What Else Is There?

Previously: The Thrill Is Gone

“The moment a man questions the meaning and value of life, he is sick, since objectivity neither has any existence; by asking this question one is merely admitting to a store of unsatisfied libido to which something else must have happened, a kind of fermentation leading to sadness and depression.”
-Freud

“[Men] are born for the solid earth, not for the water. And naturally they won’t think. They are made for life, not for thought. Yes, and he who thinks, what’s more, he who makes thought his business, he may go far in it, but he has bartered the solid earth for the water all the same, and one day he will drown.”
Steppenwolfe

I’m sitting on a pile of money.

I have three monthly expenses: cell phone, hosting for this site, and student loans, which are very low (public university). I can pay off those 4% interest loans now but I rather have the cash flow.

I live like I’m poor. I can afford to buy a car but I don’t want one. I can get my own place but what’s the point if I’m not staying long. I never liked dining out. I’m getting close to the level of cash I had before I went on my trip last year, and I barely do any work. At work my manager asked me if I wanted to add some more shifts, but I declined.

I sat on the kitchen table and looked at all the Black Friday advertisements. There’s a lot of things I can buy right now: nicer winter coat, boots, fancy SLR camera, and better laptop. But I don’t need them. I looked through the fliers for an hour and the only thing that got me out the door was K-Mart’s sale of thermal sweaters for $3.97 each. My mom and sister asked me what I want for Christmas and I told them to get me a card. If you said to me I had a month to live I wouldn’t buy or change anything.

What a weird place to be in with no dreams, no goal of conquer.

A few years ago someone told me, “Sometimes it’s better to want something than to have it.” I understand that now. Wanting puts you in an insecure state of mind that distracts you from the big questions which reveal the absurdity of most of what we do. It distracts us from our existence.

So I’ll hit the road again. I’ll have tons of interesting experiences—more than I’m having here, for sure. But without purpose it can be just as shallow to rack up countries like it is women. What’s going to guide me to a glorious end? What will motivate me to get up when I fall? What will make me a better person?

Maybe having a kid would do it. I can go to Brazil, marry a beautiful girl, and try to crack it there. That’d keep me challenged for at least a few years. For the majority of human beings, having a kid solves the purpose problem. But no, I rather remain single. Monogamy to me seems like early retirement from the best parts of life.

You know how when someone is sure to die they put them in a hospice so they are as comfortable as possible? I feel like I’m in life’s hospice. Just fucking around to entertain myself, wishing the clock wasn’t moving so fast. I’m not rich but this is how rich people must feel. It’s a hollow feeling. Not unhappy or sad, just hollow.

61 Comments

  1. Cold Weather December 4, 2008 at 12:02 pm

    It’s winter in DC man. The cold weather and short days get everyone really down. Wait for spring with warm weather, mini-skirts, and sun dresses.

  2. Randy December 4, 2008 at 12:24 pm

    Hi Roosh,

    Love your blog, man. Keep up the good work and make sure you post from wherever you are.

    I just came back from a cool trip to the Dominican Republic and am planning on a trip through South America.

    The U.S. sucks so get out while you can.

    Good luck.

    By the way this kid could be biting your stilo.

    http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/28049776/

  3. Anonymous December 4, 2008 at 12:28 pm

    Yeah staying single is the best thing Roosh.lots of women in their late 20’s -30’s will push marriage right away instead of dating to have fun.Its like you take one out to dinner and she is asking you about marriage before the salad even arrives to your table.
    Hollowness?get used to it.It just seems now adays that Im just trying to keep myself “entertained with something”just to out do the feeling of emptiness.or distract myself with something interesting.
    Brazil sounds good, but Brazilian women are very Jealous.But what a beautiful counrty.I loved visiting there.
    We all are just saving our money these days in these uncertain times or trying to.to bad we cant save our happiness if our life depended on it.

  4. S December 4, 2008 at 12:32 pm

    Are sexy Brazilian girls down to marry us American -Persian hybrids?

  5. The G Manifesto December 4, 2008 at 1:02 pm

    “It’s winter in DC man.”

    Dead on.

    “I just came back from a cool trip to the Dominican Republic and am planning on a trip through South America.

    The U.S. sucks so get out while you can.”

    Dead on again. This is the kind of positive talk that will get you out of your doldrums.

    Buy a plane ticket.

    – MPM

    The G Manifesto’s last blog post: Real Hip-Hop: Shyheim, On And On feat June Luva.

  6. The G Manifesto December 4, 2008 at 1:06 pm

    Or start taking extacy.

    “What’s going to guide me to a glorious end? What will motivate me to get up when I fall? What will make me a better person?”

    Deep thought is good, but you are over thinking this.

    “Glorious end?”

    Who says you get one? If you are lucky if you get shot in a barbers chair or in front of a famous steakhouse.

    The rest of us end up in a hole filed with lime.

    – MPM

    The G Manifesto’s last blog post: Real Hip-Hop: Shyheim, On And On feat June Luva.

  7. Doug December 4, 2008 at 1:08 pm

    You are in mourning. Mourning your past life. See, the way I see it is that your conquest of all things female has been so all encompassing, that now that it’s not there, if feels like there is a huge hole in your life. It happens to a lot of people. I’ve heard numerous stories about sports coaches and business executives that died shortly after they were forced to retire. Why? Because they weren’t strong enough to find another purpose for their life. The thing is, there isn’t a huge hole in your life… there’s a huge opportunity. An opportunity to go and do something great.

    Doug’s last blog post: TMI Thursday: Work Edition.

  8. Kerouac December 4, 2008 at 1:11 pm

    You are what you make of yourself.

    Find yourself a value system. What do you believe in that is positive? What is it that only interests YOU? What are some things you looked up to before but you’ve forgotten about?

    This is the important step. Maybe before getting the Girl was the challenge. Now that you’ve accomplished that to a sufficient degree, you may have found yourself in a situation where you’ve forgotten about everything else.

    For me, I remembered that I have very many wants in my life, and they are things that can never be sufficiently accomplished, which in effect keep me wanting them even more. For instance, learning to play an instrument like the Piano at a difficult level, learning to play tennis, etc. There is so much in this world to WANT that are not material things. Material things are CHEAP and EASY to get. Life is beautiful, as cliche and cheesy as that sounds, when you strive to attain what is NOT EASY and CHEAP.

  9. speakeasy December 4, 2008 at 1:23 pm

    You know I find it hard to believe that between this blog and the previous, you still have people suggesting that Roosh chase more ass, see more skirts, travel more, have more fun, go to clubs, etc etc. Do you just not get it?? It’s like telling your friend who has a hangover to just take a few shots to make the problem go away.

    The problem Roosh has here is a problem of the soul. Or something from within. It won’t be solved by tagging more ass or seeing more beautiful women, or wandering around more strange streets in cities he’s never been to. The problems of the soul will follow you around wherever you go. YOU CANNOT TAKE A VACATION FROM YOURSELF.

    Suggesting that he distract himself with more meaningless distractions as some sort of remedy to his obvious issue, a lack of meaning and purpose in life, is doing him a disservice, and I’m sure he’s intelligent enough to realize that for himself.

    To Roosh, I say hang in there man. I’ve gone through similar feelings to what you’re experiencing, albeit for different reasons. It will take some soul searching and a re-orientation of your life and priorities, but you will get there. True, long-term happiness is an inside job and it starts with a change in mindset and perspective and goals. Happiness can be found when you learn to find beauty and amazement in even the smallest details of life. It’s found when you learn to appreciate everything you have, your life’s experiences, your potential and possibilities of discovering more. And having something to live for beyond your carnal needs. It’s found by helping others and feeling you are contributing to the whole to make a difference. Running around in a never-ending goal of more sexual conquests is not a meaningful goal. It will be fun, but it won’t make you happy. And that’s the problem I see with a lot of the guys giving you suggestions, they don’t seem to realize the difference between fun and long-term happiness. They are not the same.

    I think everything is going to work out fine for you, bro. You’re clearly an intelligent and insightful guy. I’ve never met you and it’s a bit funny that I’m typing up a lengthy reply to someone I don’t personally know, but I’ve got a lot out of reading your writings since last summer and if I can return the favor I’m glad to do it. Just remember, from an outside perspective you’re actually in a pretty good place. You did what very few guys will ever do. You experienced more women then is probably good for you. Well, that’s not a bad problem to have. Now, you are at a milestone in life where it’s time to grow beyond that. Rather than despair, look at it as a new insight and a catalyst to move yourself forward.

    Good look bro!

  10. rooshjr December 4, 2008 at 1:28 pm

    I recommend reading Personal Development for Smart People by Steve Pavlina. It’ll help you find your life purpose,among other things. Hope it helps.

  11. Rajia December 4, 2008 at 1:33 pm

    Just curious if you’re helping your parents out with the bills now that you’re sitting on a load of cash and living in their house.

  12. The G Manifesto December 4, 2008 at 2:03 pm

    “Do you just not get it?? It’s like telling your friend who has a hangover to just take a few shots to make the problem go away.”

    I think that is a great way to get rid of a hangover.

    Along with a workout, and if you burn, twist up a J of the G-13.

    Followed by a Kobe Burger and a nap.

    Works every time.

    – MPM

    The G Manifesto’s last blog post: Real Hip-Hop: Shyheim, On And On feat June Luva.

  13. Anonymous December 4, 2008 at 2:06 pm

    # 7,#11,
    Nicely put #7 I couldnt agree with you more.After one wins the “Race” then one needs to start a new one.
    #11.
    I had to move in with my own mother last year due to the economy and loosing a high paying job(50,000-60,000 a year)well it is was enough for my needs im single now.
    But I work a regular low paying job and help moms with things like rent and food.
    Im 35 years old and had been married before with 2 homes one rental property and cars paid off.
    but now adays I have to “face reality”and make the best of it.
    Shoot,im just glad I can still eat these days.and have a J.O.B.
    I realized its was a humbling experience to say the least but im happy despite everything else crashing down( the economy,the american society)
    But getting a new purpose is key.sometimes its a simple purpose like just plain “survival” and being glad to just be alive.

  14. bjd December 4, 2008 at 2:17 pm

    What else is there? You’re too smart to fall for religion, nationalism, or materialistic crap.

    Helping others? I want to do that in theory, but in practice I usually find it tedious, which I guess makes me a bad guy; but maybe you won’t find it tedious.

    Maybe it’s writing, or some other form of artistic expression. I think you enjoyed the process (in the Hemingway sense) of getting tail as much as the tail, it just got old; and it sounds like you still enjoy the process of writing.

  15. Winter Downers December 4, 2008 at 2:30 pm

    completely agree. winter in DC sucks, depresses the fuk outta me every year….makes me want to get fat just for tha extra warmth……nah not really. take a flight where the girls are browner and the drinks are stronger.

  16. Ben December 4, 2008 at 3:15 pm

    Prozac

  17. KassyK December 4, 2008 at 4:43 pm

    What about artistic expression by way of creative hobbies? Not material things but real hobbies? Things that give you joy.

    Get into film, read more literature, expand your mind, learn an instrument (I think someone else mentioned that), there are so many incredibly rewarding experiences in this world that have nothing to do with chasing tail.

    Learn to feel truly at home with who you are…find out what you like besides “ass”…

    You love to travel and if you can afford to, go for it. Enjoy the other cultures and feel lucky you do not have to work at 9-5 like most of us.

    Also–I know its a money suck but living on your own is a really powerful thing. Constantly living with other people is a drain on the soul as well.

    So maybe take that trip to another country but stay away from hostels and get a place. Just you. And live like a native.

    Good luck. 🙂

  18. Tampa December 4, 2008 at 4:57 pm

    Can we get back to banging bitches and rolling over hoes?????

    This blog has gone to the shitter..

    Lets get back to Legs in the air and four at at time?

  19. Anonymous December 4, 2008 at 5:12 pm

    Go to the Peruvian Amazon and find some Ayahuasca.

  20. The G Manifesto December 4, 2008 at 5:50 pm

    “Get into film, read more literature, expand your mind, learn an instrument”

    Agreed. The best part about doing these things is you can spin them into swooping more girls!

    – MPM

    The G Manifesto’s last blog post: Real Hip-Hop: Shyheim, On And On feat June Luva.

  21. todd h December 4, 2008 at 6:30 pm

    you wrote a book right? and you’re finishing another.
    you’re a writer. that’s your calling. your goal/objective: writing.
    keep at it… embrace it. “what else is there?” open your eyes amigo. the world awaits you. start traveling again if that’s what fuels you. and write about it so those of us stuck at a desk can share these experiences…

  22. justme December 4, 2008 at 7:50 pm

    Neo’s answer is much more profound than most people realize.
    ____________
    Agent Smith: Why, Mr. Anderson? Why do you do it? Why get up? Why keep fighting? Do you believe you’re fighting for something? For more than your survival? Can you tell me what it is? Do you even know? Is it freedom? Or truth? Perhaps peace? Yes? No? Could it be for love? Illusions, Mr. Anderson. Vagaries of perception. The temporary constructs of a feeble human intellect trying desperately to justify an existence that is without meaning or purpose. And all of them as artificial as the Matrix itself, although only a human mind could invent something as insipid as love. You must be able to see it, Mr. Anderson. You must know it by now. You can’t win. It’s pointless to keep fighting. Why, Mr. Anderson? Why? Why do you persist?

    Neo: Because I choose to.

  23. Gabi December 4, 2008 at 7:51 pm

    then come…

  24. James G - Expat Rock Star December 4, 2008 at 8:53 pm

    I was at a similar point about 8 years ago. Some bread in my pocket, and extremely unstaffed with life, like I was just floating, almost like not even existing.

    So I sold all of my stuff and moved overseas, first the Middle East and now I live in Southeast Asia (Bangkok, Thailand and Jakarta, Indonesia). It was the best move I have ever made…

    I can honestly say that I am now happy and fulfilled everyday without exception

    James G – Expat Rock Star’s last blog post: Traveling Working Gals in the Middle East.

  25. todd h December 4, 2008 at 8:57 pm

    READ: MAN’S SEARCH FOR MEANING.

    BY VIKTOR E. FRANKL

  26. Anonymous December 5, 2008 at 12:23 am

    Question: why do you gamers always recommend books?

  27. Gabi December 5, 2008 at 12:25 am

    yeah read it
    or…
    come to Brazil
    😉

  28. Anonymous December 5, 2008 at 12:33 am

    Feb 22nd 2009 Brazilian Carnival starts.Gets your tickets soon!

  29. z December 5, 2008 at 4:22 am

    Have a great time in Brazil Roosh. Hope you can take plenty of pictures and perhaps visit some archaeological sites with the ladies you meet.

    BTW—I think the optimal situation for a man is if he could start some sort of business that pretty much ran itself. For instance owning a successful McDonalds located off an interstate bypass somewhere. You get the profits (well most of them), and the manager has to run the place……………….while you are out there enjoying yourself. No innovation on your part necessary and very little to distract you. It would be like being born with a trust fund for the ordinary guy. Of course if you borrowed a lot of money and that didn’t work out……………yikes.

    Too bad we aren’t all born with trust funds, but I digress.

  30. rdj December 5, 2008 at 4:54 am

    Hey Roosh,

    I feel exactly the same way and am in full time office work. It’s just hollow and pointless. I feel like I go to work and mastubate for 8 hours and nothing ever gets acheived except for the flow of money being moved around. No amazing things happen, it’s just full of old men in their mid-life crisis periods desperate to make lots of money..no idea why as they work 12 hours a day so could never spend it if they tried.

    Luciky I have my music outside of work which is about the only thing keeping me going, but apart from that, work and existence just seems hollow.

    -rdj

  31. Anonymous December 5, 2008 at 9:36 am

    Minor point, but if you really think having a child would be fulfilling, Roosh, you don’t have to get married to have/adopt one.

  32. rudy and blitz December 5, 2008 at 10:02 am

    Jesus. This post is like a dashboard confessional song. Stop being emo, get out and do something.

  33. chase December 5, 2008 at 10:16 am

    just follow your heart dude. money with no clear destination is not a bad problem to have.

  34. speakeasy December 5, 2008 at 12:47 pm

    lol @ 32!

    Hey, at least Roosh has a pile of cash he’s sitting on. That’s more than a lot of people can say right now!

  35. adrock December 5, 2008 at 1:19 pm

    “I feel like I’m in life’s hospice. Just fucking around to entertain myself, wishing the clock wasn’t moving so fast.”

    Well said. As a cognitive animal I feel that when survival isn’t your primary focus, a purpose in living can be tough (impossible?) to ascertain. I think the dream of a “better life” was a powerful purpose for many of our ancestors, and taking care of offspring can also provide purpose.

    I’m a bit of a hedonist myself and I’m afraid that my nature of finding ways to entertain myself and seek pleasure are just distracting me from the fact that my life is without purpose and that I’m just bidding my time until I die. But really, aren’t we all?

  36. Anonymous December 5, 2008 at 1:29 pm

    Money

    sex

    power

    emptyness

    life is simple when you have what others dont.

  37. The G Manifesto December 5, 2008 at 1:49 pm

    “I’m a bit of a hedonist myself and I’m afraid that my nature of finding ways to entertain myself and seek pleasure are just distracting me from the fact that my life is without purpose and that I’m just bidding my time until I die. But really, aren’t we all?”

    Yep.

    – MPM

    The G Manifesto’s last blog post: Body Shop West Hollywood Fire.

  38. klingo December 5, 2008 at 4:08 pm

    whoa there, you sound like me now.

    everything we do is a distraction until the day we die.

    i lay in bed most nights and imagine what it will be like. to die. to feel chest pains while my heart stops or spasms out of control. one day i will know what that’s like, for a moment.

    smoking marijuana is fun.

    and kids are the best. it helps to care for another living thing that will one day realize it’s fate, just like you did.

  39. Anonymous December 5, 2008 at 4:17 pm

    Sounds like you’ve done all there is to do. That and the fact that your blog sucks now. Why don’t you call it a life and kill yourself?

  40. todd h December 5, 2008 at 5:50 pm

    dont kill youself. shut down your blog.
    forcing people to buy your books, and not freeload.
    in the meantime move to brazil. learn portuguese.
    maybe teach science classes at University of Rio if you have to…

  41. Namtab December 5, 2008 at 5:51 pm

    Roosh, maybe this religion thing is worth a shot? Get in touch with your Turkish roots? Eh?! Eh?!!

    Don’t quit now!

  42. michael December 5, 2008 at 10:56 pm

    Take a break from women Roosh, you’re burned out. Get a hobby to occupy your time. Xbox, martial arts, anything. This existential despair of yours is counterproductive. Talk to your friend Roissy. He has the right idea. And stop whining, you could be in Haiti with those people eating dirt cakes.

  43. speakeasy December 6, 2008 at 3:04 am

    I agree with Michael above completely. Take up something like Martial Arts. It will make you better in many ways, your physical health, your build, your mind, your willpower, coordination. I’ve been doing martial arts for 3 years now and it was one of the best decisions I’ve made. And what you said about the Hatians eating mud cakes is spot on. 90% of the world doesn’t have the time to sit around pondering the meaning of life. That’s a luxury few in the world can afford.

  44. Lovechild December 6, 2008 at 12:57 pm

    Cut that “Boredom-Existentialist Conundrum” crap you’re in!

    There’s more to life than this man! (material shit and pussies included!) which you’re probably realizing right about now.

    You’re in a period of your life where some of life’s value and meaning sort of lost meaning and flavour.

    Dude, you’ll figure something out! You’ll have too. Either you find your purpose and passion in life or boredom…which is worst than hell in my opinion.

  45. Anonymous December 6, 2008 at 9:51 pm

    Roosh,

    For what it’s worth, some rich people are happy. If your money is self-made, having 200 grand in the bank isn’t a bad thing.

  46. Anonymous December 7, 2008 at 9:33 am

    Your problem is obvious. The problem is you. You have no passion, no affliction, no mission. Ass was your mission, but everybody gets laid… even the hillbillys in Oklahoma can get hot ass. You travel and write, but none of it is with purpose, style, or substance. You went to Brazil and lived in hostels, partied and got laid. I would suggest you go live life — i.e. not working in a bar, going out to bars, writing in bars, etc.

  47. Oaks December 7, 2008 at 6:09 pm

    It seems like you are really down and not much words or encouragement is going to help you.

    You have done alot of unplugging from the world and that was what I was going to recommend. So that leaves you to spending sometime with the homeless in the street and seeing where they are in life. Sure they are on the street and cold as shit. But I bet they are happier than most Americans working in corporate America.

    Oaks’s last blog post: New Apartment So Far….

  48. Lou P. December 8, 2008 at 12:04 am

    You’re living below your means and saving money — that is a very good thing.

  49. doItRight December 8, 2008 at 1:44 pm

    You should look up depression my friend. Maybe some health insurance and a trip to the doctor will help you out. Lexapro, Xanax, or Zoloft might help. It has been proven people that don’t have hope or something to live for die earlier.

  50. Mitch December 8, 2008 at 3:18 pm

    Don’t do drugs

  51. David December 8, 2008 at 5:12 pm

    To all the haters, as if you’ve never felt down or questioned the meaning of your life, and thought about ways to find contentment. You’re nothing more than the slow, borderline retard jocks who bully small kids with glasses.

    I think it’s admirable that Roosh is pondering if there’s anything more to sex in life. The short answer: of course there is. Every guy realizes this at some point, and seeks to improve themselves.

    Roosh, go out and find your contentment. Sex is good, but an orgasm lasts all of 5 seconds. By all means, get women, teach shy guys like me how to pick up women, but don’t let it define you.

    For me, travelling the world and exploring other cultures defines me. Learning what I can through my interactions with others, truly understanding what they’re all about, and giving back what I can to them. For you, it may be something else. Find your passion, and don’t let the haters get you down.

  52. Anonymous December 9, 2008 at 11:22 pm

    I’m 47 yy. i’ve enjoyed your site and can completely associate with almost everything you say. Fortunately, I transition’d in my mid-late 20’s from professional student to a very good management position where the money was good and I continued coquering women until I had had enough.
    You have some years of fun left…have fun….but making more money helps cause in your 20’s it does not matter to women…. but in your 30’s it will matter that you atleast(in their eyes) are headed somewhere positive finacially.
    You also sound lost…and I can only tell you…keep looking..but look for your answers in new places….if you don’t find it there move on.
    Good luck!

  53. Lifesaver December 9, 2008 at 11:36 pm

    The previous few comments are apparently from good people. Roosh, focus on becoming more productive. Realize that we all have stages of life and therefore goals change. Welcome this next stage and re-invent yourself. Taking the road less traveled may be the direction you need to point yourself in. Like, try a new career, try joining a bible based church, try not to score but just be a friend. Try drinking less and working out more, become a big brother, go on a mission trip, give some of your money to the less fortunate. Do like Castanza, do the opposite of what youve done in the past.

  54. Lovechild December 19, 2008 at 8:48 pm

    OMG!

    @56

    “Like, try a new career, try joining a bible based church, try not to score but just be a friend. Try drinking less and working out more, become a big brother, go on a mission trip, give some of your money to the less fortunate. Do like Castanza, do the opposite of what youve done in the past.”

    You’re Chump advices man! You’re Probably a Chump!

  55. Anonymous March 2, 2009 at 1:33 pm

    Yeah, same idea here: you’ve been tilling a lot of fields but failed to plant seed or reap harvest… and any ensuant “starving of the soul” cliche…

    I suppose the only step that really comes after mastering the game of fielding women is going towards a long term version of that game; getting a good one to “hold onto” that will work towards a similar goal with you. Consider training the best students in your classes, charging them for using your method and have them give classes which gives you a cut without having to work so much…like a franchise (or a lord-vassal relationship to continue with the farming analogy). So that’ll take care of the money issue to some degree. Maybe get a degree in something that will further your legitimacy beyond just experience so as to swing your method into something that spreads your cultural perspectives to a wider audience… make pervasive your sensibilities and increase self-awareness of the bullshit that Americans are so blind to… like find the root cause or some kind of sociological holy grail… a wake up call to be more human and comfortable and much, much less asshole and loser. Or however it would sound….I’m not the writer. You could be doing a great deal of good if you only market it properly.

    Or just get back into corporate and be that guy that knows how to score quality, non-WASPy chicks without talking about their expensive cars, vacation homes, (lower-)upperclass luxury goods.

  56. PhilosopherKing October 27, 2011 at 11:15 pm

    “Almighty God,
    you have made us for yourself,
    and our hearts are restless
    till they find their rest in you” -St Augustine

    Read City of God and City of Man

    “Every time a man knocks on a brothel door, he is really searching for God.” -GK Chesterton

  57. Ty May 27, 2014 at 8:37 pm

    I started reading this blog with interest but I’ve become increasingly annoyed at Roosh constantly whining and complaining about how life is oh so miserable and America what a hell on earth, and in my mind he suddenly turns into this big whining faggot more typical of a teenage androgyne hipster emo bullshit. You sound like a fucking pussy man. Because here’s the thing, Roosh is in reality a beta male, trying to compensate by intellectualizing alpha male game and writing all sorts of shit about it (all beta defense mechanisms). But the fact remains he will always be a miserable beta male, and life will always be unfair to him, and he will always cry about it like the pussy he is, instead of manning up about it. Chicks will fuck alpha males, sooner or later, regardless, it’s just nature, regardless or whatever mental bullshit we get into to try to rationalize things. True alphas don’t need to play all these silly “games.” Roosh is a poor girl who can’t be happily and positively assertive with his existence. If that’s the case then maybe, Roosh, you should know your place and go try sticking a fat hairy cock up your ass and see if that will give you the type of enlightenment you’re looking for. I say that with all due respect. Just drop the whining will you?

    Now here’s a contradiction: Roosh seems to advocate for traditional gender roles, yet, he will only whine and escape when considering the demands that a more traditional society places on men in order to prove their manhood (marriage, successful jobs, cars, houses, kids, etc.) In other words, you regret our modern American society, yet it is this same society which has given you the freedom not to marry, not to have a stable job, not to own things, ie, to be a loser. You’re a contradicting faggot.

    So I’m not buying your beta male mental shit any more Roosh. Loser whining pussies like you only provide opportunities for feminism to exploit men’s insecurities and advance. You beta males are a failed species, always have been. You and your whining are the cause of feminism. Think about it.

  58. Tom Kaye January 25, 2015 at 3:34 am

    I give you props for writing these introspective posts, and then keeping them up year after year. Even after you’ve grown and moved on (hopefully).

    I know you don’t listen to the haters, otherwise this post wouldn’t still be here.

    You sound a bit like a man I read about a while back who studied and was a leader at, I think, the first Zen Buddhist monastery in the United States. He had his moment of Satori. Enlightenment. In a flash he understood what Zen had been trying to teach him, what all the meditation and fasting and special diets were all leading him toward. He realized he was nothing. Everything is nothing. What is unspeakable is unspeakable because it is not and we cannot conceive of nothing.

    It was his experience of satori that lead him to leave the monastery. Staying was pointless. So was leaving, but why not? No reason. He found work to do. I think he got married and started a family. You know, the things all living animals do.

    I know these feelings well. I had my experience of “enlightenment” when I was 15 and it nearly killed me. I was filled with despair and decided to kill myself. I didn’t, obviously. But even my encounter with the IS (I Am) was not enough to banish futility from my life forever. Why? Because I wanted empirical proof of spiritual realities. The problem is dimensional. Spiritual reality exists in a different dimension, a higher dimension, than our tiny, 4-D world. Consciousness occupies that reality, both as a tool and also a vehicle for our separate self. We do exist as individuals because we were made as separate beings. But we can only know the truth of this from within our consciousness. Like logic itself, the soul cannot be an object of scientific study. We use logic to conduct science (among other things), but logic itself is not and cannot be a subject of scientific study. Yet without it, science is not possible.

    Even so, consciousness is the tool we use to experience science, and actually, all of life itself. but it is not a proper subject of scientific study. It cannot be.