We Are All Sisyphus

I arrived in a new city and had to start my game efforts from scratch. I went to clubs, cafes, malls, and the town square to meet women. I commited at least one hour a day to this task. Within three weeks, I had sex with two women, but I do not greatly enjoy their company, so I threw them back into the sea. Finally, after another week of labor, I made a catch that I wanted to keep. We had a handful of nice dates, but then it ended, partly due to reasons out of my control. I was still fatigued from my month of strenuous effort, but I had no choice but to run back onto the field. After a short break, I labored again for three weeks, approaching every day, until I succeeded on a girl who in the end was not worth keeping. Then I made a better conquest on a girl I wanted to keep. Finally I could relax! But only a short time, because soon I will have to start over from nothing, approaching for days or weeks until finding what I want.

I sat in front of my computer to write an article. I stared at the blinking cursor on the screen, waiting for my mind to arrange words in a way that people can understand and enjoy. After one hour, two hours, maybe three hours of work, I constructed something I wanted my name attached to. I published it and it was received well. I was commended for my ideas, and then a couple weeks later, the article was forgotten, just another entry on the internet blog heap, and I must start over again with a new idea, a new article, and hope that it’s received just as well.

Sisyphus was condemned by the gods to roll a large boulder up a hill, only to have it fall back down again, a futile task he had to repeat for all eternity. It has been said that this is the worst punishment that can be given to man, but we all have been given the exact same punishment. Sisyphus is a reflection of human existence, the neverending labor we must expend, the repetition of our lives.

I see [Sisyphus] going back down with a heavy yet measured step toward the torment of which he will never know the end. That hour like a breathing-space which returns as surely as his suffering, that is the hour of consciousness. At each of those moments when he leaves the heights and gradually sinks toward the lairs of the gods, he is superior to his fate. He is stronger than his rock.

Sisyphus is indeed the happiest man in the world because he has purpose. He suffers no malaise or existential crisis, and every time he pushes his rock to the top of the mountain I imagine he experiences the purest form of happiness. After this moment, he walks back down the mountain, mentally preparing for another run, and then repeats the same task until experiencing his whirl of happiness yet again. If you want to find a happy man, find a man pushing a rock, one that will eternally roll back down the hill, his enjoyment spaced out in just far enough doses so that he does not numb himself to the pleasure. The pitiful man is one who lacks a rock, who sits at the bottom of the hill, idle, bored, empty, watching Sisyphus’ labor, wondering what he can do with his eternity of time.

At that subtle moment when man glances backward over his life, Sisyphus returning toward his rock, in that silent pivoting he contemplates that series of unrelated actions which becomes his fate, created by him, combined under his memory’s eye and soon sealed by his death.

The two, three, or four weeks I spend looking for my ideal girl is me pushing up the rock, and then—success! I am at the top of the mountain and I enjoy the break that comes from the fruit of my labor, but sure enough this break will end. She will leave me or I will leave her, and I must trudge back down the hill to the resting point of my rock, and begin the exact same process, again and again, until my mortality asserts itself. I do not mind my rock, because I look at men who don’t have one, and pity them for the emptiness that they can never seem to fill.

The struggle itself toward the heights is enough to fill a man’s heart. One must imagine Sisyphus happy.

I can’t say I enjoy pushing a big rock up the mountain, but I’ve done it so many times, and I’ve become so used to the reward of making it to the top, that I don’t know how I could live without it. In a world void of spirituality, void of real meaning, the best thing we can do is find a mountain and a gigantic rock. The brief moment of happiness we experience at the top of the mountain is more than enough to make our lives worth living.

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  1. Ryan April 21, 2014 at 9:24 am

    Not bad, Roosh… I’ve never thought about it from that angle, I’ve only resented the chore. Nice perspective.

  2. jl02 April 21, 2014 at 9:31 am

    “In a world void of spirituality, void of real meaning,”

    What if this is false. I’m a married guy, Catholic traditionalist that took the Red Pill with a Catholic traditionalist wife (granted, this is not the greatest in the crazed USA, but still). The point is that we assume the phrase above is false. The most important thing in the world is Logos (or Greek philosophy plus Aquinas, St. John’s 1:1, Christ incarnate, as reflected in the family).

    I think agnosticism might make the most sense, but living with Logos does give life meaning.

  3. Stijn Vogels April 21, 2014 at 9:40 am

    This is just what life is all about. Come the next morning, you start from scratch.

  4. Kevin April 21, 2014 at 10:05 am


    I’m the guy without a rock. Be glad you have formulated a business that allows you to game all the time.

    For a big fat American dude without much style or game who is a decade older than his targets what places in Eastern Europe would be good bang mission towns?

    There’s no way in going to Thailand.

    1. Jimmy April 21, 2014 at 10:38 am

      Lose the weight, learn some style, learn some game.

      1. Kevin April 21, 2014 at 11:38 am

        You’re right and Jimmy- American girls suck! It’s our toxic culture of poltically correct pinko feminazi garbage.

        Dudes I tell you German girls get a rep as butch but I hung out with 2 of them one afternoon and they beat American girls all the way.

        My Dad used to have a black Angelika (porn star) looking Ukranian secretary- the office was on a busy pkwy near a big shopping mall and cars would honk and thristy dudes would try to holler from the pkwy while she stood outside smoking in her big stilettos. The funny thing is her stacked Russian friends that would come by we’re even more cock hardening.

        I’ve had classes with sweet girls who were au pairs in undergrad from Africa, Asia, South America. Sorry dudes you’re wrong- American girls suck ass. Like Roosh wrote “She is Bitch” the man knew what he was talking about. The part of the US I’m from is redneck right wing neo nazi xenophobia but the African girls (who would be considered low status here) totally outclass these Anglosohere uptight small minded boring flip flop wearers.

      2. awakened April 21, 2014 at 12:27 pm

        “redneck right wing neo nazi xenophobia”

        This quote from your post makes everything else you type irrelevant. Every word in your quote means one thing and one thing only, ANTI-WHITE.

        Hipsters/socialist whites are the scourge of society so it is no wonder you don’t get women.

      3. Kevin April 22, 2014 at 12:17 am

        America is a big strip mall, police state, bland wood frame house, self absorbed, asinine, egotistical psychotic, post modern hypocritical cess pool controlled by central bankers and elite zionists. That whole left/right bull shit is the hegelian dialectic to con all the drones and clowns who buy into the system. Hipsters are half ass twits who don’t have the brains or style to be a full fledged old school hippie. The hippies had Zeppelin, And Hendrix those punks have shit indie bands any ass hole with a stratocaster, MacBook, and 3 months of guitar lessons could do. Go watch some Duck Dynasty and Hannitys America- they pair well together.

      4. awakened April 22, 2014 at 8:00 pm

        Thank you for the response. Now I know you are too fucking stupid to have this conversation.

      5. awakened April 21, 2014 at 12:31 pm

        Ditch the anti-white attitude, get your lard ass in shape, and start acting like a man.

        I hate american women too but not because they are white. It is because of the entitled princess mentality.

        What is your problem with Thailand? It is one of the best places for a lard ass to get decent looking poon.

      6. Kevin @ 420 Nation April 22, 2014 at 1:06 am

        I’m more like an offensive lineman Mexican with mega burrito-too big for those yellow roses but not a black iris. in build not a total fat Albert but thank you for your superb love and encouragement- gracias mi major amigo.

        Asian girls smell funny and I watched Platoon and Hamburger Hill to many times as it created a slanted perception. I think I’ll get in adult friend finder and get me some big booty sistas (saw such a hot chocolate booty in the airport the other day can still see that thing jigglin with excellence look like a beautiful roast on a table-mmmh I’m drooling thinking bout that juicy bird).

        Be a man- what if I trip out hard and have flashbacks and “man up” in excess. Ill pass on the machismo cheese- sounds like a jack Palance line from an 80s script.

        It is white girls black chicks are really cool. This shit is all culture-Ever been to a bar and a uptight white guy serves you and gives that “hey buddy” tone while Leroy and Jamal are like “haha my man try this”- nuff said. I may expat to Ethiopia at least they won’t be anal retentive like chez whitey. Last time I went drinking a brother gave me 3 drinks for one- I’m can get down with that- you feel me?

        The brothers can game too- they don’t blog and read the complete works of Aristotle and Jerome but can get chicks from the club and campus that most guys just fap off to. I know a 47 yo bro who has 23 yo blonde sorority girls two states over begging him to come bang them on FB all week- now that’s game and my mans city of choice- Vegas. A party with some black dudes in Vegas- that’s living- keep your white upright uptight trip- I’m out player.

      7. awakened April 22, 2014 at 7:47 pm

        No offense “420 nation” but your “engwish” sucks ass.

        Your response is some sort of gibberish that reads like pig latin spoken by a guy with a speech impediment.

      8. BernieGoetzFan April 21, 2014 at 3:40 pm

        “The part of the US I’m from is redneck right wing neo nazi xenophobia”
        This does not exist.

    2. Brock April 21, 2014 at 10:47 am

      You don’t need to change your location, you need to change yourself.

    3. edi April 26, 2014 at 9:35 pm

      poland and czech and you dont need a visa!

    4. John Cool May 27, 2014 at 5:07 am

      Keep hitting on women even if you look like shit

  5. Zyzz April 21, 2014 at 10:15 am

    I am in a similar situation; however, I am at the bottom of the hill resting for a bit until I start pushing my rock up the hill.

    1. Dark Age Fire April 21, 2014 at 3:34 pm

      You never wake up again wondering why you are here again.

  6. Kat April 21, 2014 at 11:44 am

    Wow. You’re a sad case. Three weeks and only two conquests?

    Guess what?

    You’re getting older. Almost, not quite, but almost at that moment of epiphany when a 20 year old chick calls you sir for the first time. And then she and her friends will all laugh.

    That’s going to be rich!

    1. Slashfund April 21, 2014 at 7:44 pm

      “Sir” is one step away from “daddy”.

    2. splooge April 22, 2014 at 12:04 am

      well youre female. getting laid is just too easy you just have to wait and choose. its not even brag worthy like a man standing up n peeing. guys have to work to get lucky hence why playas are praised n hos are not.
      3weeks n 2 girls through day game not bad.
      night game its all ons so 1 a week is basically the goal.

      1. king sodom April 22, 2014 at 2:30 pm

        amen bro, that was worth repeating (even if it has been 1million times around here). I think women react this way cos they so fucking stupid, and been treated like barbie dolls, once they hit 30, it’s off to the trailer park to get sodomized, if there lucky

  7. awakened April 21, 2014 at 12:38 pm

    We all have rocks to push up the hill. For some people the rock is career, substance abuse, obesity, fitness, health, family, sporting endeavors, etc etc…

    All we can do is pick and choose which rocks to push and how hard to push.

    The worst trait of my generation (gen x) is laziness. I have it in spades. I need to spend time, effort, and energy on my laziness rock.

  8. Nick Troyer April 21, 2014 at 2:06 pm

    Philosophical Roosh. I dig it. This is very relevant to my own life circumstances. I’m always tempted to think, “Man, it would be great to be lying on a beach somewhere, half drunk on margaritas,” but deep down I know that would get old quick.

  9. BlueTropic April 21, 2014 at 5:20 pm

    Fantastic, extraordinary, amazing. As always.

    Just understand it people, Roosh couldn’t have explained it better.

    FInd things that you want to get and struggle until you get them. Do it again and again all the time and be happy with that until you die, don’t search for more as the sense of life is here revealed.

  10. Marduke April 21, 2014 at 5:55 pm

    Roosh, You’re simply BRILLIANT. Great Article.

  11. Ninja man April 21, 2014 at 7:13 pm

    Our ability to ask deep questions unfortunately far surpasses our ability to answer them. This must not be mistaken for there not being any.

  12. b216 April 21, 2014 at 7:26 pm

    Albert Camus

  13. jumbo April 21, 2014 at 8:18 pm

    I think the problem with most guys is that they slave their lives away at a 9 to 5 pushing somebody else’s rock up the hill instead of their own.

    1. Biehn_Bandit April 22, 2014 at 6:08 pm

      Nailed it.

  14. James d'Anconia April 21, 2014 at 9:40 pm

    This seems unnecessarily bleak Roosh.

    I tend to look at the rock as the entirety of my life, and everyday I’m continuing to exert effort to push it higher and higher and reward myself with pleasure for being successful in my purpose.

    Eventually I’ll die and the rock will tumble down the hill into oblivion, but until that day I’m going to keep pushing it as high as I can and enjoy the rewards that it brings.

  15. Andrés Parrado April 21, 2014 at 10:14 pm

    Years ago, I tried to read Camus´ Sisyphus and I found it boring. This article makes me want to read it again, now in the original language, which I have mastered in the meantime. I never expected roosh to have such an effect on me.

  16. Ovid April 21, 2014 at 11:13 pm

    I’ve been thinking a lot about this subject of late, Roosh. Most of human existence, we had real, concrete, daily struggles. There was always a latrine to dig, food to gather/grow/kill/steal, shelter to prepare or repair, and so forth. Work gives a life purpose and meaning when one does not have a higher consciousness of “ultimate purposes.” Moderns not only have no spiritual reality that they feel comfortable to fall back upon, but have no truly necessary work to do, because in a first world country, even the “poor” are rich and have plenty of food and material possessions to make life relatively easy. 

    At its most basic, life involves being born, getting an education to survive in the world, and then spending some years living: doing what is necessary to survive, mating and having kids, and teaching them in turn how to survive, and then dying. 

    Nowadays there’s nothing necessary to do, and no real wars to fight, so the average man’s existence is reduced to witless corporate slavery, which affords him the money to buy more, newer stuff, and a few hours of free time in the evening to saturate his mind with mindless entertainment which lets him live vicariously by seeing television about men and women who actually live -who actually have real risk, and struggle, and thus something of a point to their lives. Modern man does not want children because he doesn’t see much point in his own existence, and doesn’t want to inflict it on others. Plus kids cost money he’d rather spend on a new jet ski. 

    This is the problem with the West: when the religion of science and its holy sacrament of technology dethrones the sacraments of the Church, life ultimately becomes pointless, and from pointless it becomes oppressive. 

    1. gaoxiaen April 21, 2014 at 11:33 pm

      The first rule of Fight Club is…

    2. Max Steel May 12, 2014 at 9:33 pm

      So what the hell do you want me to do about it?

    3. John Cool May 27, 2014 at 5:06 am

      Nice religious speech, but atheism/science has nothing to do with that. If anything science explores curiosity about the universe and questions everything. The real reason for men’s failure is rise of feminism and boys raised by single moms.

  17. Wolvulus April 21, 2014 at 11:55 pm

    an excellent article Roosh.

  18. Gil G April 22, 2014 at 12:02 am

    Whoa! Wait. What? The punishment of Sisyphus is about endless work with no reward – doing the same thing over and over and not getting any better at it let alone getting any critical feedback. The story is more akin to constantly using every technique with women only to have them being polite to you at best. Sooner or later you’ll just give up hitting on women.

  19. T. Chadwick Bangwell April 22, 2014 at 12:25 am

    Mr. Roosh

    What point did you reach mentally to where you were like I’d rather die homeless than sit in DC at his crappy lab and be around the same boring girls all the time?

    Were you always a risk taker your whole life? Or did you just reach a breaking point where it was do or die?

  20. I can't read good April 22, 2014 at 12:58 am

    At first glance I thought it said “We Are All Syphilis.”

  21. Zelcorpion April 22, 2014 at 3:17 am

    Maybe it’s time for Mr. Roosh to become a seeker – to find a reason for it all, for the seeming Sisyphus-like existence that all creatures have. Now, what could that reason be?

  22. Moez April 22, 2014 at 3:21 am

    ‘Ideal girl’ ? there is no ideal girl. To me thats the basic tenet of red pill philosophy.

  23. VinceLin April 22, 2014 at 4:31 am

    Roosh you are the man

  24. load of crap April 22, 2014 at 12:44 pm

    roosh you will never be happy and you should never be happy because you think you deserve the best, but why should you get the 9s and 10s when you are at best a 6 your dna would ruin the offspring of a beautiful woman and turn her child from a potential 8,9 or 10 into a lousy 5,6 or 7 that would be devolution.
    and if you say you do not want kids then you would simply be stripping a woman of her purpose to bear children and in the process knocking the European birthrate down even more. you are a cancer. And you are destined to die alone.

  25. JJ Roberts April 22, 2014 at 12:44 pm

    Hard task. Wouldn’t it be easier to just have lots of girlfriends at the same time and not to break up with women?

  26. PeeWee April 22, 2014 at 4:13 pm

    Not me

  27. Kenneth with the White Nose April 22, 2014 at 9:49 pm

    We are all slaves to self-awareness. FT1X

  28. Truth Tiger April 24, 2014 at 2:22 am

    ‘ In a world void of spirituality, void of real meaning, the best thing
    we can do is find a mountain and a gigantic rock. The brief moment of
    happiness we experience at the top of the mountain is more than enough
    to make our lives worth living.’

    In your current understanding, yes. Time to revisit Brazil, someone named Aya Huasca awaits you…

  29. Dadang May 15, 2014 at 4:09 am

    Definitely diligently read, also be a learning for us. whatever it is, there’s nothing wrong if you try a good thing, that could increase knowledge for us
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  30. John Cool May 27, 2014 at 5:04 am

    I only agree with Roosh’s point slightly. Some people wouldn’t necessarily fill void by not getting the girl. Especially the asexual types. This really applies to what goals you want in life to reach.

  31. Spengler February 12, 2017 at 12:43 pm

    Nietzschean hostility for nihilism – you’ve reached the same conclusions.