 years ago
Reply to  Todd

There isn’t any “negative propaganda” on Roosh, just the facts that he wrote advice books on how to bang women. Yes, he talked about the nature of females, but the overall goal was to pump them and dump them. That is the observable truth.

Todd
Todd
3 years ago
Reply to  Anti-Gnostic

Yes this isn’t negative propaganda at all: http://www.washingtontimes.com/news/2016/feb/2/roosh-v-pro-rape-activist-organizes-covert-meeting/

If there wasn’t any negative propaganda during the lectures and attempt to do the worldwide meetup, everything that came out of the news outlets were fair characterizations?

Anti-Gnostic
Anti-Gnostic
2 years ago
Reply to  Todd

“Yes this isn’t negative propaganda at all…”

Exactly. It’s called hate facts. One reaps what they sow.

Dirk Diggler
Dirk Diggler
2 years ago
Reply to  Todd

Her family has to approve? Are you Amish or are you writing this from the year 1850?

Shep
Shep
2 years ago
Reply to  Dirk Diggler

My Friend, my daughter may marry without my approval…
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…or my financial help.
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I’ve privately told her I’ll give her $10,000 to elope, provided the young man comes to me, asks my permission, is willing to answer my questions about his finances or anything else I want to ask, and receives my blessing.

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MCGOO
MCGOO
2 years ago
Reply to  Mark Sweeter

Women run towards bad boys, not away. But aside, that story you told about the girl you liked and the mangina dude who wanted her – that sounds like a male version of the cock blocking that hen mothers use to control and even out the beta orbiters who claim their ‘sistas’. In addition, what the hell would any man other than a pussy pandering beta want with some other dude’s used and ridden woman – or wife for that matter? I’d like to kick these idiots in the nuts who fall in love with someone else’s damn wife. How stupid can someone be? All that wife grovellers and gf hounds do is cause problems for the guys and temptation for the ding bats.

Welfare whore den mothers will also plot against any males who they see controlling their females in their community or ‘project’ dump housing complexes. The rabid feminist man haters in subsidized housing will go after any patriarchal family that lives there too, stabbing the man if they can get their hooks into the woman and manipulate her. The radfem nazis that work for socialist services as women’s advocates are pros at forcing a woman’s hand against her man and dismembering and dissolving a family unit. That’s what they get paid to do. They are the worst of the bunch and will go the way of the witches during colonial times.

‘Witches’ of olde weren’t exclusively ‘wiccan’ per se, but they operated the same as modern day feminist women’s advocates. The ‘witches’ were sometimes rootless vagabond women and sometimes local gold digger whores that seduced married men and boys. They would also go from village to village and encourage women to become malcontent with married life, trying to persuade them to abandon their nests. Oooooh boy did that rub against the grain of the Dutch pilgrim settlers. “BURN THEM ALL” they cried. I don’t blame them.

Regardless of the time period, harlots and witches and modern feminist women’s advocates are basically of the same cloth, and their actions accomplish the same – destruction of the community and culture. In the middle ages, there were no women’s studies and the jewish predecessors of Steinem, Abzug and Friedan had never tasted secularism and still clung to their conservative Hassidic restrictions.

How then did ‘women’s advocate’ witches who effectively proselytized feminism (until they were burned) concieve of such doings? Well, they didn’t concieve what they did as much as it was a spiritual inclination. A DEMONIC WITCH BITCH spirit of scorn and wrath has existed from the beginning of time. Women have always been vulnerable to it. Men – the patriarchs – continually must beat back and bitch slap the hellacious bitch spirit down. When the spirit of patriarchy prevails, there is fidelity and bounty for all man and clan.

Dirk Diggler
Dirk Diggler
2 years ago
Reply to  Mark Sweeter

Mark is right. What have you done that is so bad? People serve sentences for rape or murder, get released, and move on with their lives. Others actually work in porn and become quasi-celebrities, or they get out and live normal lives.

You didn’t commit any crimes. All you did is write books about fucking a lot of women and teaching other guys how to do the same.

If it’s that big of a deal, change your name to something basic, change your look to something conformist, and move to where a lot of people have your general skin color and look. You aren’t hispanic, but you could blend in with them pretty well. Plus, you already speak spanish. This defeatist, pity party is not like you and it solves nothing. For fuck’s sake, man up and get a grip on yourself.

MCGOO
MCGOO
3 years ago
Reply to  Roosh

WITCHES are stirring shit Roosh. ENERGY MANIPULATORS who are vile with the wrathful witch-bitch spirit from hell must have obtained an article of your clothing or hair in one of your encounters. They huddle in the dark drinking the sorrow of their own wasted eggs and drinking the blood of their own. And they use personal items or effects in a form of voodoo. They are posessed by the same spirit from the bowels of hell that animates Soros, the cabal and the transhumanists.

THIS Washington Times article from 2016 by Jessica Chasmar contains boastful bragging how a particular Chicago group called FURIE (Feminist Uprising to Resist Inequality and Exploitation) will attempt to summon witch bitch energies to hurl against you and all men attending the meetup.

http://m.washingtontimes.com/news/2016/feb/2/roosh-v-pro-rape-activist-organizes-covert-meeting/

At the end of the article, it states: “we’re witches and they’re gonna get hexed as [expletive]” These nasty witchwomen work in government, schools, churches, some are cougars and others are counterculture scrappers. They all have blood on their breath from using the bitch system to make their worldly gains and enough of them ride the heels of the jewbitch facilitated divorce rape system. Every beta that’s been chewed up by a false accusation or stripped of patriarchal authority in the jewfem divorce bitchcourts has had a taste of these real life culprit witches at work. They will be stopped. The supreme patriarchy thunders on the horizon. MAN is king. MAN returns to the throne. (Worldwide, matriarchal de-culturing is not all jewfem. Aboriginal matriarchal ‘cultures’ if you could call them cultures even, live without a jew on the island but they still practice the same bitch voodoo as the covens of witchbitches in western establishment. And the aboriginal cunt-worshippers live in stick huts because they killed the Architect – they killed in their sleep the men who divine the most supreme of all masculine creative energy – the BUILDER/ARCHITECT – and thus they spend eternity living like stinking animals in dirt mounds and drinking their own blood). Don’t let the witch bitch energy live and infect other females western man – never. HAIL THE PATRIARCHY!!

Matriarchal cultures all have this common insideous thread running throughout with their women. They all oppose patriarchy with a passion and they burn and eat babies for fun. They’re also the wrathful gold diggers who put on a face of a compassionate wife until she divorce rapes. She was never loyal. THEY WILL be smashed and many patriarchs have under their wing the virtuous and loyal females who reject and betray the ‘bitch force’ that consumes the lost female pieces of shit from hell – THE WITCH BITCHES. Good loyal women betray the great bitch force always and it isnn’t so great after all. HAIL THE PATRIARCHY!!

Again they’re nothing but CUNTS who attempt to manipulate energy. The ultimate culture vandals if left unchecked. Patriarchy always beats these fembitch femwitch sumboogers. . . eer ‘sumbitches’. Patriarchy beats them like rock-paper-scissors.

HAIL!!

Amalene Creggy
Amalene Creggy
2 years ago
Reply to  Roosh

May I suggest that your ego/pride is the weight of your problems. Also, sounds like you could do with some sound sleep.

Tali
Tali
3 years ago
Reply to  Mark Sweeter

It sounds like you’re asking him to perform more… Performing is different from connecting, and most of what people do when they have a large audience does not involve a meaningful human connection (despite what Facebook would like us to think…).

Mark Sweeter
Mark Sweeter
3 years ago
Reply to  Tali

Yeah, I was kind of referring more to perhaps a combo of doing content, but also something like the live call-in stream a few weeks back. That seemed to go well, and I thought Roosh seemed to enjoy it. I did. Some of it was pretty funny.

And that is the thing that men NEED to be doing. It’s not enough to just post memes and mock.

Tali
Tali
3 years ago
Reply to  Mark Sweeter

Performing can be enjoyable – I’m sure it gives a great high, especially if you get positive feedback. But performers often have big lows, in their “regular lives”, exactly because it can be harder for them to connect with people.

As to whether or not this is what men NEED to be doing – that’s an interesting point, you might be right about that, at least at a certain point in life. I’ll have to think about this one. I like to think that one can get past that once they had their fill, but I really don’t know.

I do think that focusing on fewer, meaningful connections (in person!) is better for the human psyche, especially if these people appreciate you without you needing to perform for them. This can be hard to find though, which makes things harder for everybody…

And it’s not a cop out on your part if you keep your ideas to yourself, BTW. Maybe write them down for yourself, when they come to you, and share them with the few people who are most interested in what you have in mind, and that you’d actually like to get their feedback on whatever it is. That’s what I’d consider “connecting”, and it would probably feel different from posting these things on Facebook.

Eric
Eric
3 years ago
Reply to  Mark Sweeter

I miss Roosh’s podcasts. Some real wisdom there.

Mark Sweeter
Mark Sweeter
3 years ago
Reply to  Eric

Indeed.

Evan M
Evan M
3 years ago

Great article Roosh! It´s interesting, many in the pickup community quickly tire of strategizing to get pussy and leverage their notoriety to indulge in deeper topics – RSD with their inner game/Eckhart Tolle/ New-Age-West-Coast-Hipster-spirituality, Roissy with his culture/race war polemics, Rollo with his academic maculinist social theory… I enjoy aspects of all of them, and find other parts ridiculous, but I think Roosh´s existentialist musings are the most sincere and well done of the bunch. If Roosh compiled them all into a poignant philosophical work, I think it would outshine all his previous material, and even his cultural enemies may find themselves with a begrudging appreciation for it.

Davis M.J. Aurini
3 years ago

We’re all there, brother. The manosphere did so much good – and now it’s been subverted by forces who want to self-destruct, and bring us down with them in the process.

I’m thinking, thinking, thinking about all of this – trying to see the path – but I feel like I’m stranded in Murkwood.

Anti-Gnostic
Anti-Gnostic
2 years ago

The manosphere is the bane of Christian masculinity.

Peter
Peter
3 years ago

You alright there, bud?

Introvert Sigma
Introvert Sigma
3 years ago

Do you have any friends you can hang out with that aren’t connected with this whole manosphere thing?

pinetree
pinetree
3 years ago

So glad you wrote this as I often feel the same. Things ARE changing but slowly. It is our fate to be here. Have to stick it out. What about those young boys sent off to war –ww1 and ww2. We never had it that bad luckily.

John Sharma
John Sharma
2 years ago
Reply to  pinetree

I think things are changing fast now, not slowly. Critical mass is being reached. Red pill knowledge is becoming mainstream.

I have waited 20 years for society at large to wake up to what i saw back then in about 1996, where fully aligning with feminism was going.

Roosh can simply say hes trying to be humble in not talking about his fame as an author and blogger. In poor villages where his dollars are welcome, people are motivated to take his side regardless. The positive in this is it’s screening value. I an hard on women to test their loyalty, this infamy does that job even better.

Pretty much all women switch between “i dont care what anyone says, i know who u really are” and using the same things to justify lowering your worth and authority if other bitches and bitchy men gossip to her for their own self interested influence or jealousy. Deal.

Scotcho Rouleau
Scotcho Rouleau
3 years ago

sounds like you regret the last decade of fully disclosing your personality to the public, because now you own it. That has to suck. I don’t know what you should do.

arménio pereira
arménio pereira
3 years ago

Dear Sir,

Being opinions what they are, I sense that saying to you that your writings are between the things making the web and the collapsing society a somehow more palatable experience will not take you away from your somber leanings.
Accidentally, the browser window where I read the present post also includes the link to Less Knowledge Is More: have you reread it?
I really don’t know if it is possible to unlearn, or if unlearning is even a thing – if it is, surely it won’t be easy. Whatever happens, please know that you were able to surpass the rational barriers that enslave so many of us and reached that place that I hold most dear, my compassion. You have a place in my prayers. (As mostly devoid of meaning and filled with barren controversy as these words are nowadays) God bless.

Lynn
Lynn
3 years ago

Why haven’t you legally changed your name?
Do you have to come back to America to do that?

Aside from messing with your identity on a mental level, it seems like the obvious solution. You have been dealing with this for years now, does keeping your birth name cause so much joy that it outweighs your paranoia and loneliness?

Maximus Decimus Meridius

Good read Roosh. I have been thinking along the same lines. I have a small following now on Twitter and my blog, but I ask myself every day, with you as a lesson… is this what I want?

I have a book I think might sell gangbusters (don’t we all?). Perhaps even enough to allow me to retire. (Allow me my fantasy.)

But that would also mean coming out… using my real name. And the content… a complete history and logical argument for the choice of patriarchy and the logical political/cultural consequences from accepting this truth…

I rarely post my own work on your blog… but I think this is a good time, if I may.

Grow Up Or Shut Up: How Red Pill Philosophy Is Killing The West
http://adreamthatwasrome.com/grow-up-or-shut-up-how-red-pill-philosophy-is-killing-the-west

I was told by one commentor that it was a slap in the face. This is not meant for you… I wrote the piece (as I do almost all of my writing) first and foremost for myself.

The realization I have come to recently is… there is nowhere to run. Even if Roosh could throw away the anchor, hit reset, and start all over… we, as men, are still living in this… shit. Being anonymous or famous in shit… is still living in shit.

Something has to break… and this post is I think another in many posts by leading edge authors like Roosh in the sphere to begin to articulate what I am as well on my blog.

Enough is enough.

Blogging… social media… all of it.

Nothing is going to change… until we change the system.

The only way we are going to change the system… is to bring back a patriarchy. That means getting into politics. Yes, even as corrupt and one-sided as it is now, it is the system we have and if we don’t start working it, (((they))) are coming for us all.

Maximus… A political party? One that is outright advocating for patriarchy? You’re crazy.

Hey… they already think we are all crazy… and nazi’s and hitlers, and deplorables, and dickless, sexless losers living in our Mom’s basement… fill in your favourite.

I see Roosh as the classic Greek hero/tragedy. Achilles was told by his mother he could make a choice. To marry, father a family and live the rest of his life in complete anonymity, no one knowing his name once he was dead. Or… he could go to Troy, fight in the Trojan war, and become a name remebered throughout all the ages.

Aim high Roosh. Or simply decide shut it all down.

Despite the fame and notoriety you have now, shutting down ROK, your blog here, your twitter feed and youtube channel… you might be surprised at how fast you can go back to being a nobody. After all… it is the internet, not real life, and the internet has the attention span of a 3 year old. Yes… there is shit out there you can’t delete or control, but really… who is going to care if you completely change your life and leave it all behind? When someone asks or challenges you… laugh! Own it… own all of it… with a smile and simply… move on. There are countries out there to disappear in. Asia specifically I am thinking about. Life is what you make it. If you want to disappear Roosh… you can and you will. But you have to make the choice.

And maybe that is what this post is all about. Your open questioning not about the past, but about the future. What path should you take Achilles? The door to hero worship and history is open… but do you want to go through it?

I don’t know my choice or decision if I was in your shoes. And believe me, I have seriously put myself in them in thinking forward, no matter how fantastical, about becoming famous, let alone known, as you are.

I have no doubt that should I have to make that choice… it will be a Rubicon I cannot cross back.

But would you really want to? Caesar never looked back because he knew there was no point. The die is cast, let the fates and destiny play out as they will.

Remember… it’s just a ride Roosh. Enjoy it for all you can and all it is worth. It is not just you Roosh asking these questions. Humanity has a HUGE anchor on it, especially in The West. We all know what that anchor is… we just need to throw it off and be free to live and love again… if we so choose.

https://youtu.be/KgzQuE1pR1w

Righterous
Righterous
3 years ago

Your past is an excuse. You’re lack of confidence and determination. You are too depressed and I’m raising my anchor from this site. Godspeed.

Andy
Andy
3 years ago

It’s simple – you are a victim of black magic. Do not delete my posts you pussy!

MCGOO
MCGOO
3 years ago
Reply to  Andy

You’re right on about that. You nailed it. It is witch bitches. The witch bitches have been going to town because they’ve been disregarded and ignored. The problem is the witch bitches can’t stop. They have no governor. They’re backslidden humans who have fallen into a wild animal state not under patriarchal governance. History shows witches always get hung up high by their toenails and flung like a piňata. Patriarchy takes care of the witches and keeps their malicious misuse of the energy grid in check. Otherwise the land sinks into the sea. Patriarchy is the only grace on this Earth that makes it habitable by the human species.

Stephan B
Stephan B
3 years ago

Change identity, name, looks(shave beard) and no one will recognize you. Problem solved.

Tom
Tom
3 years ago

Man I regularly wonder what the fuck happened to my life. Now 34, plagued with burning neuropathic pain that I cannot undo. Fuck me. My life seems to have vanished, all my dreams goals and desires. Now what I ask God everyday. Now fucken what?

pauldrake
pauldrake
3 years ago

“It is a mistake to think that the past is dead. Nothing that has ever happened is quite without influence at this moment. The present is merely the past rolled up and concentrated in this second of time. You, too, are your past; often your face is your autobiography; you are what you are because of what you have been; because of your heredity stretching back into forgotten generations; because of every element of environment that has affected you, every man or woman that has met you, every book that you have read, every experience that you have had; all these are accumulated in your memory, your body, your character, your soul. So with a city, a country, and a race; it is its past, and cannot be understood without it.” That quote is from the great historian and philosopher Will Durant who needs to be read by everybody trying to make sense out of life on this earth.

splooge
splooge
3 years ago

http://www.worldstarhiphop.com/videos/video.php?v=wshht19m2fIuzdG504DD

trashy woman harasses man, fights back, gets white knighted. wtf

splooge
splooge
3 years ago
Reply to  splooge

http://www.worldstarhiphop.com/videos/video.php?v=wshhTye7tQ3w280dQACl

heres other one, white knight koing a dude for dealing with aggressive woman….what to do with white knights

splooge
splooge
3 years ago

http://www.worldstarhiphop.com/videos/video.php?v=wshht19m2fIuzdG504DD

white knight saves trashy hoe after man fights back wtf

nach nicholas
nach nicholas
3 years ago

hang in there rooshinho

Stoic101
Stoic101
3 years ago

Sad read, I don’t know man, been following you for years now and I realize there’s a ton of hate out there and can be directed towards you but there’s two handles to everything…”Everything has two handles, the one by which it may be carried, the other by which it cannot.” Point being that I think you can end up ‘making’ your own problems. You can choose to make things an ‘issue’ for you or not. And I realize others will make things an ‘issue’ for you simply based on the stuff you’ve said. But if it doesn’t feel like a problem for you, than they can’t ‘harm’ you.

I’ve had similar experiences in my life where I encounter people in the past that I didn’t get along with. If you literally feel agitated it will show in your actions. It’s best to just delete the past and move on man. In your case you can’t ‘delete’ it, its ALL out there for anyone to see. I feel like most everything you say is legit and real man, reading this post makes it seem as if your almost ashamed in a roundabout way. Nothing will happen to you unless you ‘think’ its a ‘problem’ man, Just own it and move on, nothing can harm your integrity. If you want to open a coffee shop, open a coffee shop man. This will sound weird, but you can sort of end up creating your own problems. If you think you’ll end up with protesters at your coffee shop than you probably will, whereas if you just went ahead and did it and didn’t think anything of it than you’d never be the wiser and never have protesters.

Basically if you’r going to make a ‘self-fulfilling prophecy’ make sure its something that you deem positive and not negative.

Personally I’d say fuck it man, do what feels right for you. If hate comes your way you’ll still have the same reason and logic to draw on, the same logos.

“Forget the future. When and if it comes, you’ll have the same resources to draw on-the same logos.”

Good luck man, and keep it up.

Seneca
Seneca
3 years ago

unfortunately, what was seen as ‘cool’ 10 years, ago, now is sexist, racist, etc, because every moaning bastard is so selfish as believing that there is nothing worse than stupid problems like what someone said about whom. You need an healthy dose of Seneca, check out the letters from a stoic, also called letters to Lucilius. Read them and get the excellent audiobook on audible, I am studying and hearing this every day, it really helps me. And embrace solitude. I do too. In Italy we have a proverb that Schopenhauer would have loved: ‘better alone than in bad company’. The bad company is the majority of people, which on the internet they show their true colours. It’s the worst of society.

Seneca
Seneca
3 years ago
Reply to  Seneca

ironically, Seneca had the same problem: his success and fame in the end turned against him. The letters mentioned were written after he realized all this. They are really worth reading. And remember: as bad as it feels, the reality is that for many, it’s worse. These idiots who waste their time bitching about everybody, will realize all this too, soon enough. By then they won’t have the time or energy left to bitch about every stupid meaningless shit anymore.

leogets
leogets
3 years ago

The past is not an anchor, it’s a springboard. Too many aphorisms here that explain that: http://orgyofthewill.net/

Seneca
Seneca
3 years ago
Reply to  leogets

it’s a ‘springboard’ if you are still 20 years old, but when you are almost 40, it’s a completely different game. It’s easy to theorize about stuff.

Janez Koren
Janez Koren
3 years ago

I think you should visit a psychiatrist

HB
HB
3 years ago

Manosphere/redpill/alt-right men often point out that sluttish behaviour in women has consequences, even though this hyperfeminist hell of a society we live in tries to normalise it and glorify it. What Roosh is going through, as other men like him are going through if they lived as out in the open as he did, is the virtually the same: you don’t get to settle down with a decent wife after writing dozens of books on how to bang hot women. You lived that life as an alpha male and enjoyed it, but now that very life you lived will prevent you from making a meaningful connection with women because they know you wouldn’t make for a potential lifelong partner. In other words, you are not beta provider material, which is the type of man most sane women look for to grow old with. You might get extremely lucky and find a unicorn who plays along with it (some male porn performers are married with children) but she probably wouldn’t be attractive enough for your tastes or could be into some weird cuckquean fetish or something.

“Alpha fucks and beta bucks,” you may say, but who gets the last laugh? All those hot women Roosh banged have moved on and married or will marry a beta provider type. Roosh and those like him will have a very hard time finding a wife to have children and grow old with. That’s the price he is paying and will keep paying for having banged all those hot women. Maybe it’s worth it for some, but reading this post, it certainly appears that Roosh regrets it. After all, we are primates and we evolved into mostly monogamous mating as a way to avoid killing each other’s offspring. It is in many ways one of the foundations of civilisation as we know it.

But hey: look on your works, ye mighty, and despair. This too shall pass. Your infamy won’t last forever, Roosh. There’s already plenty of famous people who I never heard of before. You could pull down your websites and change your identity. In a few years you’ll find very few will know or remember you, and if they do you could just pretend or show genuine compunction. You might still have a shot at a normal life. Though I’d rather see you keep going down this path and take the experiment to its conclusion, like the scientist you once were.

Girl in the World
Girl in the World
3 years ago
Reply to  HB

I think most women would rather marry a strong, masculine man with a checkered past than a nice beta any day. Most women will give a “real man” who wants to make a real commitment a lot of leeway – they’re kind of rare. Of course, almost all women want a provider. That’s simple biology.

HB
HB
2 years ago

For the record, I don’t mean “beta” as in nice-guy-doormat-who-will-put-up-with-anything-women-do. “Beta males” make up the vast majority of men and most of us don’t put up with drama and bullshit. We don’t have as much sex as “alpha males” mostly because we are not willing to act like scumbags and risk STDs, pregnancies and drama with crazy bitches. We can be every bit as masculine and strong, and some of us are much more “real men” than slimy PUAs and scumbags who walk out on women after getting them pregnant. Real men make hard decisions and put women and children first, not their base appetites and “freedom.”

Most of those men with a “checkered past” won’t be able to commit. They may say they are and even wish to be, but after having so much experience with women they will soon revert to their ways and put their needs above wife and children. And I’ve seen many women get duped into believing them, ending up single mothers.

Anti-Gnostic
Anti-Gnostic
2 years ago

Most women who are mentally imbalanced would rather marry a strong, masculine man with a checkered past.

Almost all women want a provider who is honest and trustworthy.